Oh, the Cruelties of the Heart... I Need to Give this Poem a Title One Day

I've never seen love save a soul
I've never seen love build an empire
I've never seen love improve a life

I've only seen what it did to you
I've only seen the tears you shed
I've only seen the pain you've curled up in
I've only felt your heart break
I've only smelt the damper of passion fill the air
I've only heard the gulps of your sobs
I've only felt the sting of my own woes pushed aside
I've only carried the memories of what happened to you
I've only stolen all the heart ache you could be spared
I've only dreamed of your life without his misleading lies
I've only spoken of the reasons I saw to never surrender your heart

I've never cared more then when you cried on my shoulder
I've never hated more then when you said you loved him
I've never cringed more then when you spoke his name
I've never despised a man more then when he shattered your life
I've never cried a tear for a lost love
I've never begged someone to stay
I've never given my heart to another
I've never intended to, either way

I've only vowed to protect my heart
I've only pledged to never fall in love

Wanna Bug Me? I'd Love You To!

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General Nonsense About Me That I Put Here to Freak You Out.

Tell Everyone About Yourself

Basic About you:

Name:: Ridahna
Gender:: Female.
Height:: 5'6"
Eye color:: Light blue
Hair Color:: Blond and brown
Age:: 16
Birthday:: September 1, 1992
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: Left handed.
Piercings:: None. Had nose pierced for exactly 1 day
Tattoos:: One day, not now.
Zodiac Sign:: Monkey
Ring Size:: Yeah, cause I keep tabs on that
Grade:: 11th, Junior


More about you:

Are you named after anyone?: An indian (translation: "very beautiful")
Do you live in the moment?: Occassionally, when I'm full of energy
Do you consider yourself tolerant to others?: Extremely
Do you have any secrets?: Millions
Do you hate yourself?: Nope, that's why we have enemies
Do you like your handwriting?: Sure, tiny and neat
Do you have any bad habits?: Course not smile
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: Which other person?
Any regrets?: Just one
Do you think life has been good so far?: It seems to have treated me right
Are you confident?: Most of the time
How long does it take you to shower?: Long as I can get (hour or so)
What color is your room?: White... not my choice. The miracle of renting
Where do you want to attend college?: UCSB


Do you...?

Smoke?: Nope
Do drugs?: Despite everyone's belief, no, despite my hippy mother
Drink?: Nope, tastes and smells horrible
Go To Church?: Only if I'd like to burst in to flames
Sleep with stuffed animals?: Does an L plushie count?
Take walks in the rain?: The colder and wetter, the better!
Talk to people even if you hate them?: Only to be bitchy
Drive?: Can, just not legally
Believe in premarital sex?: Uh, teenage, non christian...so, Duh!
Want to get married?: No! Never! No!
Want to go to college?: Freedom!
Want to have children?: Probably not
Sing in the shower?: Loud and proud
Get along with you parents?: Mom more then my dad
Get along with your sibling/s?: Don't have none
Color/highlight your hair?: Blue streaks whenever possible
Like coffee?: Yeah, but prefer smoothies and tea
Wear makeup every time you go out?: Not all the time, but usually some black eye liner
Love roller coasters?: YES! ADORE!
Like to cook?: Most comfortable either in the kitchen or the water


Have you ever...?

Hurt yourself?: Got the scars to prove it
Been out of the country?: Nope, but will in April. To France!
Been in love?: Yes and she broke my heart so hopefully never again
Done drugs?: Nope
Gone skinny dipping?: Yep, at an empty house. Now that wasn't scary
Had surgery?: Oral surgery. Never again
Played strip poker?: Nope
Been on stage?: Yep. For a shy girl, I'm oddly happy on stage
Pulled an all nighter?: Yep, on here a couple of times
Gone one day without food?: The miracle of stress and homework
Slept all day?: Nope, the sun always ends up waking me.
Kissed a stranger?: May Kira bless shows at the Ventura Theater and the ' hotties that attend!
Had a dream that came true?: Once or twice. I don't dream much
Broken the law?: Me? Of course not. ^^
Stolen anything?: Yep
Been on radio/TV?: Nope
Been in a mosh-pit?: Yep, nearly killed myself
Bungee jumped?: Not yet
Had a dream that kept coming back?: For days and days
Gone out of state?: Been up and down the east coast twice
Live in other states?: Not yet
Eaten an entire box of Oreos?: Yeah, cause that'd be fabulous for me. No.
Had a movie marathon?: Had a Death Note marathon. ^^
Spun until you were immensely dizzy?: Yep, nearly hurled
Been on a plane?: Love em
Ran into a wall?: Don't think so...
Been rejected by a crush?: Probably, but I've deleted the memory ^^
Cried in public?: Once
Cried over a movie?: Yep, haven't we all when we're by ourselves watching a depressing flick?
Prank called someone?: Never been all that attracted to prank calling so nope
Gotten a cavity?: 4 (I think)
Shopped at Abercrombie and Fitch?: Where?
Broken a bone?: Nope
Fallen from a tree?: Yep, little tree though so no injuries
Passed out?: Yep. Crashed in to my bird cage
Been to a theme park?: Best places on the planet!
Eaten sushi?: No-fish pour moi, merci

