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The boringness of me

January 2010
I was once married. Was tied down to a man that stayed indoors all the time. Now I'm free. I've been free since July. I was scared to go out into the world on my own and relied on many others to make me feel safe and secure. Now I realize that I have never given myself enough credit. I can do things on my own. So I've been exploring life. I've spread my wings and started doing new things. Instead of being stuck in the house reading which I still do occasionally, I won't give up my shojo manga, I'm outside enjoying life. I've made friends outside of work that I can hang with. I can FINALLY get some fresh air and walk through the woods without a care in the world. I can beat the crap out of guys that try anything because it's fun and they asked for it. I feel I have found myself in the last few months. I can't wait to see what life brings my way. I'm starting anew.
I would like to thank every one of my friends that I have met here. You all helped me through one of the hardest times in my life, and I really appreciate it. Thank you very much! ^_^ You guys are irreplaceable to me.

June 2010
I state the month because this is how much life changes. I'm still free. I enjoy my freedom as much as possible. I'm not scared to go out into the world anymore. I'm tired of my stability. I want to go out and see what the world has to offer. Someday soon, I will. biggrin I give myself enough credit now. Not too much because that's being egotistical and conceited, but I now see what others have told me. It's great to feel confident of yourself. I can honestly say, I haven't read a manga in almost 3 months. For anyone who knew me back then, I hope you didn't pass out when you read that. I still go outside and walk in the woods, and I have a few people that join me. There's nothing like a bunch of nature loving people together in a forest. ^_^
Life has brought much to me. It's made me realize that life is not as long as we believe it to be. That you must take advantage of every opportunity and not settle because no one is going to live your life for you. You should be happy with what you do and settle for nothing less.
I have found my beliefs in the past few months. I never had a religion, and I don't still, but I'm proud to be what I am, a very accepting pagan. In the past few months I have opened my mind to so many new things. I've found out and learned so much about myself that I never knew. Slowly, day by day, I am changing. Currently I'm in my cocoon, but as soon as I'm happy with everything and I know which path I must take, I will burst forth as one of the brightest butterflies you have ever seen.
I have learned many hard lessons in the last few months, and I value every one of them because they have helped me better myself.
I have made MANY friends since I have left Gaia. All of them are kind, generous, and understanding. I feel happy and honored to have them as friends. My life on Gaia is practically over. I have found happiness elsewhere, but I will keep my account so anyone who wants to can contact me can do so. I wish you all the best in life. ^_^



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Professor Memnoch Report | 01/28/2011 2:19 pm
Professor Memnoch
Professor Memnoch Report | 01/28/2011 2:02 pm
Professor Memnoch
xHuntersolidx Report | 07/11/2010 10:16 am
if i told you i almost ran over and old lady and hit a kid with my car door would you believe me
Millenium Joker Report | 07/02/2010 10:28 pm
Millenium Joker
The reason I never responded was because u texted me early in the morning, I had to wake up early, and I THINK I deleted the text by accident, ^_^;;
Anya Icheheen Report | 07/02/2010 10:19 pm
Anya Icheheen
Alright. I'll look forward to reading this story. night my friend. ^.^
Millenium Joker Report | 06/30/2010 1:26 am
Millenium Joker
Ach, not much, mein nadchen.

How are things on thine end? We never text.

Don't tell me Mischa is too busy to drop her favorite cynic a text. ^_^
Kuro Kiddo Report | 06/29/2010 7:15 am
Kuro Kiddo
What?! You won't be on Gaia anymore. *tear* Ever since i started coming back on here after my loooong absence I've been waiting for you to pop up. i'm at a lost or words so i'll just say this, keep doing what your doing it makes you happy. You were always a amazing person to me and your proving it everyday (I hear about you or talk to you). I hope you get everything you want in life, and I don't know if you remember but that girl I use to talk to you about.....We're together now just like you said.. lol

Anya Icheheen Report | 06/28/2010 7:19 pm
Anya Icheheen
Sweet. I'm glad you two are at least exclusive dating... but who knows, it may end up going even further. wink
as for Ori, no. His mom wouldn't let him come down for the summer. *sighs* and now he has a fractured wrist due to his work. i just wish i could be up there to take care of him. and yes, my health is pretty good except for the bruise i got on my head from a dense wooden broom handle falling on my head. XD But the distance may or may not close soon since he still hasn't heard from the college he wants to transfer to down here. i really hope he does soon cause i have a plan as to what i can do if he does transfer. ^.^
Anya Icheheen Report | 06/28/2010 9:46 am
Anya Icheheen
wow. it sounds like things are going great for you. I'm so happy for you. ^.^ Oh, and this guy and you really get along this well, i say... GO FOR IT! He sounds like an amazing match up for you. biggrin and sorry i wasn't on when you posted... with this new job i have, i am working at night and stay up to all odd hours of the night and then sleep till like 11:30 in the morning. and Ori and I are having our troubles that stem from long distance, but i'm hoping he will transfer down here soon. *sighs* life is just so hard at times. lol
Ayoo Erik Report | 04/11/2010 7:56 pm
Ayoo Erik
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Echo of Memnoch
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Birthday: April 12, 1985