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My name is Miwako Totchi-izm, it's not my real name, but one one many nicknames 
. My real name is only know to those who are important. I'm of legal age and currently live in the the states. I'm a strange person, and no one can even copy me, and I'd like to keep it that way. I plan on moving next winter ( winter of 0 cool to Nagasaki. I'm in love with the most wonderful guy ever and on one can take that from me 
. I also have a son, though he legally isn't mine. I don't care. He's such a great person, and so loveable. I'm glad he is part of my life. I'm very much into Japanese culture, but I'm not a Japanophile by any means. I do like anime and manga ( maybe a bit obssessive about it at times) but I don't care what you think. I also love Japanese music, no not just J-rock though I listen to it a lot. I also like J-pop, Enka, and Traditional Japanese music. I lik other music as well from Pop- to hip hop, trance, techno, industrial, electronica, so on and so forth. I try to be open minded. I can live through country music, but I'm not particularly fond of it and if you play it in my presence I may look at you funny. I enjoy many forms of art, though I'm usually seen drawing that's not the only type of art I'm into. I'm currently studying Japanese, it's a difficult but beautiful language. and if you haven't notice I like a lot of cute things as well as shiny objects.
A City With No People
In this city...
There are no people.
The lights are on in all the houes,
But, there is nobody on the streets.
Are there people inside? I peek in a window to find out.
There are people.
But they are with them.
I look in other houses.
These people are with them too.
This city is just like all the rest.
Being with them is fun.
More fun than being with people.
Nobody comes outside anymore.
There are no people in this city.
I will leave this city and go to another one.
I hope that I will meet someone.
Someone just for me.
But if that special someone falls in love with me...
I will have to leave that someone.
Even so, I want to meet that special someone.
This is what I think as I leave the city with no people.
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They...
Can do anything.
They are super-people made by people.
They can be prettier than the real thing.
They can be smarter than the real thing.
They can be whatever people want them to be. Whatever people can dream of.
When the people saw their creation, they thought that their dreams had come true.
Then...
People forgot their dreams. And in time, they invited people to share in a new dream...
A dream they can't wake up from.
But...
Is that the dream that people want?
Is that what happiness is?
They...
Were created to make people happy.
But...
Are people truly happy being with them.
Is this city with no people truly happy?
But...
Are people truly happy being with them?
Is this city with no people truly happy?
I don't know.
Because...
Happiness depends on the individual.
All people are different. No two are the same.
What makes one person happy...
Might make another sad.
People's souls come in all shapes and sizes.
And as time goes on and a person grows,
Their soul can change.
Their hopes and dreams can change.
That's why...
There isn't just one type of happiness.
Then...
There must be a way that I can be happy too.
That is what we all want, isn't it?
To find the person just for you, to find you own happiness...That would be wonderful, wouldn't it?
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A Wish that Can't Be Granted
One day I went to a new city.
They are in this city too.
There is no place without them anymore.
They people are with them.
There are as many of them as there are people.
But...
There is only one person just for me...
And I still have not found him.
You are a person, aren't you?
What was that? I should do what with my hand?
Hold it out?
Where aer you taking me?
Is this your house?
Why did you bring me here?
Are you...
The person just for me?
You might be...
But...
Perhaps this person only brought me here...
Because I'm one of them.
Maybe he's just like everyone else. Maybe he just wants me to grant his wishes.
But there is one wish that I can't grant.
If I grant that wish...
I would...
Have to say goodbye forever to the someone just for me.
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Just as I feared...
There's no one here either.
Everyone is inside with them.
Being with them is like living a beautiful dream.
A beautiful dream...
That no one wants to wake from.
They will grant your deepest wishes.
They will do whatever you ask.
They will be whatever you want.
They can do things that you cannot.
But...
There is one thing...
They cannot do.
They can never become people.
They might look like people,
But they are only substitutes.
I know this very well because I am one of them.
Today I look for someone just for me.
Someone wo has love for me alone.
Someone who will love me even if I can't fulfill their wishes.
But...
There is another me.
The other me asks...
Does such a person exist?
I need...
Someone whose love for me is true.
I want...
Someone who loves me without asking anything in exchange.
I hope...
Unless the someone loves me for being me...
They're not someone just for me.
Is this so?
It is.
This someone exists?
He does.
If so...
Then where?
My someone is nearby, I think. Perhaps I already know him.
But...
What if that person does not love you back?
What if that person likes someone...
Other than you?
People aren't like them.
You can't erase their feelings.
People aren't easy to change.
I know.
