Note to those who still care I will not be coming back unless my very old friends come back. They are the only reason i have to be on gaia. Alexa, Karen, Bri, EJ, Jongy, Nene, Kibbles Guys I miss you so much You dont understand This was my home before you guys left This was OUR home Our place. You guys have grown up too fast. Im still a little girl at heart I cant leave this behind I cant leave YOU GUYS behind I just cant The memories we had are still with me And picture I know i need to grow up just like all of you guys have and just let go.... Heh... I just... I cant I miss you guys so much Please come back.... Updates 4-21-14 I am back, but only as long as my sisters stay. Alexa and Nessy have come back to rescue the lonely Luna. I have been saved. I have missed them too much Thank you guys so much for coming back Please stay forever <3
10-28-14 It's been such a long time since i've been here, but I'm honestly glad I left. I've been doing so much better in school, and i've developed a self esteem. I am no longer an ugly sloth, but rather, a beautiful blooming flower, who quite frankly, hasn't found her place yet. I still don't know who I am, but I know that I am beautiful in my own, special way <3 I recently lost 2 of my sons (cats), and that broke me, but I'm healing, and learning to get back up slowly. My daughter (another cat) is doing very well, and she seems in tact about the whole situation, and, as strange as it sounds, I'm quite content about that. I love seeing my little shnukums happy and about her day. I love her, and the love I have for her cannot be put into words. Anyway, I am doing well. I am in pain most of the time, but I am doing well. My depression is dimming, slowly but surely. I love school, as strange as it may sound, because it keeps me occupied. I don't think about the shitty day I'm having, or the tragic things that are happening in my life, because I can't afford to slack off. I'm on a A and B track right now, and I will stay this way. Thanks to all or reading :3.
3-30-15 I have officially, after 2 years, broken from my spell of unhappiness and evil. That guy was.. truly the devil. I was an angel stripped from my wings because of him. He tore and cut and ripped through them as if they were a piece of paper, and then went after my well being to satisfy his evil craving. I am thankfully out of there, and have found someone I truly want to spend my life with. He was there for me when i started to fall out of love with the evil one, and he has been there ever since. He was there as a friend, as a companion, as someone who wouldn't let go until he knew I was truly happy. He pained himself to make sure I was happy. He did everything he could to see my smile appear once more. If it wasn't for a few now EX friends of the evil one, I wouldn't have him, so i guess I have a few things to thank the evil one for. I have his ex friends, who are now my friends, to thank for as well, for re introducing us once more. We met, maybe in the fall, at his job while he was handing out flyers. We ended up talking, and I thought he was an awesome person. Then, because of my friends, we met again, December 9th, at the same place we ended up meeting before. ironic, isn't it? We ended up going to a park, and there was a lit up tree, right in the middle of the lake.. it was absolutely beautiful. He was there every day for me after that. I loved it, I truly did. My feelings rose when we started talking more, even while i was with the evil one. We had so much in common, it was as if I was talking to the male version of myself. I had at once, found the one. The one who I could call "my other half", the one who I knew, i wanted to protect me for the rest of my time in this world. The one who I could endearingly give my heart to, and know he wouldn't let anything happen to it. I knew he would let damage be brought to him before he even let my heart drop to the cold floor. I don't want that, but I know he would go lengths to protect me, and knowing that someone could love me as much as he does is a feeling that I don't want stripped away from me, ever. For once, I see my future with someone. I see a HAPPY future, an ecstatic future, filled with promising devotion and commitment. For once, I know someone truly loves me, and I have nothing to question about it. As much as he loves me, I love him twice as more, and as each day passes, I am glad that he is finally, mine <3.
5-20-15 I see now why people have become so ignorant in this world. Helping is misguided as trying to ruin/change someone's life, well, I'm done with helping. If someone tells me to '******** off" then I will. I was not trying to fix our friendship, as I know that you are deep within this depression that you don't want anything to do with me. I am done apologizing. I've done that for years, and it doesn't seem to get me any where. I am not going to keep taking steps back, because I am trying so hard to move forward with my life, to forget all the bullshit that happened in the past, to forgive. I am done trying. Thanks for showing me this lesson. Bye
Art of my two sisters and I/b] Blind Charmer and Vexous IV Art by Vexous IV
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