AboutI stand before you (pixelated) a new woman. In the world that has wandered too far from love, I used to suffer from dependent personality disorder. That means, I was a doppleganger to anyone who offered to provide for me. I am not saddened by this in any way because it is through this state of mind, that I found my path back to love. When I was no longer welcome in the homes of an ex-husband, negligent parents and had alienated myself from friends, I was forced into the arms of a sister, whom I had been afraid of all my life, because of a lying mother, trying to cover her a**. It is so funny how life turns out. My sister was the only one in my family that truly cared about me and she has proven it, by not only taking me in, though I was weary of her, but she also gave my life direction using raw truth.
When they fed me the truth, they don't know how I was going to react. I was scared, when confronted with my tresspasses that I would try so hard to ignore or make excuses for. Everything I did out of selfishness, was an act of hate for those around me; Those I claimed to love. People tell me that the world is not so black and white, but to them I say this, for it is in His words, "Differing weights and differing measures; God detests them both" That means that I must not tip the scales so that my behalf is the beneficiary. I must stop being selfish and greedy. If I want to be happy and have a healthy heart, mind and body, I must keep my focus off the non-materialistic things in the world and on the things that express love. Now, is the time for healing old wounds and reforming bad habits for me. It is a time that I believe everyone should take to find themselves, be true to themselves and reflect on what is real and what is a lie. By "lie" I mean the things we do to one another, (hurting them in some way or another), that we make excuses or exceptions for. Hear me when I tell you this, " The Lord will strike down upon thee with great vengeance and furious anger those who attempt to poison and destroy my brothers."
"Love is my religion. You can take it or leave it, but you don't have to believe it."