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Birthday: 10/31




My names Amanda Joy Bridges. Call me Joy, Because its my Middle name and I prefer it. Chances are you annoy me. I grew up in Auburn, New York which I doubt you have ever heard of before because its way upstate. Now I live In Doylestown, Pennsylvania. I don't like it it here. But honestly, I'm okay with it. I Dislike almost every single person that i meet. I don't like people that are immature, and try to be something that they are not. I don't like lying, backstabbing, two-faced, disrespectful/rude people. I don't really hate people, but I do hold grudges and its difficult for me to forgive someone fully. I have bad trust issues, I can barley even trust my own friends, so I pretty much keep everything to myself. Lying is stupid, and it has gotten me no where so I don't do it anymore. I'm very mature for my age and i've been through way to much. No one has ever been their for me, and i think that is quite unfortunate. I've changed an indescribable amount over the last three years, and i'm not the same person that i was three years ago. I'm not straight edge, and I will never be. We all only have one life and life is short, So I'm going to do what I want in life before I have no time left. I am not going to have the same relationship drama From 08' or 09'. It's a new year, and I want it to be a good one. I want my life to change, And I think I do know the person who could to that for me, But he's just not ready. If you have a question to ask me click the FAQ link under the navigation bar. I have a lot of mental problems, I have Bi-polar disorder, Severe clinical depression, insomnia and Anxiety. So Sorry if I'm not in a good mood and I'm a d**k to you. Don't try to cheer me up, Don't try to be nice, Don't ask me whats wrong, Don't comment me and Don't try to be my friend. My life has no valid point anymore, so ******** you and ******** off.

You did not kill the prom queen, I highly doubt you wear Prada, and No one is going to bring you the horizon.

I'm agnostic, So don't try to tell me any different, because I am not going to change my religious views for anyone except for myself. Don't ask me to change, Because no matter how close you are to me or I am to you, I will never change for anyone except myself, because If I'm changing its for the better, and not for the worse. Don't ask me why i wear so much makeup, I wear it because I have very low self esteem and i am not comfortable with myself. Putting on my makeup makes me feel more secure about myself. I have a lot of friends on here, and I get a lot of comments, so Im sorry if I don't get a chance to reply to you, If its beyond a week just comment again and i'm sure I'll reply. Don't ask me to make you a sign and Don't ask me to make you a video, I would only make a video for someone I'm close to and I felt like making one for. I've had 14 piercing's that I did on my own, but i currently have three. I have two tattoos, which i also did myself. If you don't like my piercing's or my tattoos then just delete me. I think tattoos and piercing's are really attractive.

"Wanting to be something your not is a waste of the person you are." - Kurt Cobain

You don't know me. You're not friends with me. You don't do my hair for me, and I am not your idol. All you know is that I'm some girl from myspace thats name is Amanda Joy and has a lot of fakes. I cut, style and dye my own hair and extensions. I want to be a cosmetologist when I get older. If you live near me and want me to do you hair/extensions, just message me about it. I love my german class, its the most amazing thing I have ever experienced. Don't get smart with me, because I'm a ******** b***h. I'm not saying that to act tough, I have a horrible temper and I'm very impulsive. I love drawing and I love music, It pretty much powers me. I drink a lot of coffee and tea. I really like soup and apples. Taco bell is probably my favorite place in the whole world besides a Chinese restaurant with really good sushi. I hate bananas, a lot. I don't know why I just really don't like them. I wish I was born in the 70's or the 80's, so I could have grown up in the 80's or the 90's since thoes are my favorite time erras. I wear a lot of 80's and 90's clothes, yeah that means leather pants, leather jackets and over the shoulder shirts. My favorite bands are The Cure, The Smiths, The devil wears Prada and The Used. I am not emo, scene, punk, br00t4l or goth, just because I go to a lot of shows doesnt mean I'm one of thoes. I hate stereotypes so I don't include them in my vocabulary, So i don't put other people in stereotypes, Labels are stupid. Don't judge me because You don't know me, and I doubt you ever will. I am nothing as i portray myself to be, so you should talk to me sometime.

"I would rather be hated for who I am Then loved for who I am not." - Kurt Cobain

I really like video games, I play my 360 and PS2 when I'm bored because I have absolutely no life. Whenever I have free time I pretty much draw for hours at end, or I go on stickam. I love everything japanese, I read way to much manga but it's okay. I really like Bleach, Deathnote, and Naruto. I've read every single DB, DBZ and DBGT manga and i've seen every single episode. Yeah It's funny, I know. I'm a nerd and a loser but I'm chill with it. I go to Long Island every summer for two weeks to see my grandparents and the other half of my family. So If you live near Staten Island you should hit me up when I'm there and maybe we could chill. I wish I could write more, But Thats basically it I guess.

"The worst crime is faking it." - Kurt Cobain.

I met you and i felt like i was happy for the first time. I felt like i had finally met the one for me. But in the end nothing turns out like you want it to. I'm so sorry i wasn't good enough for you to stay. I'm sorry I couldn't be your everything like you were for me. All I care about is your happiness and I hope your happy with someone better then me. You caused me so many problems, you really did. You ******** me over more then i can count on both hands, but no matter what your the only one i want, i need you and I can't find anyway to get over you. My memories will always be filled with you. I love you. Forever and Always. CJS<3