A look into the bowl...
I am 'immature' in that I sometimes escape the real world and responsibility (but not too far behind) in favor for a fantasy, either the 'dream' one created in my mind, or the virtual reality online- especially Gaia.
However, I'm also "immature" in that I allow myself to be amazed by simple things that people take for granted- not only nature, but also, for instance, the microcosms and macrocosm that are a part of us and that we are a part of,...people's motivations, the color and temperament the sky chooses, as well as wondering just how things got to be as they are. Basically, I look for interesting things and maintain a sense of wonderment in my journey in a world that encourages me to rush to my destination.
Yet, make no mistake-despite my escapism, I am mature in that I always consider the implications and long-term affects of my actions and words, as well as my capabilities...meaning that I'm almost constantly thinking and slow to act. So when its "Go time", I shine.
My tendency to live in my head makes me prone to overthinking... I think about how I have become the person I am today, the 'good', the 'bad', and what makes each aspect so decidedly good or bad...
As of late, I have found myself feeling somewhat lighter and hopeful. The light at the end of a very long and dark tunnel makes itself seen. I am increasing grateful for my blessings and become lighter in spirit every day. smile
I want to Live- regardless of the meaning the existence of life may or may not have in itself.*
"Randomness and chaos are everywhere- they are neither good nor bad- just not-orderly..."((TM)RSal)