AboutNumber One symbolizes many things - but the most important one for me is - solitude. What am I doing on Gaia, then? That's a good question. I'm not sure I can answer that. But I'll try. There's a sentence that keeps coming back to me lately. It's not something I've come up with by myself, it was something I heard at one of my classes, actually. One of my teachers said, quoting someone else: "Without interaction with other people nothing makes sense." I kept thinking about it, because if it's true - then things aren't looking very good for me. So, I guess that would be the answer to the question posed above - I'm here to check whether that statement is true. At least whether it's true for me.
And now a new... well, it's not a song. I'm not even sure if it can be called a poem. It's a piece of text, for lack of a better term.
Als mein Vater
mich zum ersten Mal fragte
was ich werden will,
sagte ich nach kurzer Denkpause:
„Ich möchte glücklich werden.“
Da sah mein Vater sehr unglücklich aus,
aber dann bin ich doch
was anderes geworden
und alle waren mit mir zufrieden.
The profile description above was written in 2008, when I first joined Gaia. I was much younger, angstier, but also more hard-working and conscientious.
Not sure what to say now, except that I still come on Gaia to dress up my avatar and talk to a couple of friends that still use this site. I use a male base and often try to make my avatar look feminine or androgynous, which is a way for me to live out my genderqueer identity, at least to an extent, since I can't express it safely in real life.
Oh and also, WG subforum is cool.