This or That

Pepsi or Coke:: Pepsi.
McDonald's or Burger King:: Fast food? Nasty
Chocolate or Vanilla:: Chocolate
Black or White:: Black
Burgers or Hot dogs:: Burger
Boxers or briefs:: boxers
Book or magazine:: Book.
TV or radio:: Radio
Is the glass half empty or half full:: Depends on my mood, but generally half full
sun or moon:: Moon.
hot or cold:: Cold.
romantic comedy or thriller:: Thriller.
waffles or pancakes:: Waffles
Florida or California:: California
Black and white or color photos:: Black and White pics
The city, the beach, OR the country:: Beach.
Tennis shoes or sandals:: Tennis shoes
Sweet or sour:: Sweet like me wink
Private or public school:: Public. It's where all my chickas are.
Cappuccino or coffee:: Cappuccino, go big or go home
English or history:: English (fake it till you make it)
Science or math:: Science.


Do you believe ...?

in miracles?: Sure, why not?
in magic?: It better be real
in God?: Nope
in Satan?: Nope
in ghosts?: Have you met the one at Lauren's house?
in luck?: Yep
in love at first sight?: Nope
in Santa?: Wish I did, but no
in the Easter Bunny?: I'll take the chocolate, but no
in witches?: I'm wiccan so might as well
that it's possible to remain faithful forever?: Show me a case where it happened and sure.
in wishing on shooting stars?: Something strangely beautiful about doing it
that cussing is a necessity in life?: Nope, but it adds emphasis so feel free.
yourself?: Yep, fully and completely


Love and all that -

Do you consider love a mistake?: If it's rushed
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them?: It helps, but hey, if you're feeling scandalous go ahead.
What is worst about the opposite sex?: Hard to talk about the same stuff you talk about with your chickas with them
Who and when was your first crush?: August Krankl...6th Grade.


Right this moment...

What are you wearing?: Black jeans, long sleeve purple shirt, paint ball splattered t-shirt, black and white striped socks, black slippers. (it's really cold)
What are you worried about?: If my dad's gonna get back in time for me to invite the family to lunch
What book are you reading?: Wicked (again)
What time is it?: 12:11
Are you bored?: I'm fine
Are you tired?: Nope, perfectly fine
Are you talking to anyone online or on the phone?: Not at this moment
Are you lonely or content?: Content, require minimal social interaction
Are you listening to music, if so then what?: Painting the Roses Red - Alice in Wonderland

The Last...

Dream you had:: I was at school and I realized it was a Saturday and that my school wasn't open on a Saturday so I realized I must be dreaming, but I couldn't wake myself up and it scared me. XD
Nightmare:: Does the one above count as a nightmare?...
Time you cried:: Last Thursday when I read one of Kaylee's journals. It completely killed me
Movie you watched:: The Garden State
Movie you rented:: Futurama
Book you read:: I can't remember. I never have time to read anymore.
Word you said:: Bye
Time you laughed:: This morning, was watching the Adams Family. Yay Wednesday!!!
Person to call you:: Eric (one of my Dad's friends)
CD you played:: I don't listen to CDs. I limewire
Song you listened to:: Merry Unbirthday
annoyance:: Kaylee G.
IM sent or received:: Lauren Gibbs
Time you yelled:: I don't yell. I just talk cruelly
Person you yelled at:: What did I just say?
time you wore a skirt:: two weeks ago, maybe
time you fought with your parents:: It's been a while
Time you wished on a shooting star:: Last meteor shower
Thing you ate:: Bowl of cereal (Honey Bunches of Oats)
Time you showered:: Last night
Nail polish color worn:: Black, but it's really chipped now.


Your favorite:

Type of gum:: that 5 gum stuff
Restaurant:: Olive Garden or Mimi's Cafe
Season:: Winter (love the rain and cold)
Type of weather:: Days when the world is gray and cold, with mild rain...Either that or a full on down pour
Emotion:: Contentment
Color:: Black, blue, and blood red
Perfume:: Anything vanilla
Candy:: Dots
Pizza topping:: Green peppers
Fruit:: Mango
Veggie:: Cauliflower
Type of cake:: Carrot
Magazine:: Shojo Beat
TV Show:: Code Geass (at least for now)
Day of the week:: Wednesday (only have to do half my homework and me and Lauren go to Joey's. WNH shinanagins)
Month:: December
Holiday:: Halloween (duh!)
Number:: 7
Sport to watch:: do I look like a sports watching person?
Flower:: Star Gazer Lilies, ah, they're gorgeous.

