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All the hatred with one another is pain to see, paint to receive.

It happens everywhere you go, and everywhere I went. I get bullied and taken advantage of no matter what I do. I can't say stop or tell people no, I am practically hurting myself by letting it happen. I just want it all to stop, people just say what they want. Just know what what every person says leads more and more into being alone in a dark room. It makes me feel like crying, I try to gold in my emotions but it doesn't always work. I am strong enough not to cry on the outside, but on the inside I can't handle it. Inside I am just dying and screaming from the pain. The smallest things someone says affects a persons life, it just bundles up into a big pile of trash that then gets thrown at the person. I have that feeling all the time and I just can't handle it anymore. I just want someone to care to keep me from doing bad things to myself instead of them just ignoring me. What if someone was in danger, physically and or mentally and they call you. If you ignore them like you do to me and hurt them, imagine what will happen to them. They will be more than just asleep. That guilt will then haunt you for the rest of your life and you will end up at some point going down that path turning into the person you ignored and bullied. I feel that mostly everyone ignores when I am in pain, especially when I am just not in the mood to deal with more crap from people yelling at people and making me do things for them. I don't understand anymore. I will never understand, but will live the rest of my life worried.