About me below song if you're actually interested

Come at me
And you'll see
I'm more than meets the eye.
You think that
You'll break me,
You're gonna find in time
You're standing too close to a flame that's burning
Hotter than the sun in the middle of July.
Sending out your army, but you still can't win;
Listen up, silly boy, 'cuz I'm gonna tell you why...

I burn!
Can't hold me now,
You got nothing that can stop me.
I burn!
Swing all you want.
Like a fever I will take you down.

Reign supreme?
In your dreams;
You'll never make me bow.
Kick my ass?
I'm world-class
And super saiyan now.

You're starting up a fight that you just can't finish;
Watch the little hearts while they scrape you off the floor.
Bringing out your rockets? Well, shoot 'em up, baby,
High as you can go, but I'm the one who's gonna soar.

I burn!
Can't hold me now,
You got nothing that can stop me.
I burn!
Swing all you want,
Like a fever I will take you down.

It doesn't have to be this way;
Let's kiss and make up, then you'll learn
You can fight your life away;
I get what I want, so don't bother and just watch me burn.

Hotter than the sun,
Feel my fire;
Pyromaniac: my desire.
Thought that you could see the truth,
'Til I just burned down the booth.
Human Torch can't f*ck with me;
Johnny Blaze: Suspect B.
Strike 'em quick, lightning fast;
Melt them b*tches down to ash.

Gasoline, kerosene;
Strike the match, ignite the scene.
sh*t will never be the same;
Feel the fury of my flame.
Beg for mercy: it won't help;
Embrace the ending you were dealt.
Seems you f*cks will never learn;
Now sit back and watch me burn.

I burn!
Can't hold me now,
You got nothing that can stop me.
I burn!
Swing all you want,
Like a fever I will take you down.

I burn!
Can't hold me now,
You got nothing that can stop me.
I burn!
Swing all you want,
Like a fever I will take you down.

A to Z Questions About Me
I will warn this is long, but im not good at talking about myself so i will answer this list of questions instead, if you are curious about me, you can always message me
A - Accidents

01. Have you ever been in a car accident? Twice, once i was hit

02. Do you have a lot of scars? one down my left eye but its faded, i do however have scars all over my body for various reason, if your curious ask me

03. Have you ever been in a fist fight with someone? Yep a lot, recently too

04. Have you ever seriously hurt anyone by mistake? Yes and i regret it every day

05. Have you ever had stitches? Where? My face down my eye, my left upper arm and my hand

B - Beauty

06. Do you consider yourself beautiful? Nope

07. Are you self conscious of how you look? Yes very

08. Do you put on a lot of makeup? Hah never

09. Would you ever consider getting plastic surgery? No because no matter how i look i accept all of myself including my flaws

10. What do you think makes a person beautiful? I believe that beauty lies within the soul, and the personality of a person

C - Consequences

11. What was the longest amount of time you’ve been grounded for? about a week

12. What would you do if you got pregnant, keep it or have an abortion? As least likely as that is to happen to me seeing as i am a bigender lesbian, everything deserves a chance at life, and i would do my best to provide for that life, seeing as it would be a consequence of my actions

13. Do you ever think about how your actions affect other people? Every single day

14. What do you think is the worst punishment someone could give you? Its hard for me to get close, but if somebody took away my best friend and lover Samantha, i couldnt live

15. What is one thing you wish you didn’t do, just because it wasn’t worth it in the end? I never wish to change the things i did, but i look to how I can not make the same mistakes

D - Dealing

16. When you are mad at someone, how do you show them? I have a bad temper, i yell and hit things sometimes, but i usually keep calm and try to talk it out, but i'm not good at that

17. Name a time when you had to be strong. Everyday, but im not being strong for myself, i'm being strong so i can provide for the ones who have sacrificed so much to continue living and being with me

18. Have you ever dealt with a divorce or parents fighting? Any kind of abuse at home? Yes, my parents divorced, my father was a dick, a lot of mental abuse, doesn't matter now, my mother is happy now in her new marriage

