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Boris_Skab0r Report | 09/18/2010 12:55 pm
RuthL3ss 1 Report | 07/07/2010 5:10 pm
RuthL3ss 1
haha nice avi >.>
ix-iiRaveTuShuffle Report | 06/30/2010 11:42 am
xDDDD Ah ana just had tew go there XD
He Minez Report | 06/24/2010 11:02 am
He Minez
So u still call me cookie?? I dont even noe the pass to amberz account!! She changed it! Okay How dare u think i would say my Sister Amber was a lezbo! Your so Rude!
Katherina 11 Report | 05/12/2010 11:32 am
Katherina 11
hihi how are you?
Awokes Report | 05/12/2010 10:57 am
Y, cuz ur on it like 24/7 lol...jks...I m just gona check out zOMG or something like dat chat it up with my friends..maybe make a profile theme...who knows..endless possibilities User Image
Awokes Report | 05/12/2010 10:51 am
Thanks...I was supposed to be taking a test but due to power outage...I am saved..but still gona study a bit u won't be on long then?
Awokes Report | 05/12/2010 10:38 am
Wow, like the new avi...pretty sweet lookin, so what are ur plans for today?
Tiduz X Report | 05/12/2010 9:47 am
Tiduz X
aliight koo!!
Tiduz X Report | 05/12/2010 9:40 am
Tiduz X
sorry bro I was in school still,,,

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my lil bro in RL

Hold the person that you love closely if they're next to you The one you love, not the person that'll simply have sex with you Appreciate them to the fullest extent, and then beyond 'Cause you never really know what you got, until it's gone

She was on her way to becoming a college graduate Wouldn't even stop to talk to the average kid The type of latina I'd sit and contemplate marriage with ******** the horse and carriage s**t, her love was never for hire Disciplined, intellectual beauty's what I desire Flyer than Salma Hayek or Jennifer Lopez Everyone told me, kickin' it to her was hopeless At first I just thought, she didn't mess with broke kids The thug niggaz always talking about, how they smoke kids But the rich-sniff-coke kids got no play "I'm not even interested" is what her body language would say Everyone around the way, gave up trying to get in it It didn't matter how good your game was, she wasn't with it On the block, bitches was jealous, but wouldn't admit it Talk s**t, and deny to everyone that they did it 'Cause they regreted the long list of niggaz that they let hit it And no one ever gave them s**t except McDonald's and did-d**k Smoking weed with thoughts of envy, whenever they lit it She smoked intelligently and they bit it, always trying to copy But when they tried to use her vocab, they sounded sloppy She had a style, all her own, respectful and pure I was sick in the head for her, and there wasn't a cure [Hook - Jean Grae] Don't you know that, time waits for no man Not fate, it's all planned I'm blessed just to know you I've loved and I've lost just to hold you all night Can't find, a reason why God came, to you and I If I had the chance again, I'd never let you go Hold tight to your love, 'cause you never know Her eyes are brown and beautiful, yet empty and sad I used to talk to her occasionally, and she was glad That I wasn't just another ***** trying to get in it So every now and then we'd stop and talk for a minute I didn't have a gimmick so the minutes turned to hours On her birthday, I gave her a poem with flowers Then I took her out to dinner after her cousin's baby shower We talked about, power to the people and such We spent more time together but it was never enough I never tried to sneak a touch, or even cop a feel I was too interested, in keeping it real Perfectly honest and complete, she would always call me "carino," And never Technique, bought me a new book to read every 2 or 3 weeks Forever changing the expression of my thoughts when I speak It was because of her, I even deaded all of my freaks She convinced me, to stop hangin' out on the streets To stop robbin' and stealin', from people like you Instead I took her out to the Apollo and the Bronxu We sailed in Barrio and the Metropolitan too Got to the point when I was either with her or my crew So I decided one day, to tell her my feelings was true I couldn't live without her so I told her, facing my fears But honey's only response, was a face full of tears She could only sob hysterically, holding me tight I tried to speak, but she wouldn't stop until I left sight I felt like a moth who got himself too close to the light Except I didn't burn, I turned cold after that night [Hook] I went on with my life, college and my career Ended up locked up like an animal for a year Where the C.O.'s talk to you like they were the overseer Then I got sent to the hole, when my exit was near At night in my cell, I'd close my eyes and I'd see her Hold her close in my dreams, but when I woke she disappeared Just an empty cell until the state gave me parole in the summer came back, in tact and on track But the fact of the matter, is I still felt cold Even after my mother, hugged me, cryin' at home My real niggaz would catch me thinkin', out of my zone ********' lots of different women, but I still felt alone Relatively well-known around the New York underground But I kept thinking of her and how we used to be down The sound of her voice, and the beautiful smell of her hair Though gone physically, somehow it was still there I had to do something, because the s**t was too much to bear So I went and visited the building where she used to live The world looks a lot different after you do a bid The way your life done changed While primitive minds (are) still stuck in the same game Like her cousin who was on the corner slangin' cocaine Stepped in the lobby and tapped the button next to her last name Her mom buzzed me up and hugged me up, like a mother oughta But her facial expression changed, when I asked about her daughter She told me that there was a note for me, that was left behind She had left it there waiting, for such a long time I was inclined to ask about it but she brought it up first I saw a tear swelling up in her eye, and then she cursed She told me where the letter was and I started thinking the worst Reversed my position, stepped over and opened the door And sure enough there was an envelope with my name on the floor "Nobody loves you more than me carino" is what the letter said "By the time you get to read this, I'll probably be dead But when you left in '97 a part of me went to Heaven I thank God at least I got to know what love really was But it hurt me, to see what true love really does 'Cause even though we never made love, you were all that there was It was because I loved you so much that I had to make you leave You made me doubt the way I thought, you made me want to believe And then I slipped up, and I let you get close to me It was hard to not be openly when people spoke to me This was not the way I thought my life was supposed to be Baby don't you see, I had a blood transfusion that left me with HIV Hoped the end exists for me since late in 1993 I died a virgin, I wish I could've given myself to you I cried in the hospital because there was no one else but you Promise that you'll meet me in paradise inevitably No matter what, I'll keep your love forever with me" What happened for the rest of the day is still a blur But I remember wishing that I was dead, instead of her She was buried on August 3rd The story ends without a sequel And now you know why Technique, don't ******** fall in love with people Hold the person that you love closely if they're next to you The one you love, not the person that'll simply have sex with you Appreciate them to the fullest extent, and then beyond 'Cause you never really know what you got, until it's gone

