The Story of Me
- Photo taken by Abbey Long
I'm on hiatus peoples. Leave me be.
I'm Taka_tashimaru. I go by a variety of names over social networking sites and gaia--such as Taka, Taka-chan, Freckles, cottoncandylamb, The French Republic, Roro_tashimaru, or just Courtney. I'm currently a senior in high school, though don't quote me on that, I tend to forget to update this thing. Living in my hometown hell of Summerville, SC. After moving to my personal heaven on earth, Tennessee, for two years, my mother and sister's family decided to drag me away from happiness, belonging, and success, only to throw me back into the environment that once had me a babbling depressed mess sobbing in the corner at the mention of going to school. Last year, the year we moved back, I slowly skirted the edge of that deep abyss, but for now I seem to be doing alright with the help of my small handful of friends.
My biggest problem is a situation case of social anxiety I tend to get that breaks me apart. The worst part of it is I know there's no reason for me to have attacks, but I still do and there's nothing I can do to stop them. I'm not someone who likes to go do things anymore, not just because of the internet. Something inside genuinely just is afraid of the world. I don't like to admit it though so I have a tendency to make excuses or subconsciously make myself sick so I don't have to face the outside world. Sounds horrible right?
Before you start thinking I'm some freak who cringes at sunlight, I do like being around people. I like doing things and hanging out with my friends and stuff but I have an inner war inside of me that just doesn't let me sometimes. It's gotten to the point where I couldn't get out the door to go to school without bursting into uncontrollable tears. Literally uncontrollable. Because of this, my mom and I agreed it was probably best to try and home school me. That was the plan for high school before we moved to TN and I didn't feel constantly hated and judged, so it makes sense. Home schooling it's too bad if you can get past being lazy and the incompetent teachers whom refuse to communicate despite your best efforts.
Since I'm home schooled, I'm on the computer a lot and often on gaia rping. If you need a partner, ask me. If your plot is interesting, I might just take you up on the offer. If you send me a link to a group rp, I'll look it over, but I can't promise I'll join. If I don't, I'll try to direct to one of my friends who I think would like your plot.
Normally I'm a friendly person and I'm always willing to help someone who's just getting into roleplaying or posting design, so pm me if you want some help. c:
Though, if you catch me on an off day, please try to understand!