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[pia]

Report | 05/04/2021 3:50 pm

[pia]

Oh god, I don't even know where to start with that. It would seem that all this mental health s**t does originally stem from our family genetics, but there are also plenty of things going on in the world and all around us that of course make things infinitely worse. As for ECT treatment helping in the beginning, that seems to be a pretty normal thing and I don't know why; but it also seems to be the same for TMS treatment which is in the same category of treatment. I don't know why, but it seems like most treatments, whether it's a medication, or therapy, or something much more intense like ECT or TMS - all seem to have an initial benefit in the beginning if they work at all (many people are unfortunate enough that nothing works for them beginning-middle-or-end) and then after awhile it just stops. As for me, I suppose it doesn't really matter because ECT is such a significant treatment, that regardless of whether it works the entire time or not, they never prescribe the treatment for very long because it's just too hard on the body. So I think there might be a tad of confusion on your end, and that's my fault and I apologize for it, I forgot that there are multiple different disorders referred to as "BPD" - silly me. I have been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, which I feel is the worst thing one could possibly have. I can actually live with the depression and sadness, what I can't deal with is the constant rage that I consumed by. The smallest little things can send me into an outburst and it's so awful that I actually scare myself. I've always been a relatively easily irritable person, but this murderous rage is new just in the last couple years and it has effectively destroyed my life. Talking about Gaia, I've become so disinterested by everything, I might log in maybe just once or twice each week, and then I never spend more than a few minutes online; usually just checking out new items that came out that day and then logging off. Traveling usually is fun in some way or form, but given the current global crisis, no one's going anywhere, borders are closed, etc.... And in the USA anyway, there sure as s**t doesn't look to be any kind of end in site, which is just going to make s**t infinitely worse. I hope things are going better for you and your family and friends at least. I'm grateful I have you, thank you so much for sticking by me sweetie. I'll try to be more social around here.

And thank you very much. Wilted is my favourite colour scheme and Umiko is a softer version of it, so of course I fell in love with it too.
Auriga La Shock

Report | 04/30/2021 1:47 pm

Auriga La Shock

Yesss. It'll be so nice. Hopefully it'll add new players too.
Auriga La Shock

Report | 04/30/2021 1:04 pm

Auriga La Shock

Blue rune thing on the for floor? Yeah
Auriga La Shock

Report | 04/30/2021 12:53 pm

Auriga La Shock

You probably already claimed it then lol it's the rune freebie
[pia]

Report | 04/22/2021 11:44 am

[pia]

Thank you. This is a bit of a unusual situation though that most are not familiar with. 99.9% of the time, when people being treated for mental health issues mention admission to a hospital, they almost always mean a psychiatric hospital, and to be completely honest, those hospitals are complete and utter s**t. I swear, their sole purpose is to make money and keep unstable patients locked up so they don't get in trouble for not watching/protecting them. As for me personally, I've been admitted to 3 psychiatric hospitals throughout my life time, and they were all absolutely horrid. Right now, I'm receiving ECT treatment 1-3 times weekly at one of the main hospitals in my state. The doctors, nurses, and residents are all extraordinarily nice at this hospital, but they're pretty much the only people I'm able to talk to. They keep us patients suuuuuuuper spread out. I might see ONE other patient maybe every other week or two? As for hobbies and stuff like that, no, there's nothing I look forward to regularly. I used to have a dog who was essentially the love of my life, but not too long ago, my mother decided to get rid of him to punish me. Punish me for what? I have no clue, but needless to say, it was devastating, and I've honestly never gotten any better since that incident.

It's not that depression makes me not want to be around other people. I'm actually an incredibly social and humourous person. If anything it's my BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) that worries me. It leaves me quite unstable and sometimes a bit dangerous to be around, and the last thing I want is for innocent people to be exposed to my instabilty.
SpoOoOpyKitten

Report | 04/21/2021 5:28 pm

SpoOoOpyKitten

Thank you so much for your purchase. heart
[pia]

Report | 04/20/2021 4:03 pm

[pia]

Is my fam thing resolved? I don't really know how to answer that. If I'm being 100% honest, I don't think it will ever get resolved/better. We all have so many various mental health issues that we're all dealing with, and very few of us actually even get along personality-wise; it's really just a tragedy any way you look at it - at least I think it is.

My weekly multiple hospital visits are indeed for my severe depression, or at least, they're supposed to be. I'm receiving ECT Treatment 2-3 days weekly, and it tends to help at least a bit, but there's still a shitton of work that needs to be done in order for me to actually be professionally considered "better." (If that's even actually a possibility)

That's so incredibly sweet of you to offer me the gift of art, but you really shouldn't waste your gold/money on me. Buy yourself something lovely.
[pia]

Report | 04/18/2021 4:17 pm

[pia]

Yes, I usually spend 2-3 days per week in the hospital. It's supposed to help, not that it's actually doing much sweatdrop
It's incredibly sweet of you to offer to help, but unfortunately I don't think there's anything you, or anyone else, can do to help.
I'm pretty irked with myself right now too because on top of being depressed, I damn near broke my foot going down some stairs yesterday, so that hurts like a b***h and I'm a dumbass gonk
What have you been up to lately?
[pia]

Report | 04/17/2021 9:28 am

[pia]

I've been better. My depression has been way too strong lately crying
How have you been?
Kairi Overdrive

Report | 04/14/2021 2:18 pm

Kairi Overdrive

i've been better, but thanks for asking <3
how've you been lately? it's nice to see you around here a little more.

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