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Freedom
What is this agony,
This pain I feel inside?
This constant emotion,
From which I want to hide?

I can't seem to do
What they all say is right.
No matter what I try,
I can't seem to win this fight.

Is it really that wrong
For me to want to be happy?
What have I done that was so bad
That I can't wish to be free?
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Turmoil
My world is crumbling beneath me
Leave me to plunge into a bottomless sea
A sea of despair created by my own hand
You seem so at peace,
I can hardly expect you to understand.

This inner turmoil, it's gaining control,
my strength of will is losing its hold.
I can't remember who I used to be
I didn't think I could forget how to be me.

People on the outside, they just don't get it
I've fought for so long, but I can't really take it.
I wonder, if I should cease to exist,
Would my untamed emotions continue like this?
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Alone
I don't want to be here
I'm over living with this fear
Of everyone turning away from me
Cursing and teasing, leaving me

I don't know how much more of this I can take
I can't help but think that their friendship is fake

No one wants my company
They've got no idea what its like to be me
I'm done with all the fighting
I'm giving up on trying

I'll convince myself I don't need friends
We all end up alone in the end.
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A few of my poems I wrote, yes that's right people, I write poetry, mostly sad or depressin stuff, but they are ones people can connect with. I also draw a lot of stuff, I think it's terrible but my friends say my drawings are alright, but they're my friends, they're pretty much oblidged to say that, right? I am a HUUUUUGGGGEEEE doctor who fan, as well as a bunch of animes, and all sorts of crazy insanity. I also rule at arguing with people due to my vaste knowledge of literature and vocabulary. Not to boast of course lol. 3nodding I'm more than a little insane and I actually hear voices in my head, which isn't the greatest feeling in the world. I hate people who use text talk, because seriously, they were taught the english langauge for a reason. I'm a country girl at heart with a major love for musicals and animals. I absolutely HATE homophobes, being Bisexual myself. If people have problems with me I'd rather know it then be bitched about. I'm a completely honest person and if I have a problem I will in fact be completely open about it.