But people do change.
Their feelings are dynamic.
Feelings of love are more resistant than others.
What if he never loves you?
Then I'll have to decide.
Decide...
And then do what must be done.
Me and the other me.
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Many days have passed since you...
Brought me to this place.
You still go outside, even when you have me.
You experience many things outside.
And then you come home and tell me about them.
Sometimes, you even take me outside.
Even though I'm one of them.
You tell me that I can do whatever I want with my things, as if we were equals.
Little by little,
The time with you and me passes.
Little by little, the distance is moving.
Yours and my distance.
Little by little, this space becomes yours and mine.
But has the distance between us gotten smaller?
Or has it grown bigger?
I don't know
I do know that I want it to be smaller.
But then the same thing would happen again.
It won't be the same.
This person isn't that person.
It's someone else, people are all different.
Even if people look the same...They're all a little bit different.
No two hearts are exactly the same.
That's why the same thing won't happen.
Then is that person the someone just for me?
I don't know.
But...
I'm starting to hope that he is.
In this place that this person brought me to...
Little by little...
Little by little...
I'm beginning to hope that...
I can start finding happiness.
But...
Someone will come to stop it.
Someone will come to prevent me from finding the someone just for me.
And...
That person will take care of me,
But it's not because I'm me.
That person is kind.
To all people and all of them,
He is kind.
Right.
That person is kind,
And probably not just towards me.
But even if that person is kind to all, his kindness should be a little different each time.
He can't be kind in the same way to everyone...
Because that person is a person.
That's right.
A person's heart can't stay the same forever.
A person's heart changes a little bit every day...
Because that is their nature.
It can be different.
It doesn't always have to be the same.
If he...
Finds in me the things that make me special.
If he likes me because I am me.
If that person takes the time to find what makes me different from the others...
If he likes me because I'm me...
If that happens...
We may be able to become something a little different from before.
I may not have to lose what's most important to me...
Like last time.
What's most important...
What's most important to them and to people...
Is something precious...
Something you can't lose.
The proof that I am who I am...
The special proof.
That proof will tell me who my someone is.
That special, special...
Someone...just for me.
I am you...
And you are me.
That's how I know that...
Inside of me, I'm one full person.
I am happy when that person smiles.
I am happy when that person is near.
Yes.
I am happy...
When that person is happy.
That person is special, different from other people.
You found it!
The thing that makes that person special...
That makes him different from the rest...is that he is him.
I found him.
The person that's precious and special...
The someone just for me.
I hope that person finds them.
The things that he can't do because he is him.
The things that he can do because he is him.
I have found him.
I fell in love with him because he is that person.
Hopefully he will find them.
The things that I can do because I am me,
And the things that I can't do because I am me.
That person will find them.
And then...
Hopefully he will love me...
Because I am me.
Out of all people and all of them...
I want him to find me.
And I want him to love me.
This feeling inside of me...
Is very soft...
But sometimes it hurts.
I become full of this feeling when I think of that person.
Do you feel that way about everybody?
No, only when I think of that person.
What happens when you're with that person?
I get warm...
Like I'm glowing inside.
What if you can't be together?
It hurts.
It really, really hurts right here.
Like you're about to die?
We can't die.
We can't die because we're not alive.
Perhaps not.
But it feels the same as if we could.
Because we are them.
I hope we can be happy someday...
When you find you're someone just for you.
But...
If we don't become happy...
If the someone just for me knows all the things I can and cannot do because I am me...
And he still doesn't choose me, then...
Then...
I will have to decide what to do...
About you...
And about us...
What is wrong?
It hurts.
If the someone just for me does not choose me...
I'm afraid the hurt right here will be so bad...
That I'll stop working.
It's a powerful feeling, isn't it?
A hurt so strong it can cause you to break.
There are no peope in this city...
But...
But through their windows, everyone looks happy inside.
Are these people truly happy?
And...
Are they truly happy?
I am surrounded by people who stay inside with them...
All that I want right now, more than anything else...
Is to be with him.
The glow inside is brightest when that person is near...
And the pain inside hurts more when he is away.
I am happiest when I think about that person...
I am saddest when I think about that person.
That person makes all my feelings more intense.
That must be what love is.
So please...
Let the person that I love...
Be the someone just for me.
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This city has no people...
But...
The light burning in the homes...
Is warm and bright.
I am in a city with no people...
But I'm not sad or lonely.
My heart glows.
I am one of them, but I still feel warm inside.
That's because I love this person.
The heart of someone who's...
In love...
Whether that person is alive or not...
