I LIVE FOR MANY
REASONS CARE TO TAKE
SOME GUESSES

my fav foods are sushi ichiban raman and i love to where my kimono

all the pain and suffering that ive brought apon myself are the things that kill me slowly from
the inside out

i can only cry my self to sleep holding a picture so cose to me

chibis rock and there awsome

over and over over and over i fall for you over and over i dont even try too so many thoughts that are stuck in my head i try to live on without you but every time i do i feel dead i know whats best for me but i want you insted ill just keep on waisting away. three days grace over and over

ill always be here to think about the one person who ment
the world to me so close to my heart and yet so far away but all i can really do is cry
and she knows who she is

someone is here to save me from my self now and forever
or so i thought or is there some one that i dont see that turely loves me and is here to save me but im to blind to see what is really in front of my eyes i can feel it but i just want to see it as well someone plz help me

im so confused what is my real
perpose in life what reason do have to hold on to to keep
on liveing who am i

my heart may be broken but all i really want is to be
loved is it to much to ask some one to just do for me
why wont any body just stay here by my side if people just knew how much pain im in then maby they would see
i may be the be the nicest guy on this planet but im also the lonelyest as well IM JUST LIKE GAARA IM NOTHING BUT A MONSTER

my heart gets broken all the time

im a failure when it comes to dateing a girl becuse i alwasy get hurt every time in the end i wish girls wouldent
hurt me in the first place

^ i have this sine for love tatooed on my left arm

i get sad and lonely when nobody is talking to me

dose any body realize how much my own life sucks have to deal every day with problems my life is starting to look pointless because the only people left that are helping me are my best bro robbin and his gf stef my mom and my very careing x girl jess the rest of this wold ive shut out of my life the reason is because i dont want to trouble them with my problems yes ive become emo i am in pain and upset sad confused and some times feeling so alone and lost afrade i die slowly in pain evey day ive try to atempt suiside one to many times i try but all i just do is break down and cry my life is hell im suffering on the inside when some one gives me a hug or touches or gets close to me i tremble becase i am afrade that there just gonna hurt me again and being on the computer is the where im at peace its rare for me to be around people but when i am i dont say much i talk alot on the comp but i say barely anything in real life sometimes nothing at all im not liveing a life insted im dyeing from it every day its getting worse for me the pain just wont go away and the rezalt is its killing me little by little every day so much pain why wont it go away some any one plz hepl meeeeeeeeee he eeee sniffle snillfe drip drip dirp some one help me save me from my self from being so alone

dose any one care what could even happen to me the thing is wile im protecting others ive left my self wide open for anything that can hurt me some one told me ture love is when you give up every thing in life just to be with and protect the one person you love the most in this world for the rest of your life

for me that person alredy knows who they are i just want to let her know how much i still care for her

i have a pay as you go plan so my cell only works when i have some minets on it if you cant get threw and reach me on it its because there isent any time left on it and i have to get more to put on it im gonna switch it over to unlimited talk and text so any one i know can reach me more easely

MY PAIN WILL ONLY GO AWAY WHEN PEOPLE STOP HURTING ME but all i really need is someone to be here for me im scared to be alone it would suck if no one cared about me

the people i trust

im so lost and alone

this is my b-day april 11th

IVE HAVE AL MOST DiED 3 TIMES NOW
1.bashing open my head on a metal slide
2.getting my foot caught in the back of a lawn mower wile it was runing
3.getting hit by a car on my way to work i was on the ground not moveing for 5 minets they called the ambulance and had to bring me back with those scoky things i thought that time for sure i was dead
lucky me for not dieing yet next time i might not be so lucky and actually die and when that happens im not gonna be comeing back ill be waching over every one who i care about for the rest of there lives

ahh im such an idiot sometimes im hopeless

there are people who care

I GUESS IT IS TRUE WHAT THEY SAY GOOD THINGS HAPPEN TO THOWS WHO WAIT .... sob why not me