my dark little poems
1-2-09:lately- well mi sis turned 13. she yells more. she hates more. she annoys more. she makes me cry more...(//.<,)..... i hate her so much dont say hate is strong word because i know....and this is how im feeling... and i hate myself for it im so so so so terrible to myself and others im in depresion and not even the sunniest day could be my anadote for depression...........
1-9-09:for my whole life- mi sis plays this emotional game EVERDAY! she makes me mad then happy then sad and at the end of the day it always ends up the same.... I HATE IT!!!! but im done with the game she will no longer play me like a piano...not anymore... like i said her stupid annoying game always ends the same... Angry!
1-16-09:my god-I will die one day
I will and there is nothing I can do about that
It is scary….
Yet calming to know one day I will finally get to meet God
I love this scary and calming situation of life
And that is death
Because when its gameover its really not
Because god gives you an iternal life that includes wings
To feel weightless and carefree
Knowing he is visible in the sight of eyes now…
You see how perfect he is and now…
You learn from all his knowlegde and that could take billions of years
But you will still be…
Knowing that he is the only living being who never has doubts about you
And now you are…