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You are listening to "Shell" from the anime Witch Hunter Robin. This is a very memorable song for me. I first encountered Witch Hunter Robin my freshman year of college. It holds a special place in my heart. And since I'm feeling nostalgic and depressed a lot lately, I've decided to use this as my profile media.

My "about me" sections used to be more major than this. But I guess if you really want to know more about me you'll have to write me.

Despite the sex of my avatar, I am not a female. I am a male. My avatar is a representation of Haelix. Haelix is a character of mine that I first developed when I was in middle school. For quite some time now Haelix has been the model of myself in a different form, the primary difference being that she is a female, but another difference being that she exists in a fantasy world. As I grow and mature, so does Haelix. She is my expression of myself since I have spent a lot of my life being rejected for who I am. Haelix is a more acceptable form of who I am to many people, which is why I pretended to be a female for almost six years.

I am 27. This isn't a bad thing.

I am still a college student. This is my senior year as I strive to achieve my bachelor's (finally). My major is Biblical Counseling. Originally I went to school for Professional Writing, as writing has been a passion of mine since third grade. I was then called to the ministry. But...right now I'm a little confused as to this calling. I don't know what my specific role in the Church is supposed to be. I am just sticking with Biblical Counseling because, since I first started college, I have changed my major a couple of times already.

This is partly why it has taken me so long to get through school. I've gone to two different schools. My credits didn't transfer, so I had to start over. I had a bad year in 2011-2012. And I've changed my major more than once. So...yeah. I will say that since that bad year I've made the President's List every semester. wink

If you haven't guessed by now, I'm a Christian. Non-denominational, though I'm probably considered "Evangelical".

I am married. My wife is Sabeine. She is absolutely, 100% amazing to me. I will always cherish her.

My favorite color is red. It took me a long time to realize this, because I love many colors. I prefer darker shades. Purple, blue, black, and pink are some other colors that I like. I also love green in certain shades.

I used to tell people that my favorite animal was the wolf, and that I also loved zebras. Hmm...I suppose the whole wolf thing isn't completely true anymore. I love dogs. Dogs. Yes, dogs. Dogs are the best. I've always loved dogs, and probably always will. I also really love horses. This goes along with the whole zebra, thing, sort of. I think horses are beautiful animals. They are also loyal, and very intelligent.

My favorite season is winter. Or perhaps it is autumn. My favorite season shifts, not based on the weather I am experiencing (i.e. "oh, it's cold, I prefer autumn) but rather simply on...I'm not sure. But I know it doesn't have to do with the weather. It is always, however, either autumn or winter.

My favorite food is the cheeseburger. Yeah, typical American. However, I'm trying to eat healthier so I try to avoid cheeseburgers more often now. I'm not as skinny as I used to be and my body doesn't burn up all the junk food near as well anymore--so I have to be smart about what I eat. I used to love lasagna, but I don't love it so much anymore. I'm not entirely sure why. I guess my tastes have just changed a little. Like, apparently I love cheesecake now, and I've NEVER loved cheesecake in my life. But lo and behold, over the summer I discovered that I love cheesecake.

I love berries. Strawberries are my favorite fruit. I also love watermelon, apples, oranges, bananas, kiwis, and numerous other fruits. My love of strawberries has helped me come to really enjoy eating strawberry yogurt. I love strawberry yogurt. This has not been the case for 98% of my life. Again with the whole tastes changing thing!

I like rock, techno, trance, alternative, and progressive music. I also like random songs from various genres here and there. Basically, I'll listen to almost anything. Even rap. If it's Christian rap. As in, like, Lecrae. But I will always love Genesis. Great music.

I am a writer. I love to write. I try to write as often as I can. I also like to do research and enjoy critical and deep thinking. They're fun.

May you find what it means to be truly happy.

Jesus Reigns


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Thoughts of Haelix


This is the journal of a Christian who isn't a very good one.



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Jio Barzahd

Report | 07/14/2015 12:57 pm

Jio Barzahd

Oh, most definitely in terms of the pain example being over simplified. That's why I used it ^^;; I'm sure he's well aware of there being various kinds of pain, and would cash those out in terms of whatever their neural correlate is. Either way, eliminating the phenomenal aspects of experience from one's ontology is crazy. razz

The criteria I think is the correct one is the same criteria that Regan uses for saying that non-human animals aren't resources. He holds that all subjects of life have an equal degree of inherent value, such that they're entitled to the same degree of respect (one of which involving a right to life). He cashes out the notion of a subject of a life as follows: "...a conscious creature having an individual welfare that has importance to us whatever our usefulness to others. We want and prefer things, believe and feel things, recall and expect things. And all these dimensions of our life, including our pleasure and pain, our enjoyment and suffering, our satisfaction and frustration, our continued existence or our untimely death - all make a difference to the quality of our life as lived, as experienced, by us as individuals" (Regan 1985). Roughly, I take the criteria to be that one has an experiential life that can fare better or worse, i.e, that one is an entity with interests. But, I hesitate to say that this criteria ought to play a legal role. I dunno where I stand in terms of whether it would be just for the state to force women to make the certain forms of sacrifice required in carrying through with a pregnancy in some cases, even if it is the morally right thing to do once said entity reaches a point where it is a subject of a life.
Jio Barzahd

