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Poetry and prose, thoughts and feelings. Whether the events I write about are recent or not. These poems are also posted on my Tumblr - which is currently more updated than this journal considering I'm on there more.

Jar of Ponderings

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Last Login: 12/10/2018 10:04 pm

Registered: 12/06/2007

Gender: Female

Birthday: 05/20


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I have had many names. Cheri, Muffin, Sin, Kitten, Ponderings. I'm just a 23 year old trying to figure out and enjoy life.
I am a designer, I don't have an actual job quite yet, but I am still building experience through collabs and projects, whether they be professional or personal. Guess that makes me a bit of a freelancer.
I enjoy drawing, painting, photography, digital art, music, games, friends.
I enjoy the quiet moments i get and I am not one to feel the need to fill every bit of silence. I take my time answering questions that are actually important to me. Everything else? I don't really care, I don't have much of a preference.
I'm just here to enjoy. Be happy. Live for myself, because I'm sure as hell no one else is going to live for me, nor do I want that. We can either live together, make our mistakes and apologies when needed, or you can live your life blaming me or yourself or whoever around you and be afraid.
I used to be afraid. I don't enjoy letting go of people. Moving on. But I learned recently that sometimes, you have to. That not everyone is out there to be there for you or really cares about you. Know the difference.
And for those who have stuck by me: along with making mistakes, apologizes, having fun, and just living life and not expecting everything in return...I love you guys. You are fantastic.

emotion_bandaid Days I have gone without alcohol: 102 ( June, 24, 2018 )
emotion_bandaid Days I have gone without drugs: 102 ( June 24, 2018 )

emotion_bigheart I made that promise to someone I used to be close to, I intend to keep it, even if I never speak to this person ever again



Don’t look at my dark canvas
and think you have the right
to paint me any color
you ever hoped for me to be.


pt. I
color me vibrant.
I’ve been sitting in a world
of grays for too long.

feed me all of the
technicolor locked inside
the warmth of sunsets.

show me a rainbow
i can navigate across
the earth in search of


pt. II
I had been colored
dark again. A wrath of black
enveloped inside.

You had fed me grays.
Assisting they were pure white,
these clouds will not leave.

You promised rainbows,
instead I followed shadows
until the death of



gaia_sakura mood of the day: :pondering:
gaia_moon song of the day: I Don't Mind - Sav Brown
gaia_diamond you can also find me on:
gaia_crown Tumblr: @jarofcherry (poetry) and @helloimcherry (reblogs)


These guys donated/gifted me nice things. They're good people.
~*Kind Gaians*~ (thank you!)
C h a r t i s t e - Twister the Fire Phoenix emotion_bigheart
Oz Da Beast - 100k emotion_bigheart
taegyo - 100k emotion_bigheart
Sehr Herrliche - Astra 72: Foggy Day heart
jinglybell - lucky throw heart
_BELLY_tickler~5k heart
im_bi19~1k heart

- gaia_angelleft Pon. gaia_angelright


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Lil Zombii Report | 08/20/2018 9:40 pm
Lil Zombii
Lol you broke up with me after all the chances I gave you, you don't have any right to "keep a memory because you don't like losing people"

Don't bother replying.
Lil Zombii Report | 08/20/2018 6:29 am
Lil Zombii
Why did you even leave me on your friendslist .
schmmidtyy Report | 04/03/2015 12:36 pm
cool avi
Angel_Kitten_Sweetheart Report | 09/01/2011 8:03 pm
Awwww...,blushes and squirms> Thank you. I do try! heart
Angel_Kitten_Sweetheart Report | 08/24/2011 4:00 pm
I've been making a lot lately though. It's as if my eyes aren't seeing things. x.x <whimpers, nuzzles> My issues with the blue eyes, were that I wanted them as the steady eyes for my avie..but without the pink flowers all the time. Oh well. Your avie is still cute! <3
Angel_Kitten_Sweetheart Report | 08/24/2011 8:12 am
You were right! It does make them blue! x.x It's the rainbow eye one that makes them purple that I wish could change to blue. <face plant> Sorry about that. heart
Angel_Kitten_Sweetheart Report | 08/22/2011 3:44 pm
Ok, Well what item gives you the flowers and the eyes? I thought the Occulus item gave you the pink flowers? <head tilt> Is it another item?
Angel_Kitten_Sweetheart Report | 08/22/2011 2:21 pm
Welcome! <curls up against you and purrs deeply> How did you get blue eyes? The item that gives those pink flowers gives purple eyes. HOW did you manage to get blue eyes??
Angel_Kitten_Sweetheart Report | 08/21/2011 8:47 am
Your avie right now makes me want to scoop you up and cuddle you too. So we are even! Or we could just both cuddle each other, and be happy! <snuggles close and purrs> I don't know if I told you this, but I think you are very pretty! heart (no joke)
Angel_Kitten_Sweetheart Report | 08/17/2011 7:52 pm
It is going well so far, than you! <curls up at your feet, and basks in your rainbow pressence>


Love me.


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