sad story ----->

This goes out to someone that was Once the most important person in my life I didn’t realize it at the time I can’t forgive myself for the way I treated you so I don’t really expect you to either It’s just... I don’t even know Just listen… You’re the one that I want, the one that I need The one that I gotta have just to succeed When I first saw you, I knew it was real I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel That wasn’t me; let me show you the way I looked for the sun, but it’s raining today I remember when I first looked into your eyes It was like God was there, heaven in the skies I wore a disguise 'cause I didn’t want to get hurt But I didn’t know I made everything worse You told me we were crazy in love But you didn’t care when push came to shove If you loved me as much as you said you did Then you wouldn’t have hurt me like I ain’t s**t Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me I loved you with my heart, really and truly I guess you forgot about the times that we shared When I would run my fingers through your hair Late nights, just holding you in my arms I don’t know how I could do you so wrong I really wanna show you I really need to hold you I really wanna know you like no one else could know you You’re number one, always in my heart And now I can’t believe that our love is torn apart I need you and I miss you and I want you and I love you ‘cause I wanna hold you, I wanna kiss you You were my everything And I really miss you I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man And then sit and laugh as you’re holding his hand The thought of that just shatters my heart It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart At times we was off I was scared to show you Now I wanna hold you until I can’t hold you Without you, everything seems strange Your name is forever planted in my brain Damn it, I’m insane, Take away the pain Take away the hurt Baby, we can make it work What about when you Looked into my eyes Told me you loved me As you would hugged me I guess everything you said was a lie I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes Now I’m not even a thought in your mind I can see clearly, my love is not blind I need you and I miss you and I want you and I love you ‘cause I wanna hold you, I wanna kiss you You were my everything And I really miss you I just wish everything could have turned out differently I had a special feeling about you I thought maybe you did too You would understand, but… No matter what, you’ll always be in my heart You’ll always be my baby Our first day, it seemed so magical I remember all the time that I had with you Remember when you first came to my house? You looked like an angel wearing that blouse We hit it off, I knew it was real But now I can’t take all the pain that I feel Reach in your heart, I know I’m still there I don’t wanna hear that you no longer care Remember the times? Remember when we kissed? I didn’t think you would ever do me like this I didn’t think you’d wanna see me depressed I thought you’d be there for me, this I confess You said you were my best friend, was that a lie? Now I’m nothing to you, you’re with another guy I tried, I tried, I tried, and I’m trying Now on the inside it feels like I’m dying I need you and I miss you and I want you and I love you ‘cause I wanna hold you, I wanna kiss you You were my everything And I really miss you And I do miss you I just thought we were meant to be I guess now, we’ll never know The only thing I want is for you to be happy Whether it be with me, or without me I just want you to be happy

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day of the dead