A lot has changed since I used to use my Gaia, for one it's three years later and I've gone from an immature, selfish, unconfident, spoiled, lost, funny, nerdy, out-of-shape, lazy, depressed, lifeless, moron that wastes days feeling sorry for and hating himself day in and day out to a much more mature adult that has learned the aches and pains of life the hard way and through experience. I thank God for my life and my beautiful mother as well as my imperfect family that without, I'd probably be either dead or just flat out homeless. Through series of what I am obligated to call a series of absolutely incredibly depressing and hope diminishing events, that of which nearly obliterated any amount of spirit I had left in me, I finally began to reevaluate my life, repent to Christ and finally have somewhat of a minute glimmer of hope, for once in my life, I was finally slowly but surely creeping my way to some real change and thus far it has started with some almost obsolete adjustments in my life. Nevertheless, obsolete as they may seem these small changes have made quite a few incredible impacts in my life. I still have a long journey ahead of me but even if physically I have noone but myself I shall never walk alone for by the grace of God I am not perfect, just forgiven. So as for my last year of life I haven't done much in the sense of accomplishing anything outside of motivation and drive, yet I am finally ready to get a job and go to school, I want to be a man that works hard as honoring unto God, I'd also love to further expand my horizons through a formal ediucation, as of now I don't even have a GED l, however Lord willing I shall soon attain one, Ive already begun the process of going to college and getting a job. As for the changes in me mentally, well I'm a lot less needy, clingy and low on self esteem, in fact now I can approach beautiful women and talk without staring at my feet wink
I used to be incapable of such a tramendous feat, don't mistake my kindness and openness for weakness, I am a man of integrity and honesty, send me a PM and let's talk al night smile
God bless and thanks for reading!
Whats up y'all! Just my journals.. Usually used to vent altho not many people actually read em XD