Deathbed Confessions

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Last Login: 06/25/2019 10:25 am

Registered: 07/06/2007

Birthday: 10/09

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byungjae Report | 01/11/2017 3:01 pm
rapidly getting sucked back in. lets fish sometime
Bohemian Minx Report | 06/26/2015 8:52 pm
By strain, do you mean a bunch of small talk? I go brain dead when someone only replies with "okay" or "lol." How's anyone suppose to reply to that!? gonk

Well.. When it happened, I shrugged it off for a couple days. There are times when even I need my space. And I also know people get busy. When a couple more days go by, a friend mentioned that he could be cheating on me. That didn't help with my emotions. It's more easier to move on, knowing people who are dead are in a better place. And he doesn't have to keep throwing up blood anymore.

Did you follow up on those urges? It's so interesting how we get these instincts.. Like when someone is staring at us from far away, and we can feel it. It's like we're psychic in some kind of way. It really is a blessing, so we don't regret to do things in life. I do sense a change.. I don't think it differs for me, though. If it's friends, or someone I'm in a relationship with.. I get bad feelings. I had the same exact feeling when it came to my grandmother, too. It takes a lot for me to be worried. So when I am, I'm usually right. It freaks me out when they don't reply for a week. I get uncomfortable when a friend tells me nothing is wrong. Because it's like.. Okay, are they hiding it so I won't worry? Or are they really okay? Cause I don't want to pressure anyone to talk about things that they don't want to. At the same time, I want to reassure them that I am here to listen and give my support.

Oh my god. Never! If I love someone, I don't look back to my previous relationship to compare them. Every relationship is new and full of adventure. A life lesson. When people do that, it only makes it difficult to enjoy the current relationship. It holds people back. It builds up walls. I don't want that. I don't want to take people for granted. I'm always going to have love for him. And I know I can love like that again.

Hahaha. An old soul.. Yeah. Probably. I'm different from a lot of people my age. I might have that effect on people. I would hope so! I like to speak my mind, to help create change. I've posted a few of those on Deviantart. Things about abuse, slut shaming, things like that. I get the feeling that people just shrug it off, because people don't usually like to read long literature. It's just easier to type and express myself that way, than to talk in a Youtube video. I'm so awkward.. So I'm not sure how inspirational and strong it would come off as.

Even if it's blunt advice? It really does sound like she is expressing her love that way. Communication is very important. Kind of makes me wonder.. Have you ever seen a therapist? A lot of people nowadays are really negative. You're different. Makes me wonder how you've learned to see things in a different light.

Project yourself? You've done really well. You're very good at explaining yourself. You don't have to worry about that! There are just some people in this world who are not very good at understanding. You just have to find the right person. Someone who's willing to actually listen. I'm positive you will choose the right person for a relationship, because you are very smart. So it doesn't surprise me that you've had great relationships. I'm glad you have! It's usually the nice people who go through a bunch of bullshit.

That's for sure.. It keeps life interesting, though. Don't hold yourself back too much from having fun! Sorry I can't protect you from the sharks. I'll just have to use my magical powers. *Nuzzles into and blushes a bit.*

Ahahaa. Oh boy.. I've only been to Yoga twice. I can try to help you. Not sure how good it will be, though. I'm not very good when it comes to remembering things.
Vanilla_Vodka09 Report | 06/26/2015 7:12 pm
im ok, just been super busy with school, you?
Kidd Tokyo Deleted Report | 06/26/2015 6:03 pm
Nah.
Nikolai Palecoat Report | 06/26/2015 9:54 am
I have always felt that to express your most inner thoughts.... Is beyond helpful, it changes your entire mind set. Its beautiful...! And I when I say can't complain, things have been much worse so I'm pretty happy at the moment thank you!
Nikolai Palecoat Report | 06/26/2015 9:54 am
I have always felt that to express your most inner thoughts.... Is beyond helpful, it changes your entire mind set. Its beautiful...! And I when I say can't complain, things have been much worse so I'm pretty happy at the moment thank you!
Nikolai Palecoat Report | 06/25/2015 9:00 pm
Well, I hope so I was just reading through some of the comments on your pro, and we had rently became friends so I was kinda concerned, I'm glade your okay!
As for me, I can't complain...
Nikolai Palecoat Report | 06/25/2015 12:32 pm
I hope everything's okay...
(^w^)
Kuroko Kusanagi V1 Report | 06/25/2015 7:40 am
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Bohemian Minx Report | 06/25/2015 3:07 am
You're really deep. I bet you get told that a lot. It's very admirable, and hard to find in a person. A lot of people just like small talk. It's nice to know someone's thought process.

That was a very confusing time for me. To know someone over the internet, you can't really.. be there when the person you love is in the hospital. It's strange when you meet someone. You talk with them every single day, for hours. Then all of a sudden, that just stops. You don't hear from the person for a week. The only reason I found out was when his sister told me. It's strange.. Because the day before she did, I had this weird feeling like someone passed away. It was a peaceful feeling, but also sad. I think in a way, it has made me stronger. Perhaps not on everything. Though, it's easier to let go now. I can't expect things to last forever. And that's okay. I just need to keep taking chances, so I can find happiness again.

Seems like parents do that a lot. They don't always think about how someone else may feel. They think about what they're going to say next. I have to agree. It does seem she feels useless, and just gave up. I hope that there are times when she does put in the effort to show that she cares for you. I've got to ask.. Were you annoyed from the advice because she wouldn't listen? Because I like to give advice to my friends, if I think it may help in some way. I don't want to bother you with that.

I never really thought about it like that.. My mind is always changing. Not everybody's willing to move forward with me. I guess it's nice to catch people off guard. But sometimes I feel like nobody ever really knows the real me. So how can they love the real me? I'm not sure how someone can be okay with that, when it's a lonely feeling.

Hope you have a great time! And.. And don't get eaten by sharks. Okay? *Hugs your arm and snuggles against.* I can see it already. You being a pro at Yoga. I get the feeling you have a lot of potential to do many different things.
 
 
 
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