Me ; Myself Right Now
About me...Hi I'm Joshua smile Short For Terra. smile
I was born on the 11th day of January smile
Im studying at Claret School
WELL....
I’m the kind of boy who is quiet in large groups or around people I don’t know; you only see the real me if we’re close.
I smile and laugh a lot, especially at the most inappropriate times.
I’m a hopeless romantic.
I trip over air, up stairs, and over people’s feet.
I am the hardest person to offend, but it is all too easy to make me feel horrible.
I hate telling people about my problems; they don’t need to worry about me.
I’m the one who listens to other people’s problems.
I believe people should not be judged before one takes the time to get to know them, yet I am guilty of doing that exact thing. I love to think rather than talk. I’m awkward, clumsy, shy, strange… but this is me.
Take it or leave it.
Some days I wake up...
and I feel my soul dying.
As if a part of my heart has been torn away by your hands.
I tell myself you mean no harm.
It’s not your fault.
How will I ever get anywhere in life by blaming someone else?
But I can’t help blaming you in the back of my mind.
I roll over, see you smile, and my lips curve towards my cheekbones, but behind my eyes I am a raging liar.
You have done this.
You have stolen my freedom.
You have stolen the very thing I wish to find in life: truth.
You have not stolen truth itself.
You have stolen my pathway to it.
You sit right in the middle of my hemisphere and consistently demand I revolve myself around you.
You crave my attention.
This is what I am supposed to want.
I am a human being therefore I am born wanting love.
So why do I have it now, and blame it for my lack of options?
Something is telling me this is not love
Something is telling me to back away.
To run before you can get inside my chest and see the monster hiding there.
Then I see you open your eyes wide as you look inside the darkness of my heart, peering into the depths of who I am
My chests tightens as I feel you make the connection between my problem and my lack of words.
I feel the words between us building, and I brace myself for the storm of questions you are creating.
“Babe… what’s wrong?” You say, and I am reminded.
I am reminded why I am here.
Why I have chosen to stick true to this path of life with you.
Because without me saying a word, or letting my mask momentarily slip, you can still read me.
You see straight through my facade.
All of beautiful misinterpretations I readily present to the rest of the world, you push them aside.
You see me for all that I am, and you squeeze my hand softly to remind me I am not alone in my lack of perfection.
You do not hold me back.
You give me a firm foundation to keep my feet on the ground as I allow my eyes to roam the skies, always searching for stars.
You have never given up on me.
Despite all of my walls, blockades, and occasionally entire armies going against you, you have held true to your word and loved me all the same.
I must apologize for my moments of bewilderment.
I never knew I’d find someone as lovely as you are and make it a point to connect your life with my own.
In many ways, this truth feels so alien to me I can’t help but fear I might be glimpsing a dream of another lover’s life...
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by any chance do you play iidx or stepmania lol
I saw you doing this and that on Towns. Gaia 036136 was it?
I don't care...I Love you Terra!!!!!