Do you care enough to read it? :3gaia_kittenstar I'm my own version of normal, I don't agree with society standards or normal nor do I agree with their vision of beauty. As they say beauty is in the eye of the beholder and I see a lot of things as well as people that are beautiful and gorgeous, that others that follow the ideals of society that they wouldn't even dream of finding beautiful. Even things that have to do with death and the dying that I find beautiful and I can't count how many times I've been called a freak for it but honestly I don't really care. I don't go for the girls that try to make themselves look like barbie dolls or the guys that try to be like people off that stupid show the Jersey Shore or whatever it is. I go off a persons personality and what they show me more so than someone's looks. I like to spoil my friends as well as my lover if I have one at the time. I like to take them out, have fun, get them whatever they want, hold doors open and let them go first, all that kinda good stuff. I've been told many many times that I'm to nice for my own good, that I'm naive and easily manipulated. In all honestly, I admit it, I am but as much as I've tried to change it and as hard as I've tried I can't change it I haven't been able to so I stopped, I am who I am so take me as I am or leave, it's up to you. Though with how I am and with wearing my heart on my sleeve 24/7 that doesn't mean I wouldn't be sad to see you go but it's part of life right? People come and go as they please and we learn to deal with the pain that comes with it. I don't have much faith in mankind as a whole though I know there's a few good apples out there though they're hard and rare to find. I've met a few here and there and I've lost a few in some pretty horrible ways but I have their memories of them so I know they'll always be with me. Though I will admit it does hurt that I can't remember what their voice sounds like being it's been so long since I've heard them. I can be pretty clingy at times being I love attention and for a long while I never got a lot of it and was mostly ignored by everyone around me like I was some kind of outcast. Though that's a whole 'nother story I won't get into right now. I don't mind being asked questions and I'll answer all of them the best that I can but if it's a sensitive subject I'll tell you politely that I don't want to talk about it.
I consider my close friends as my family more so than the ones I'm related to by birth and I have my reasons and they are my own. I might explain one day but it depends on who you are and how close you are to me. I'm pretty quiet and shy offline, I get really nervous and scared around people I don't know and I have a habit of just sitting there and staring and watching, just being observant of every little thing and I barely make a sound. People even tend to forget I'm in the room when I get like that and I could be sitting right next to them when it happens. I don't open up much about what's bothering me but when one of my family members gets hurt the chains come off and I snap like some kinda angry dog and I won't shut up until they get the point and they normally don't like what I have to say but I'm starting to care a little less more and more everyday with all the fighting that's been going around lately. I spend a lot of time online being I'm looking for a job and trying to get back up on my feet and I don't have much of a life right now. Some people may see me as a loser but I'm having fun so I don't much really care what they have to say cause I've got some pretty awesome friends and a killer family so I have all that I need. Anyway enough of my endless rambling, feel free to add me if you like. I'm here to have fun and make a few friends and just have fun hanging out together. Maybe even a few more family members :3 Take care everybody! heart gaia_kittenstar