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Ridahna's Twisted Thoughts

I expect (and as such so should you) to find me writing a lot of crazy irrevelvant and quite possibly insulting things in this journal. You've been warned.

I'll Never Get Why You All Talk to Me. *tear*

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Y x u n Report | 12/26/2011 9:23 pm
Y x u n
WARNING!


THIS

IS

NOT

A

JOKE!

CARRY

ON

READING!

OR

YOU

WILL

DIE,

EVEN

IF

YOU

ONLY

LOOKED

AT

THE

WORD

WARNING!!





ONCE

THERE

WAS

A

LITTLE

GIRL

CALLED

CLARISSA,

SHE

WAS

10

YEARS

OLD

AND

SHE

LIVED

IN

A

MENTAL

HOSPITAL,

BEACUSE

SHE

KILLED

HER

MUM

AND

DAD.





























SHE

GOT

SO

BAD

SHE

STARTED

TO

KILL

ALL

THE

STAFF

IN

THE

HOSPITAL

SO

THE

GOVERMENT

DECIDED

THAT

THE

BEST

IDEA

WAS

TO

GET

RID

OF

HER

SO

THEY

SET

UP

A

SPECIAL

ROOM

TO

KILL

HER,

AS

HUMANE

AS

POSSIBLE

BUT

IT

WENT

RONG

THE

MACHINE

THEY

WERE

USEING

WENT

WRONG.





























AND

SHE

WAS

SAT

THERE

IN

AGONY

FOR

HOURS

UNTILL

SHE

FINALLY

DIED.





























NOW

EVERY

WEEK

ON

THE

DAY

OF

HER

DEATH

SHE

RETURNS

TO THE

PERSON

THAT

READS

THIS

LETTER,

ON

A

MONDAY

NIGHT

AT

12:00

SHE

KREEPS

INTO

YOUR

ROOM

AND

KILLS

YOU,

BUT

SLOWLY

AND

PAINFULLY

SLOWLY

CUTTING

DIFFRENT

PARTS

OF

UR

BODY

THEN

WATCHES

YOU

BLEED

TO

DEATH

IF

YOU

DONT

SEND

THIS

TO

20

PEOPLE

BY

MIDNIGHT

SHELL

BE

COMEING

TO KILL

YOU!

SEND

IT

SO

SHE

HAS

ANOTHER

LOAD

OF

PEOPLE

TO

GET

AND

FORGETS

ABOUT

YOU

DONT

BELVE ME

HEY?



EXAMPLE

1:

JENNY

DIDNT BELIVE THIS AND DELETED IT WITHOUT EVEN READING THE WHOLE THING! A FEW DAYS LATER ON THE MONDAY NIGHT SHE WAS WOKEN UP BYE LOUDE FOOTSTEPS AND HEAVY BREETHING THERE WAS CLARISSA STANDING THERE WITH A HUGE KNIFE AND WELL JENNY IS HISTORY NOW.
w o m b ii e Report | 07/28/2009 9:48 pm
w o m b ii e
Haha, what's it even about? D:
w o m b ii e Report | 07/28/2009 9:37 pm
w o m b ii e
Either have I. xD
w o m b ii e Report | 07/28/2009 6:04 pm
w o m b ii e
Just selling avi artness. :] You?
w o m b ii e Report | 07/27/2009 10:28 pm
w o m b ii e
Alright! :3
w o m b ii e Report | 07/27/2009 9:47 pm
w o m b ii e
Nah ah! D: You do! :3
Mistress_Dark_Korigashine Report | 07/11/2009 5:28 pm
Mistress_Dark_Korigashine
Hey, before I move, we should have out once more. ^^ I move Aug. 1st. Also, I got a box of manga that I can't take with me. (Sadly)
They're um...a bit more for adults? (Get my drift?)
So yeah, Imma give them to you. (There's boys! >3< wink
Text me at 794-1175 or comment me back, okies? <3
Loves ya!
Ry Akemi Okami Report | 03/24/2009 11:07 pm
Ry Akemi Okami
I just hope I'm not just another person you think doesnt know what youre going through or how you feel..
Ry Akemi Okami Report | 03/22/2009 11:22 pm
Ry Akemi Okami
It's in Meiners Oaks, on Oso Road. On Monday you could just skip the meeting and get a ride with me, then the rest of the days you'd know where it is. Its kind of hard to explain where exactly it is.. :/
Ry Akemi Okami Report | 03/22/2009 8:01 pm
Ry Akemi Okami
No need to thank me. ^ ^ I've been in your situation. :3 I just have to warn you, my mom is ******** crazy. :/ Luckily I have my own room, but we might have to take a lot of walks. xD
 
 
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