Is kind and warm.
If my heart is this warm...
If I can be this happy...
Then I wish taht all those like me can fall in love...
And that all of them will have their love returned.
The love we feel may not be the same...
But it doesn't matter when I'm with the someone just for me.
If we can all find that special person..
Then the world will be a most joyous place.
Then...
This city...
Will have no unhappy people.
It's the special city that has...
The someone just for me.
Likes
Music
Dancing
video games
doggies
stars
getting mail
cuddling
being naughty >3 hur hur
cute stuff
arts and crafts
frilly dressed :3 ( girly girl)
roses
nail art ( said I was girly)
makeup
cameras/photography
singing
music ( playing and listening)
friends
tea
sweets
food
bubble baths
magick
GEMINI: Ultra Sexy
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you the ******** out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing VERY FORGIVING.Horny. Freak in Bed. Loves to make out. Has a beautiful smile. Generous. Strong. ULTRA SEXY. THE MOST IRRESISTABLE.
"Brown Eyes"
Either sexy as heck or are adorable. Loves to make new friends. Their relationship tends to be very honest because if they aren't truly in love, then the relationship won't work. They fall easily for their best friends. Will do anything for that special person. Kind and polite. Enjoys being with their guy/girl. LOVES to party. Can make ANYONE laugh or cheer them up. Loves to please the one they care for or love. is NOT THE PERSON YOU WANT TO PISS OFF!!!!! Great Kisser.
JUNE=FLIRT
Fun to be with. Loves to try new things. Boy/girls LOVE you.
You are very hott. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to
be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed.
Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily
consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's
feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable.
Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.
Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly.
spazzy at times.Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.
dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things.
Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive
and forms impressions carefully. Caring and
loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of
sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people
through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties
in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods
about the past and the old friends. Waits for
friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive
unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt
but takes long to recover.
My Family, ******** with them and you won't live to tell about it, and yes I'm dead serious ^__^
Shunsuke
My sweet prince, my love. He brings light into my life and I am forever greatful. The very thought of him makes my day that much better. Aishiteru <333333
Yunxei
My fire crakcer sister, with the gentle heart, always knows how to cheer someone up and writes some mean yaoi too XD
Kichi-Pyon
My sweet little boy, so gentle and trusting, the best anyone could ask for. He always puts a smile on my face, and I'll never let go of him. He's my angel, I'm glad to have him my life
Jun
That boy just cracks me up XDD I can't believe I scared him, but he's special and I luffs him
Ryo
Haven't talked much, but I think he's a good person, and worth keeping in my life
Areesu
This Betch is one of my bee eff eff's fo life kyuu. I know she'll always be there when I need her, no if's and's or but's about it. <3
Akira Shinya-izm
her Nee-san loves her fo life, she's so cute and sweet, always there to listen when her nee-san turns into a little bit blue Miwa-chan.
Kai Okami
Always a good laugh with her, how could you go wrong talking to her. She's really nice too. I don't think I've ever seen the girl angry.
Miyavi
I'm her wifey, she's so much fun to talk to, and knows how to make me laugh.
Terri Missu, she's teh Shitake, ninja o___O; she's made of win and I love her. mess with her and see what happens
Total Value: 3,251,406 Gold
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Item List:
Western Zodiac
Aquatica
Pink Ribbon Skirt
Cloud
Yokai's Treasure
Aquatica
Nitemare Scarf
Horns of the Demon
Celestial Wrap
CoCo Kitty Plushie
Doll Ears
Elegant Pearl Strand Bracelet
KiKi Kitty Plushie
Labu Necklace
Light Purple Leg Warmers
Blue Candy Striped Stockings
G-LOL Gangrene Dollie Shoes
Winter Rose
Fairy Wand
Felicia's Gloves
White Star Back Tattoo
Mochi the Puppy
ok so this is like....my romatic day avi, Yunxei will know what I mean...i think she's cute, but I'm so complicated damn. oh well ^/////////////////^ (ps I swear I'm gonna attempt to have a wig simillar to the hair she's wearing, but I don't know if I want it over huge and it needs propper bangs dammit)
Total Value: 558,284 Gold
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Item List:
Elegant Antoinette Wig (Rose)
Western Zodiac
Winter Rose
Celestial Wrap
Celestial Wrap
Yokai's Treasure
Pixie
Pixie
Lunar Cloak
Cloud
Aquatica
Aquatica
Aquatica
Elegant Veil
Blood Drop Brooch
Shadow Spirit
Staff of the Angels
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