Last Login: 10/16/2017 12:35 pm
Location: New York State
[size=10.5]She seems a bit inconsiderate and rude, I think her attitude is something she can help and saying it's just who she is isn't an excuse for her because she can work on it. I don't really think she deserves my second chances, frankly I'm sick of giving people chances and letting them ******** me over.
Yeah, Calais? She PMed me about being England~ We're friends. :whee: I told her I could join as 'Dr. Jones' and Alfred can be Arthur's doctor/psychiatrist! It doesn't discourage me at all... in fact, having someone I know in there only encourages me even more. c: As someone that personally knows PTSD, and has experience with it, I think I can pass off as a specialist of it? xD ;;
It sounds like you've thought about how Laos developed his mental illnesses well, but PTSD doesn't exactly work like that... it doesn't trigger another mental illness, triggers cause panic attacks - A hallucination of the traumatic experience. It's based on anxiety, sufferers of PTSD also have nightmares and such.
Obviously a person can have more than one illness, as far as I'm aware, Dissociatiative Identity Disorder (DID) isn't a switch that flicks on and off with a trigger - It's part of someone's permanent identity... or, rather, someone permanently has two (or more) separate personalities. Some may not even consciously control their body (and may punch people, for example) because their other personality does, the personality they're not conscious about. It was in House M. D., a guy with DID had to announce what he's doing, where he's going, etc. to himself to make his other identity aware of what they were doing. o 3o
Is it clear that I have a strong interest in mental disorders? xD Even before I was traumatised, my trauma has kind of made it harder for me to explore psychology.
PTSD can be rather scary, even small things such as taking a shower, drinking/eating certain foods, etc. can trigger a panic attack. You don't know when and where it'd happen, you're afraid to be alone because nobody will know or help you if something happens. You don't think these small everyday activities are related to your traumatic experiences, only to later realise that there's a significant link - For example, I have trouble showering not only because my ex abused me in the shower, but also because it's an enclosed space that I can't escape - My ex trapped me in enclosed spaces a lot.
I also have reoccurring nightmares, I can't predict when they happen but sometimes they get so bad I wake up in cold sweat and close to a panic attack. The trouble is that if I've already started my panic attack in my sleep, it's hard to regain consciousness because my hallucination is almost identical to having a dream. My ex abused me over the course 6 months in 2008, the worst incident being on New Years (from 2008 to 2009) whereby she strangled me with the intent to kill me. When I have panic attacks, or even get a little anxious, I get a sharp pain in my neck where her fingers dug in. Hallucinations, and panic attacks, literally makes you relive the experiences - And this includes the way you felt when it happened, I see her hand around my neck and I feel asphyxiated.
My nightmares also triggered a state of mind - A realisation, if you will, that it's only a dream and it can't hurt me. I started lucid dreaming (during my dreams, I am aware that it's a dream). I can 'make' myself wake up, but this has triggered a problem with my mind (keep reading, this is useful for your character). My subconscious started 'tricking' me into thinking I've made myself wake up from a nightmare, only to lead me into another nightmare. It used to be easy to 'make' myself awake up, but now my mind has found ways to trick me into continuing to dream. It feels like it's my conscious mind vs. my subconscious - Almost like Dissociative Identity Disorder, don't you think? lD
But yes, although I had Chronic Depression before I developed PTSD. I was always a worried and stressed pers