Life isn't fair... but sometimes fate gives us something. I got you for a little while, which was nice. (': I miss you. Life at home is hard right now, everyone in my house is on edge and it makes living here hard. I can't talk to my mom anymore about much, because she just gets angry all the time. Sometimes I really don't believe people can change. My step dad won't stand up for himself and I lost my best friend to a boy... life is a downer sometimes. It's hard to try and talk about these things to other people, it was so easy to talk to you. I never felt like I bothered you when I wanted to rant, now I always feel like that. I never felt like I talked to much, now I always feel that way. I felt beautiful when I was with you, now I rarely do. Sometimes I really hate myself. But I know that there is hope for me. Even though I'm no where where I want to be, someday I'll be closer. I am going to better. For both of us I promise.
"Andy-roo." I truly miss you. Not that writing this is going to make you come alive, and you'll never see it, still I write. I really miss your jokes, your smile, your kisses. Is that wrong? It's been over a year, but I still love you. I hope that's okay... it hurts with you, and not a day goes by that I don't miss you. And I don't mean to cry... I know you'd get upset if you knew, but every day my heart still aches a little knowing I can't see you. Please don't forget about us down here, ask God for some sunshine?