19. When people at school don’t accept you, or have problems with you, how do you react? I usually just ignore them, teachers do nothing for nobody, nor to i trust others with my issues

20. Have you ever lost someone to death? Explain how you got through it.
I have lost too many, and just like anybody else i just kinda shut down for a bit

E - Experience

21. Have you ever had a job? Any volunteer jobs? I've had quite a few jobs, volunteered a lot

22. Do you think that you are sexually experienced, or not at all? I don't know really, i have had the same partner since i was 14 and its going to stay that way forever <3

23. Have you gone through a lot emotionally, or has life been easy thus far? HAH who hasnt, life is not easy, but if i were to provide an answer no, i had to grow up early

24. Do you think you are ready to be on your own (have your own home, job, etc.)?
I have already done it, had to move back home because i quit my job, got tired of discrimination

25. How old do you act? People think i am almost 30 when we first meet irl, so yea

F - Family

26. Is there anyone in your family you don’t talk to? Why? How about who i do talk to, my mother, thats about it, the rest of them can go to hell for all i care

27. If you had to choose, family or friends? neither, there is no choice, i dont have many friends, and with what my mother and my samantha have done for me, it would be them

28. Can you tell your parents or one of your parents anything? I can talk to my mother about anything

29. Do you have any siblings? If so, do you ever get jealous of them? Yes i have a younger brother and younger sister, i have not seen them in over 10 years, but no i'm not jealous, i'm happy they didn't go through what i did with our parents

30. How often do you spend ‘quality time’ with family members?
only my mother, but i live with her and my fiancee

G - Growing

31. How tall are you? How tall do you wish you were? i am somewhere between 5'6 and 5'8 above average for women, but i wish i was over 6ft

32. Do you think that you have grown more in the past year than any year before that? No but i lost wright so i stand straighter if that counts

33. As a person, do you think you are mature for your age or still act childish?
I act over my own age,

34. Are you scared to think that one day you will turn 30, then 40, then 50?
I am terrified of growing old because i already have all these issues now

35. Do you believe you still have a lot to learn?
Everyday you can learn something new if you watch the world

H - Hope

36. Love - real or not?
Love is true and it does exist, i was lucky to find it early

37. Are you a pessimist of an optimist?
i think the worst a lot

38. Do you believe in fate, that everything happens for a reason, or do you think that our actions lead the way?
I do somewhat believe that fate exists in a way, other than that i make my own decisions about my actions

39. Do you think that after we die our spirit is still alive?
yes, i think after our bodies die we can move forward to the next life so we can start new

40. What gives you hope when you just feel like dying?
Samantha Kara Hawkeye, She is the light in my life and she has saved me more than once from myself

I - Issues

41. Do you suffer from depression or constant sadness/loneliness?

42. Do you have any type of disease or disability?
I have Fibromyalgia or the most severe degree, if you wish for more info on this google it or ask me

43. Are you currently in a hard relationship or have bad luck with the opposite sex? NOPE, i'm with a girl who loves me, life can be hard sometimes but it never changes how we feel about one another

44. Do you think that you are alone in this world?

45. How often do you think about death, suicide or running away?
I have run from my problems far too long, and i will stand my ground from now on

J - Jokes

46. Say a word or phrase that would not be funny to anyone but you & one of your friends (an inside joke)

47. Are you usually the one who makes people laugh,Or the other way around?
I try to make people laugh because i am empathetic and i don't like seeing people hurt or upset

48. Do you cry when you laugh hard? No but i start hacking and coughing cause i have asthma and i'm a smoker

49. Write down a hilarious moment you had with someone that makes you laugh to this day!
I got drunk this one time and had a no holds barred wrestling match with a friend and we both got concussions

50. Do you ever get in trouble for laughing or talking a lot during class?
I was a mute throughout school

K - Knowledge

51. The purpose of school: to learn, to cause trouble or to hang out with friends?
I believe school is to learn

52. Do people refer to you as smart, dumb, or average?
i can be an BIG idiot at times, but i like to think im smart

53. What was the highest grade you have received (full course mark) ever?

54. What was your last average? This year would you like to maintain it or aim higher?
in the 75's i dropped out years ago though to get a job

