You brain must really be ******** up if you really think I want to talk to you now, or for the next six months. You are just going to say god doesn't hate you and BS like that. You're not going out with me anymore remember? So don't pray for me don't care about me, because aparently if you have anything to do with me God will be mad at you...Know what I decited was must be true? Everyone has their own 'god' like in their mind every one has a diferent version of 'god'. Your god hates me and my god trys to make me happy but can't protect me from your god and almost everyone elses. It makes sence to me.
My love, god does hate me, you proved that he hates me. I must be some crazy b***h or something to say it but he does hate me, those four words now are never going to leave my ******** up thinking. Its implanted in there never to be disloged. Heh...I guess I finally lost it. Everything is torn away little by little, bit by bit untill bam! You're one messed up person ^^ Sorry for bothering you I'll go crawl under my rock now...................I will never forgive you...the pain you have put me through the last four days, they were hell...The days I hoped you were just being stupid and you still loved me...So wrong I was, so wrong I was. ~Twiches~ ^^ Love you lots Fuzzy.
I'm sorry for what ever I did to you....What ever it was, I am sorry that I wasn't good enough maybe, or maybe didn't show I loved you enough, or maybe didn't talk to you long enough over the phone. I must be a horrible person for someone like you to tell me something like 'God told me to break up with you' something you can't get any person to get believe you on that including me. Do i really grow so repulsive that I should be cast away into the deepest part of the eath never to be seen again? Did you think I stopped loving you just because I didn't get to talk to you on gaia anymore? Did you think I would cheat on you or something with my Ex, the man who stoped caring about me to the point I thought I didn't mean anything to anyone, because he came back and you're not on? I want to crawl into a deep dark hole where I can't be hurt anymore by people who I love. I don't care what anyone says but god does really hate me, hes taken everything from me and made my life pointless. Maybe I'm so bad I don't desurve to be happy. Could that be it? I might just quit Gaia now, theres no reason to be on anymore, could I really do that? Then go back to the sad person I was? I could make an effort to make my life better yet I don't know how I would do that. I'm sorry for what ever I did to you.
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