I am extremely passive. I have the inability to be agressive. Plus I have the inability to hate.
I can not talk fluently and can not stay on the same subject for too long without unknowingly changing it.

I'm a giant oxy moron. I'll list and describe.
I'm a(n):

Gothic Hippie ((I dress in Tripp pants, a hoodie, and a t-shirt every day, all of which of course being black, and I've been told that that's goth.... But I have a happy-go-lucky "All is groovy" attitude. And seeing that I cheered someone up always brings a smile to my face and a feeling of completion.))

Ignorant, retarded, forgetful genious ((I don't bother to study for tests, I figure out the material ON THE TEST and I still get good grades on all my tests. However, I'm extremely ignorant to the world around me and what's going on. I am socially retarded. I can't talk fluently. Whenever I have something to say, something in my mind has to evaluate it and 'ok' it, and usually by the time it's DONE, the subject's changed and the thought would make no sense.))

Laid-back, lazy spaz ((my mind is completely energetic and everywhere at once, but I'm always sleepy so I never have any energy. Like I said before, I have a happy-go-lucky attitude, and usually go with the flow of things. Though sometimes I have my energetic moments. Usually followed by a "whoa" or a "ok that's all my energy; it's gone now".))

I had a tunk more oxy morons for myself, but I forgot them. Like I said, I'm terrorably forgetful.

I like:

Cheering sad people up
Legend of Zelda
Sonic the Hedgehog (('cept the newest ones))
Drawing funny, yet creepy lookin things
Random PMs
Comments (journal and profile)
Guild Requests (My guild is called Grape Juice)
Mountain Dew
People talking to me

I'm confused by/don't like:

Excessive stubborn-ness
People who refuse to be happy (for a dumb reason, if it was for a good reason, I'd be able to understand COMPLETELY.)
People who change their own personality just to be some label
Sports ((this one's just confusion))
majr txt tlkrs ((can't understand a WORD they're saying))
When I get sad
When I lose crap
My bad memory
My touchy STOMACH ((which totally needs to shut up or else I SWEAR I will INSIST on having a stomach transplant))
My indeciciveness
When people are sad

I draw, by the way. I'm not taking any commissions at this moment; I don't feel like drawing what other people want me to draw right now. 'Cept Zelo's backgrounds. Which I'll totally be getting to.

emo tazer gave me a fish.


Name: Bev
Birthdate: 12/4/92
Hair Color: Bronze-ish.... I think? It used to be blonde... until I didn't spend any time outside... At all...
Height: Bout 5foot 4inches
Weight: 'Bout 113 lbs... O.O I remember weighing at least 125 lbs not too long ago... Whoa! Cool!
Piercings: Ears, conetemplating nose sometime... or maybe my fear of needles will get in the way of that.
Tatoos: Nein ((fear of needles))
Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Mike <3
Overused Phraze: Wait... what? ((or maybe "wait... I forgot what we're talking about" wink )


Food: Tacos
Candy: Chocolate. Just chocolate. Nothing special in it, around it, whatever, no. Just plain ol' milk chocolate.
Number: 25 ((No idea why))
Color: Purple
Animal: Wolf
Drink: Mountain Dew
Alcohol Drink: Vodka mix'd drinks
Bagel: Plain
Letter: k
Body Part on Opposite sex: Eyes, hair, and smile


Pepsi or Coke: Coke
McDonalds or BurgerKing: McDonalds
Strawberry or Watermelon: Strawberry
Hot tea or Ice tea: Hot tea
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate ((unless we're talking about cappuccinos, then it's vanilla))
Hot Chocolate or Coffee: Hot Chocolate ((unless we're still talking about vanilla cappuccinos, then it's coffe))
Kiss or Hug: Both at the same time!
Dog or Cat: Doglike Cat. Maybe. Although I shouldn't have anything flammible.
Rap or Punk: Punk. I can't STAND rap.
Summer or Winter: Summer
Scary Movies or Funny Movies: Funny Movies. Though I think most scary movies are funny...
Love or Money: Love. I don't give a s**t about money. I could be richer than Bill Gates, but if I didn't have anyone who loved me for who I was, I'd be extremely depressed. I could be poor as dirt, a million dollars in debt, but if I had someone who loved me for who I was, I'd still be happy. Money means nothing.


Bedtime: Usually around 9:30-10:30 for a schoolnight, then around 12-1 on a weekend
Most Missed Memory: Being well again
Best physical feature: Eyes (('specially blue))
Goal for this year: TALKING to people more >_<;
Best Friends: Bonnie, Stef, Sabrina, Tiffany, and Christi
Weakness: Attention span, memory, decision making, assertiveness
Fears: spiders, or any insects ((besides bees)), needles, rubber bands, losing someone I love
Heritage: More than half Dutch, about 1/4 Scottish, and the rest is just a mix of Europeness
Longest relationship: Right now with Mike <3


Ever Drank: Yes (but quit)
Ever Smoked: Yup (also quit)
Pot: Yup (also quit)
Ever been Drunk: Not quite to the extent.
Ever been beaten up: Prolly ((I prolly block'd it out and gave 'em the benefit of the doubt))
Ever beaten someone up: Maybe when I was a little kid and hadn't yet become passive.
Ever Shoplifted: I don't think Limited Too counts, I just did that to cheat them out of money. I hate all chapstick 'cept Burt's Bees
Ever Skinny Dipped: nope ((though it sounds fun))
Ever Kissed Opposite sex: Yes
Been Dumped Lately: About a couple months ago.