55. What do you find the most interesting subject to be (to study or to talk about)?
History, Music, Theatre or Art

L - Love

56. Are you currently in love? If not, have you been before?
I am in love

57. Do people around you show you a lot of love (tell you they love you, hug you, kiss you, etc.)?
Im a very no touchy person, unless its with Samantha

58. Is love worth it?
Yes, i believe it is, it can save a life, there are many different kinds of love and they are all worth it, i will never take that back

59. Do you hate it when girls in their young teenage years say they ‘love’ someone that they’ve been dating for a few months?
Yep it irritates me

60. Does it take a lot for you to say you love someone, or is it just a word?
I took me 3 years into dating my fiancee for me to say it so yea

M - Money

61. Do you believe that money makes the world go round?
No, but it sure makes it easier

62. Is your family on the poor side, average, or above average when it comes to money?
Meh, me and my mom get by, we don't want for much, we don't need luxuries to be happy

63. Are you saving up for college/university, or planning to?
Someday i want to go to a college for voice acting

64. Would you rather win millions of dollars & be set for life, or find the perfect person to marry & start a family with?
I would rather keep my love

65. On a scale of 1-10, how important is money to you?
6 because you do need it

N - Naughty

66. Are you a virgin?
does a Gold Star Lesbian mean anything?

67. What do you think about doing sexual things with someone you’re not going out with?
I dont

68. Do you know anybody you consider a ’slut’? What makes you say that?
yes i know quite a few people like that and i avoid them, its just another annoyance

69. If you could, would you erase some things you did in the past or make it so you did more?

70. Do you consider yourself more nice or more naughty? You can’t say both!
It depends on the context i guess, but id rather not talk about my bed life

O - Openness

71. How long does it take for you to open up to someone?
I may never

72. What does it take for you to fully trust someone?
I dont trust people, its just this thing i have

73. Are you generally untrusting towards people because of past experiences, or any other reason?
Yes, i rarely ever give trust,

74. When are you comfortable with someone sexually?
always, it is nothing to be ashamed of

75. When it comes to parents and close friends, what’s the limit of what you can tell them?
i can tell my mother anything, i just choose not too

P - Positive

76. Have you ever had an experience with someone that didn’t necessarily end positively? If so, would you rather erase the memory of that person because of the sad times or keep the memory of that person because of the good times?
I keep everything in the back of my mind so i can learn from my mistakes

77. Do you agree with the saying: better to have loved and lost than not have loved at all?
yes i agree, but only to a point

78. Are you more optimistic or pessimistic? What do you try to be?
I try to me optimistic but it never works

79. Do you agree that something good can come out of everything?
Meh, not really, people are dicks what can i say, i expect nothing good, then when it does happen i'm surprised

80. Have you ever had a time where something really bad happened, but something really good happened because of it? If so, please explain what it was:
Not really, i guess i got in this fist fight with a child abuser, and now the guy is in jail, and the kid is safe, but....i cant get the image out of my head, that child crying

Q - Questions

81. When faced with a problem, do you ask for help or try to figure it out yourself?
I try very, very hard to figure it out, if not i will get frustrated and eventually ask for help when i have exhausted all my resources

82. Do you often question the world and how we came about? What are some things you would like to know about creation?
Nothing really, i just know i exist

83. Do you think the government is truthful? If you could ask the president one question, what would it be?
HAH nope and with the way things are going with Trump i have too many questions to even start

84. When someone does something wrong to you, do you confront them and ask them why they did it or just let it go?
I confront them, then i usually just get too pissed and walk away

85. What is one unsolved mystery about the world that you want answers to?
Living past our generic age limit

R - Respect

86. How do you show respect?
I show respect by being kind and considerate to others

87. What can someone do for you to lose all respect for them?
Hurt my family

88. Do you respect your teachers, parents, and other authority figures?
i respect my mother, nothing else has given me reason too