Report | 07/14/2015 10:38 am

Jio Barzahd

Philosophy of mind isn't an area that I've spent much time being trained in, so I don't know much of the details. But yeah, in some sense consciousness isn't real. A way of trying to illustrate what he means is by taking pain as an example. So, with respect to whether pain exists or not, he'll say either yes or no depending on what we mean by pain. If by pain we only mean the firing of c-fibers in a brain, then yes, he thinks pain exists. But if we mean anything more than this, then no, he doesn't think that pain exists. And I think the same applies to consciousness. Consciousness exists if you mean some physical brain state is occurring. But if you mean something beyond this, like some physical brain state is causing some further state (e.g. some non-physical, mental awareness), then there is no consciousness. But that seems quite crazy. If a neuroscientists were to somehow observe an instance of c-fibers firing in my brain, there seems to be a sense in which she isn't seeing all that's going on there. There's also the qualia of my pain - the what it's likeness of me being in pain. Yet according to Dennett and other eliminativist materialists, c-fibers firing is all there is to my pain. The neuroscientist who watches that physical event is watching all there is to me being in pain.

Right, personhood is usually taken as the criterion. Although there's a few who want to draw the line with other criteria (myself included). I think Marquis (an anti-abortionists) cashes out the criteria of "having a future like ours" - something he says occurs once there's an individual subject, whether it's an actual person or not. Although, now that I think about it, maybe he's really just talking about potential personhood despite his claims to the contrary. And if I got her name right, Thompson, (a non-anti-abortionist), thinks whether its a potential person or not is irrelevant too.
Jio Barzahd

Report | 07/14/2015 7:34 am

Jio Barzahd

Hmm, perhaps the issue of that being an ineffective argumentative strategy is why Dennett has changed how he argues. I think his motivation was said to be actually getting through to the other side. Although maybe he's just a nicer person now too. I've heard from a few people that have met him that he's really nice, despite holding bat-s**t crazy views in philosophy of mind sweatdrop

Hmm, I honestly hate the pro-choice v pro-life terminology.

By adopting those categories it implicitly assumes that if you're not pro-choice, you're against a woman's right to choose what to do with her own body. But that's not necessary true. You can be against the legalization of abortion, think a woman has such a right, but deny that the entity in question is just another part of the woman's body. On the other hand, that way of framing the debate also implicitly assumes that if you're not pro-life, then you're against the value of life. Yet that's not true either. It's not like the issue is about whether life is intrinsically valuable. If it is, then you all better be biocentrists about intrinsic value, such that no living thing, even grass, can be scarified for our own interests. But that's pretty crazy. Nevertheless, that's just not what the debate is about. It's about what types of life are intrinsically valuable, such that it can't be killed even if doing so is in our own interests. And the two camps disagree about where to draw that line, and there's even further disagreements within those two camps about where the lines is. The whole pro-life v pro-choice is just another instance of the debate being inaccurately simplified in a way that can easily be used to demonize the other side. It's just a bit more subtle than the inaccurate labels of "anti-woman" v "anti-baby".
Jio Barzahd

Report | 07/13/2015 5:23 pm

Jio Barzahd

Despite being an atheist, I've never really jumped into the whole "new-atheism" literature. It has always came off to me as amounting to being unable to handle their atheism. I want to sometimes say "You don't think there's a theistic god. Great, I agree and so do many others. Now quit making so much noise about it." I used to be interested in the issues between atheism, agnosticism, and theism, but even then, I've never found the notion of engaging with that flavor of atheism appealing.
Fates Oblivion

Report | 07/13/2015 3:13 pm

Fates Oblivion

All righty then =w=
Fates Oblivion

Report | 07/13/2015 2:23 pm

Fates Oblivion

By the way I'm starting up an rp soon. Take a look. If you don't want to join that's ok, you can just read along to, or not. Up to you lol. Only two people seem interested so far but I'm hoping more will come once it's started.

Wings of Glass
Jio Barzahd

Report | 07/13/2015 2:14 pm

Jio Barzahd

Ohh, I see. I haven't really encountered much on that. Thanks for the clarification.
Fates Oblivion

Report | 07/13/2015 1:59 pm

Fates Oblivion

More medical stuff. I'm surrently on a medication that should reduce my condition in size so it will be easier to remove completely.
Fates Oblivion

Report | 07/13/2015 1:34 pm

Fates Oblivion

I'd like to think so lol.
Fates Oblivion

Report | 07/13/2015 11:22 am

Fates Oblivion

Well to say I was depressed for a little while would be a lie. It was a hard thing to cope with at first but when you've had the run around like I have in my life you learn to take things as they come. lol


And the Lord's servant must not be quarrelsome but kind to everyone, able to teach, patiently enduring evil, correcting his opponents with gentleness. God may perhaps grant them repentance leading to a knowledge of the truth, and they may come to their senses and escape from the snare of the devil, after being captured by him to do his will.

[b:e210604004]2 Timothy 2:24-26[/b:e210604004]

Christ is King. Christ is Lord.