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I'm not gonna say my real name, just my name here. Sooo as you know me, I am Cymbamehbeep as you see in my signature how I run my life is based of Christian values, Filipino tradition/culture and an introverted personality. That sums up what kind of a person I am but for a further explanation:I am a Christian, that's the first thing and the most important thing I'll say. I was a very different person before I accepted Him, very different from now. I used to be very depressed and lonely (I'll get to that later) and because of that I became a very negative person. I was raised as a Christian but this one time I was having doubts. This one night I couldnt go to sleep and I had a thought that what if I died and there is no heaven or hell, what if when I die it will all be nothingness? It was a dangerous thought and I wanted to escape my doubts. So add the depression and the doubts and you get a hopeless person. But this one time my parents were telling me about the Tribulation (or a more easier way to call it, the End of the World in a Christian perspective) telling me about the terrible things that are going to happen and it scared me to death. I knew that I was going to be left behind. So out of fear, I forgot about my doubts and believed anyway, hoping I will escape hell. But the doubts came back, but this time different. I said to myself that I'm not worthy to go to heaven because of my sins and I kept comparing myself to other Christians. I was in another depression. I kept crying my eyes out at night already knowing that I am going to hell. But that's not it. After desperate research, I finally realized that because of God's grace and mercy, he made salvation available to everyone. Once you accept Him into your heart you'll become a new creation. Now I am a new person and I have experienced new changes as a Christian. Maybe you're going through depression or a life that seems hopeless. But if you accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and personal savior you wont be that same depressed person. This is just my way of witnessing to people who read this, sorry if it's a bit too long but moving on....
I am a Filipino and proud of it! I came here to the US four years ago as an immigrant so I knew how it's like to live in the Philippines. Back there I used to admire the US (too much american TV!) but when I came here, it was not what I expected. Iyong mga puti dito walang utak! That's all I can say.
I have an introverted personality, look up introvert if you dont know what it means. I dont like talking to people, there are times in which I just want to be alone. I'm not being a loner okay? It's just that I am concerned about my mental life and I spend a lot of time thinking. But sometimes I feel shy. I feel scared to just go up to someone and say hi because I am scared on what people will think. That's why I always think before I say something, or do something....and that's what got me into a lonely person because I was too scared to say anything. About my mental life? I have a BIG imagination and I always talk inside my head. My imagination is based of my own stories, Fire Emblem (I am a big fanatic of Fire Emblem so yeah) and my own imaginary world I made up with my brother a long time ago. But I cant hold it too much so what I usually do is write my thoughts or talk it out with someone. I am very picky when it comes to friends. I want friends who are also like me, ones who dont talk that much,smart, easy to talk to when it comes to big issues. I really dont like extroverts, they make talking to someone seem so easy but for me it's just very hard.
I am a pretty nice person, I mean I try to be nice to everyone but once you get to know me I could be a cool person to you. So yeah, that's mostly about me, sorry if it's a bit too long but I just cant help expressing myself sweatdrop
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I really like the things you've written about yourself!!!<3
I think you have a good personality!!~~
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I'm excited.
I wanna see it. >_<
I've been pretty much staying home every day. cx
Me lazy bum and my parents have work. xP
I'm almost done with my essay, just the effects and conclusion paragraphs left to type out~. ;D
T____T I forgot about that.
I need to start thinking of a photo essay plann/idea too~
Heehe.
So how's spring breakk?~
Even though it's still only the first day.
Have you started your essay yett?
Big picture. DD;
Sorryy.
You can delete my comment afterward~. ^^
P.S. I take no credit for that picture~. <3
Though it's cute. cx