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Have you ever had this urge just to quit? To stop fighting?
I feel like I'm floating. I'm not here. I'm invisible. I'm falling apart.
It was a saturated sort of day, the air was heavy, sky overcast. That was the day I decided to stop fighting.
It's strangge what you notice when you give up. A bird high in a tree, a trickle of water in a gutter, wind blowing through my hair, sway of tree branches.
A whisper.
Grow up.
I was on a walk, venting. Maybe not venting. Thinking. And I don't think I ever wanted a camera more. Everything was beautiful. Everything. I don't know how I didn't notice before.
Then I noticed it at school. The shy girl sitting in the corner, the stupid jocks who aren't as stupid as I thought, the cheerleaders who are nice, and the 'retarded' kids who can be brilliant in their own ways.
The box. I want to get out of the box of my group of friends, but at the same time, losing them would be horrible. There's a whole WORLD out there and right now I'm suffocating.
I'm invisible.
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Quiting? I do it quite often. I don't give up, but I press the pause button on life and just drift. And when it's fixed...
I go back and live life again. The way you describe the world, that's the way I see it 24/7. Simple magics in the world. The senses awaken, a scent sends me spinning off into a world of memories. Music leads me into dreams. A small swirl of leaves in the wind makes me feel like if I spread my arms, they wouldn't be arms at all, but wings.
Friends are support, gentle fingers holding and supporting. Friends cannot suffocate or box. but problems can. And problems like finding woven beautiful patterns and crawling into the woven threads and staining everything black, not night time black, but an ugly, festering black.
Try pausing life.
Take a camera.
He holds me in his arms
But it isn't the same.
You walked away
I'm trying to forget
Do you remember
the way we simply existed?
Do you remember
Those walks in the park
late at night
just you and me?
Do you remember
falling in the street
laying there
waiting for cars
kissing
loving?
Now you are a stranger to me
When did you become like this?
When did you lose track
of the things that really count?
Even when he is inside
Your smallest touch felt...
more tender
more loving
Can you ever really forget?
Not me.
I want to more on
but...
when I see his face, I just want you.
In the end
I guess
I still love you.
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Hello everyone!
Here's a few interesting things about myself.
1) I love anime!!!!! I live off of it. I even eat it! (well maybe not...)
2) I have an alter ego named Chaos.
3) I really, really, really love to write fanfiction!!!!!! Don't know w
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And in the end,
the love we take is equal
to the love we make
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