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A lot has changed since I used to use my Gaia, for one it's three years later and I've gone from an immature, selfish, unconfident, spoiled, lost, funny, nerdy, out-of-shape, lazy, depressed, lifeless, moron that wastes days feeling sorry for and hating himself day in and day out to a much more mature adult that has learned the aches and pains of life the hard way and through experience. I thank God for my life and my beautiful mother as well as my imperfect family that without, I'd probably be either dead or just flat out homeless. Through series of what I am obligated to call a series of absolutely incredibly depressing and hope diminishing events, that of which nearly obliterated any amount of spirit I had left in me, I finally began to reevaluate my life, repent to Christ and finally have somewhat of a minute glimmer of hope, for once in my life, I was finally slowly but surely creeping my way to some real change and thus far it has started with some almost obsolete adjustments in my life. Nevertheless, obsolete as they may seem these small changes have made quite a few incredible impacts in my life. I still have a long journey ahead of me but even if physically I have noone but myself I shall never walk alone for by the grace of God I am not perfect, just forgiven. So as for my last year of life I haven't done much in the sense of accomplishing anything outside of motivation and drive, yet I am finally ready to get a job and go to school, I want to be a man that works hard as honoring unto God, I'd also love to further expand my horizons through a formal ediucation, as of now I don't even have a GED l, however Lord willing I shall soon attain one, Ive already begun the process of going to college and getting a job. As for the changes in me mentally, well I'm a lot less needy, clingy and low on self esteem, in fact now I can approach beautiful women and talk without staring at my feet wink I used to be incapable of such a tramendous feat, don't mistake my kindness and openness for weakness, I am a man of integrity and honesty, send me a PM and let's talk al night smile God bless and thanks for reading!

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Whats up y'all! Just my journals.. Usually used to vent altho not many people actually read em XD


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x_riVal-rEdemPtiOn_x

Report | 01/05/2013 1:53 pm

x_riVal-rEdemPtiOn_x

I know that my comment meant something to you, but I can't even begin to remember what happened then aha can you enlighten me?
PhantomKing 13

Report | 08/03/2012 12:49 pm

PhantomKing 13

nice avi n do u know sweet_chocolately_kitty90 her real name n have u heard from her me n a friend r trying to see if she alive
-Oo-CoCo-NuT-oO-

Report | 04/19/2011 5:51 am

-Oo-CoCo-NuT-oO-

hahaha sometimes :]
Isinary Igara

Report | 03/23/2011 2:38 pm

Isinary Igara

dude its beeeeennnnnnn 4 ever o I graduated 9 grade xd im in 10 yeeeeeeiiiiiiiiiiiiiii im a nooooobbbbb in high school mmm i dount think you remember me biggrin ......... do u remember me
x_riVal-rEdemPtiOn_x

Report | 06/09/2010 11:18 pm

x_riVal-rEdemPtiOn_x

Hi, I'm Haven. I took some time and read out your whole "About Me" section (don't be surprised, I have NO life at 1 in the morning XP) and I found it realing touching. Now, I'm just going to come out and say this; I'm a Wiccan and I hope that me being so doesn't affect the way you'll look at me in future tense. But anyway, what I wanted to say: I just wanted to say that it amazes me how open you are about your religion, your outlook on life, what you think about yourself, your dreams, and your relationship with God. Personally, I don't believe in God (and like I said before, I really hope that it doesn't make you view me or what I'm trying to say any differently than what is really true), but I find it amazing how you can be so, what's the word, (I can't think of it. Crap! XD this is going to drive me crazy!!!)...(oh, heads up, I have turetz, so just bare with me as I try to write this without any sleep... I'll get REEAALLYY side tracked!) anyway, like I'm trying to say, I find it amazing that you have such a strong and open belief about God (still not what I'm looking for to say but eh, oh well). I love how you can just tell the truth, no matter how boring you may think it is (and trust me, it's not. I took the time to read that WHOLE thing!... sorry, turetz again). And hey, it doesn't matter what you look like, it's what's in your heart. If your intentions are good and your soul is pure and your heart is open, then that's all you'll need ^_^ lol And about the whole section where you talk about girls putting up with guys, I'd just like to say AMEN!!!!!! (if that's how it's spelled lol remember now, I don't go to church either, so I have absolutely NO idea how to spell church stuff!) We have to put up with complete PIGS!!! All they want is a piece of a** with their beer! And we get treated like crap, cheated on, and taken advantage of! Ugh! I'm sick of it!!!... sorry, more turetz... But overall, what I'm really getting at is that you're a such good person and NEVER let anyone convince you otherwise. You may not be the best looking, but hey, no one is. No one's perfect. We are who we are. In your point of view; God made us this way right? So if he did, he's got a plan for you. And I know that it's going to be something great! And about the singing, if you love it, do it! Chase your dreams! Don't let them get away from you, or else you'll regret it. You are destined for greatness. So live life long and happy. I just wanted to make my mark by saying this. Even though you are an absolute stranger, you have touched my heart and affected my life just because of your writen words. Thank you.
~Haven Evangeline
Broken Feathered Wings

Report | 05/22/2010 6:25 pm

Broken Feathered Wings

heyy.
how've you been? (:
haven't talked in a whileeee.
JapaneseDollie

Report | 04/29/2010 1:51 pm

JapaneseDollie

Hey
Karisa the Demonic Angel

Report | 02/21/2010 7:50 am

Karisa the Demonic Angel

happy birthday!!! lol sorry im a little late, our computer went down for like 6 or 7 months =P
Tichka

Report | 01/29/2010 7:49 am

Tichka

happy biiiiirthday!!!
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Report | 01/26/2010 1:46 pm

-Oo-CoCo-NuT-oO-

hi brothaa! ^0~

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