About the Girl
Run as fast as I can,
I can only stand tree-still.
I spread my fingers seeking something that isn't there
and try to get something firm to stand on.
not into night
but into what night exposes as it darkens.
I keep wondering where to place a lamp to keep seeing what I see,
till there's nothing left to throw light on.
And that makes me try drawing closer to myself
the naked depth that opens before me.
But before kissing him I spread my fingers
thinking as I free-fall
that I may waken in vain while falling.....
.....Even when a crowd of distances supports me,
because I didn't know where the distances came from,
I couldn't say this was not a dream.
No pain wakened me.
I expand on and on
but like an awkward tree I am sure only of my expanding,
unsure altogether where I am.
For even if the sun should suddenly begin to shine,
earth and sky might grow visible
but I could see nothing else.
Though night reveals to me
what daylight conceals,
even then I can see nothing.
"Night" by Shuntaro Tanikawa
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