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I am a 17 yr old that is married in RL.....So don't hit on me I'm already taken.
I'm very blunt and I will tell you what I think of you to your face.
I have a very ******** up family close and distant.
I've hurt many in the past and I can't do anything to change that except say I'm sorry and never do it again.
I am manic bi-polar and My temper is like a ******** ticking bomb.
Only two people in my life know how to calm me down and sometimes I back fire onto them.
That is my sister and my husband.
My husband skitzo....so am I just not as bad.
My tourettes I have had since before pre-k had just gotten worse over the years and most likely wont be the lucky 1% to get rid of it.
I am stupid, funny, hyper, blunt, mean, nice...I'm human I make mistakes.
learn from them.
I am learning how to forgive myself of the past and everything I did.
I will say....I wasn't the greatest kid.
I got into trouble with the law....got into mental hospitals time after time.
I sent my own family in the hospital when I black out while I was pissed.
I try to warn others when I get mad so they wont get hurt or yelled at.
but many don't listen...
I'm a hard worker...but many run over me.
My whole brain is like a ticking bomb of series of different mental issues.
I don't care what you think. I'm me...I'll never be anything else.
Love me or hate me.
I really don't give a ********.
I Can stand up for my friends [and few] family members that I deeply care for better than I could myself.
My reason is I rather have all the pain than watch them suffer.
I have lied, cheated, hurt, abused [verbally and mentally] and made others suffer in the past.
yeah welcome to my every day world.
if you looked back then before I figured out why I was going so wrong...I was needing the shelter and love that every child needs.
My sister always got the attention even though she was a drug addict, acholic, sexaholic and always lied.
All I ever did was get into arguements with my parents but they told me that I was the bad daughter and my sister was the good daughter.
My dad always gave her hugs and told her I love you.
I said Hi to him and he told me to shut up.
My mom always slept or cried.
Where was the supported I needed in life.
NO ******** WERE!
I acted out..trying to grasps there attention but they told me it was my fault I was this way.
I jumped out a ******** MOVING CAR! and they told me That I have no reason to act this way.
I cut, I did drugs, I drank, I had sex, I ran away, I dropped out of school more than once, my grades dropped to nothing, I slept all the time. WHAT THE ******** ELSE DID YOU NEED TO REALIZE SOMETHING WAS ******** WRONG WITH ME!!!!


anyways stop blabbing can't change the past...it just makes you a better person.
but I vow...to be a better mom than my parents were to me.


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Sexual Venom

Report | 05/08/2008 6:54 pm

Sexual Venom

-Lurks- It's Chris
Kitty Lucky

Report | 03/27/2008 12:16 pm

Kitty Lucky

I like your profile!
Creative_and_Unique_Name

Report | 12/14/2007 11:34 am

Creative_and_Unique_Name

Rawr >_>
ootusnamisueki

Report | 08/25/2007 8:27 am

ootusnamisueki

your layout is retarted destinee you haven't even played but a tiny bit of kingdom hearts. you are only doing it becuase you think others think it's cool but it's a disgrace seeing how you haven't played the game all the way*tisk tisk* lol j/k no seriously it's not you
chained up lez kitty N-H

Report | 08/07/2007 7:49 am

chained up lez kitty N-H

yay comment's to random omg your not random...
bumjohnny2

Report | 07/20/2007 11:01 pm

bumjohnny2

so funny
badteethmate

Report | 07/17/2007 8:16 am

badteethmate

Ahh!... this is good
golden_mule1

Report | 07/16/2007 8:23 pm

golden_mule1

extremely beautiful grrr...
Cry_Wolf5

Report | 07/16/2007 1:52 am

Cry_Wolf5

Ahh!... this is intriguing
Trust Dana Scully

Report | 07/16/2007 1:43 am

Trust Dana Scully

[I'm a random]

I saw ya avvie on the "Rate my Avatar" Page, And I must say

IT'S SO KAWAII xD OMG I love it ^^ User Image

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