Favorite Eye Color: Light Blue
Favorite Hair Color: Dark Brown/Black
Short or Long: Short
Height: I'd prefer if they're taller than me in my 3-inch platforms so I could wear those and not be awkward...
Style: I usually find it really hot when guys wear black, though it doesn't really matter.
Looks or Personality: Personality. I like a man who can love me for who I am. If I had a man that I thought was drop-dead hot, but he didn't love me for who I was, I'd dump him.
Hot or Cute: Hot
Drugs and Alcohol: Doesn't matter
Muscular or Really Skinny: Reasonably slim, and muscular enough to pick me up. I find that SO hot, you people don't understand.


Number of Regrets in the Past: I block'd 'em out. I don't need to wallow in my past. The presant is where the happiness is.
What country do you want to Visit: Germany ((To see a Rammstein concert))
How do you want to Die: BOOM, it's DONE. No pain. Well maybe like a split second of pain, then death. But then again I want to be an old lady so I can act really odd and scary and get away with it >D
Been to the Mall Lately: nope
Do you like Thunderstorms: That's my favorite weather ^^ Until we have to shut off the compy -.-
Get along with your Parents: Yeah, luckly. Though it's hard not to get along with a passive kid like myself. At least I'm pretty sure I'm passive. Though I could be wrong. I could also be indecisive, but I'm not sure about that one, either xD
Health Freak: Hehehe. That's kinda funny.
Do you think you're Attractive: Modestly, but the way I act is just way too manly for a female. I'm suprised people don't barf at my masculinity. I'm not the daintiest thing in the world. I'm also a huge klutz. I find klutziness hot in a guy, but I don't know if men find klutziness hot in a girl...
Believe in Yourself: Eh.. Hmmm... To an extent. But I'm passive with the results.
Want to go to College: Prolly, but I'd prefer it 4 years or less. Preferably less.
Do you Smoke: Not anymore.
Do you Drink: Not anymore.
Shower Daily: Yes
Been in Love: I am in love. Ever so deeply in love.
Do you Sing: When no one's listening. Or when I'm not trying too hard.
Want to get Married: Definately. I don't really want to die a virgin, and I don't really want to risk having an uh-oh baby, nor STDs. Plus having a man there through thick and through thin is my main goal in life.
Do you want Children: No. No. Hmmm.... NO. I'm way too passive, I CAN'T STAND babies, and I DESPIZE it when children think they've got more authority than me. And I DON'T want to become pregnant. Not to mention the whole act of giving birth is like the worst pain any woman could imagine. Just no. Not worth it. Too much stress. Too much pain. No. No. Just no.
Have your future kids names planned out: Chustin, Juliard, and an aborted fetus named Kampf that I tried to put up for adoption, but wasn't succesful so I mounted him on the wall, injected with SO many preservatives. Yes, even though I'm not going to have children, I just entertain the thought.
Hate anyone: Not to the point of hatred, but some peoples' actions just REALLY bug me.

I had Saturday school for getting too many tardies on December 1st. I got all my homework I brought done in the first half hour. So for two and a half hours, possibly more, I did this:

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(Inspired by Whitest Kids U' Know)

So that's all for now, I'll prolly submit more stupid s**t sometime else.


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This is where I go when there is no one to rant to. If you comment, I'll love you forever. And if you comment a bunch, I'll love you for MORE than forever!



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Report | 11/30/2009 8:29 pm


Hello : D
Will you please vote for me ? :3
Thank you o w o

Report | 01/21/2009 6:54 pm


... *prods with stick* Ewww... Why is this body just laying here?

Report | 01/02/2009 6:32 pm


nice profile
yanta may

Report | 08/01/2008 2:16 pm

yanta may

The Great Particle Wad

Report | 07/27/2008 7:44 pm

The Great Particle Wad

Hurray!! I'm glad my avi is attractive. Even if it's a dead one. Then again this one's pretty creepy 99.9% of the time, anyways. Even when it was rainbow-tastic. Heheheh.
Morganya Rage

Report | 07/21/2008 1:53 pm

Morganya Rage

You = creepy. Creepy = hawt. That is all.
The Great Particle Wad

Report | 06/16/2008 7:53 pm

The Great Particle Wad

*joins own funeral* *starts sobbing* WHYYYYYYYYY?! WHYYY WHY WHYYYY?!?? *drowns in own sobbing*

Report | 06/03/2008 6:13 pm


This is not a happy place.

Report | 06/03/2008 4:20 pm


*joins funeral service, throws flowers* User Image

*starts eulogy*

Report | 06/02/2008 4:53 pm


March 11, 2008 1:57 AM Particle Wad is dead

User Image *throws more flowers*


My avi isn't male, so I don't get how you people think I am...