89. When you are disrespectful to your parents, what is the punishment?
I am not disrespectful to my mother,

90. If someone is mean to you, are you mean back or do you kill them with kindness?
I am the kind of person that Karma is behind me, i do not extract revenge, but sometimes i just want to know why

S - School

91. If you are still in school, what grade will you be going into?

92. When will you graduate high school/college?
soon hopefully

93. After high school, what did you do/are you planning to do?
i dropped out to work sooo yea

94. Do you like or hate school? What do you like/hate about it?
i hated it, i was bullied so much in gym because i was a lesbian, i never went back

95. Have you ever been suspended, expelled, or dropped out of school?
i have been suspended for defending myself

T - Temptation

96. Have you ever done something wrong, knowing it was wrong, because something inside of you said it was okay?
allllll the time, and i hate that i do that

97. Has anyone ever pressured you to smoke or drink? Did you do it?
i started on my own, but i don't drink anymore, i smoke cigs tho

98. Did you ever cheat on someone? Why did you do it?
I would NEVER, its wrong, you should never lead someone to believe you are faithful

99. Did you ever want to do something sexual with someone you didn’t really know or love? What did you end up doing?

100. Do you give in to temptation easily, or are you more independent and strong willed?
I am very independant, and i have a very strong will when it comes to being tempted

U - Unique

102. Do you do a lot of things because your friends are doing it?
Not really

103. Do you follow trends, wear whatever you want, or wear really unique pieces?
I wear whatever i think looks good on me at the time, mostly jeans and t-shirts or button downs

104. Do you give in easily to peer pressure? Do you do things such as smoke, drink, or have casual sex?
f*ck no

105. What makes you different from people your age?
I had to grow up early, and i think i have a better understanding of the world around me

V - Value

106. What’s the most expensive thing in your room?
My xbox and my tv

107. What’s more valuable: your life or the lives of your loved ones? Would you sacrifice your life for other people?
I would sacrifice my life for my love and family, i also suffer from a hero complex, so when i see people in trouble i feel responsible

108. What is something you value not because it cost a lot, but because it means a lot to you?
I value Samantha's life and love over anything, but i guess my model gundams mean a lot, it helps me calm down when i build them

109. If there was a fire in your house/apartment, what is the first thing you would grab?
My kitten

110. Do you think past memories and experiences are more valuable than what could possibly happen in the future?
I think we should always be moving forward, the past is in the past, and we need to focus on what we can change, not focusing on what already happened

W - Wishes

111. If you had three wishes, what would they be?
I would probably wish to be able to live happily
For children to never suffer
And for a hella lot of money

112. Would you rather wish yourself to be happy, or your loved ones?
I would give my happiness for my lover and my family, and i have done it

113. Do you believe that wishes come true if you really believe in them?
No, if you wish for something, you need to work to make it happen

114. Have you ever had a wish come true? If so, what was that wish?
No anything i wanted i worked for

115. Do you find wishing for things a waste of time because everything that’s meant to happen, will happen?
Again, i believe that if you strive towards you goals instead of wishing for them you can achieve them

Y - You

121. Are you more independent or social?
Hella independant

122. What is something that makes you very mad when you see it?
I dunno, i guess when people hurt others for no reason

123. Do you think that you have potential to do great things?
God knows i try to

124. What kind of person would you be if you didn’t have guidance from family members, God, teachers, etc.? Do you think people are born a certain way, or develop their personalities based on what they go through in life?
I believe that i chose my own path in life regardless of influences

125. Do you think people are generally good ?
Nope, i trust nobody to do the right thing

Z - Zest

126. Are you currently happy with your life? Why or why not?
I am happy that i am safe and i am with my fiancee at the moment, there is a roof over my head and food to eat, i am luckier than others, what else should i want

128. When change occurs, do you get scared or are you excited for it?
It really depends on the situation

129. Do you like to try new things, meet new people?
I try new things, but i'm terrible at meeting people

130. What is the most motivational thing in the world?
it has and always will be to me LOVE

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