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A self-proclaimed Gaia Online "veteran", since 2007. However, I wouldn't be surprised if there's a lot of features on this site even I still don't know about.
As of June 15, 2014, the day I am writing this, I am only 18 years old.
I log on every once in a while now merely to observe any major changes the site undergoes, and to lurk around in the General Discussion. Don't be surprised if I never get back to you, it's really not your fault.
Around 2007-2009, I underwent an emotionally overwhelming phase in life that made me want to retreat away from essentially my entire "IRL" life. Though I was never really diagnosed with anything, it's very safe for me to say that I was seriously depressed. No, I mean it, when people say the word "depressed", they usually mean mildly irritated or melancholy. Looking back now, the thoughts and feelings I had are very obviously signs of me having mental illness. I'm not going to explain all the details here.
It's a long, dumb story.
The reason I keep coming back periodically is because of how important this site used to be to me in the past. Throughout the years since 2007, I've met many different people, with many personalities, interests, flaws, and very beautiful lives.
The beautiful people I've met here literally became my online "family". I have been a son, brother, ex-boyfriend, even pet kitten. The concept of that probably seems unfathomably strange, but that's just how close my friends and I were. They provided a means for me to escape, love, laugh, confess, and enjoy life in the only way I knew how to, for a time.
Years and months have passed, and as things started to get better in my life (with much effort, of course), I began to log on to this website less and less. My family here also began to lose interest over time. Most of them haven't even checked to see what they won in a Daily Chance for years. For many of them, there was never a single instance where anyone said "goodbye forever". Things simply faded away. I will probably never talk to most of them ever again.
That being said, I am not sad. The people I've met here on Gaia Online have been some of the most genuinely caring, accepting, and breathtaking in my life. They have provided me with so much "character growth" so to say, which has made me the person I am today. Though I still have many flaws to work on, I am happy.
It turns out, it's not at all normal to always be a little sad about something on a daily basis. Sadness should be a low irregularity, and not the middle of the emotional equilibrium. My days are each a little unique compared to those immediately before and after. The family and friends I've grown to trust are everything to me now. I'm the strongest I've ever been.
If you're reading this, contact anybody, a random stranger on this website, or one of your most beloved, and create a moment with them. A single good day can create so much more in the years to come.
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