so another school year's finally come to a close nd it really REALLY sucked. i got busted for alcohol and my grades have dropped. also, i've realized that its really difficult to be something other than the status quo. recently one of my closest guy friends got pissed because i was joking around about lesbian sex an proceeded to ignore me for a day or so. it really hurt when i confronted him and realized that by "i don't mind you being bi" he really meant its only ok if you keep it hidden. i've known him for a couple of years now and he never showed any problem with my orientation. now though, he's completely changed and throws a mini tantrum whenever i choose to talk about my attraction for women and it's really pissing me off. i mean, if he feels this way, whats not to say that my other friends aren't the same? i already can't tell my parents because i know they will disown me or, worse, stop paying for college. my sister, who knows, ignores the fact and walks away wheneer i try to talk to her about it. i've been hiding my sexual orientation all my life and i thought i would be able to finally be open and not judged at college. i guess not. i thought it was bad when people were blatantly against it, but thanks to my friend, i've realized that hypocrits are much worse.
damn...this has turned into a rant....not what i wanted, but it felt good. oh well.
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