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Do you ever wonder if people are just using you to get farther? Or if they pretend to like you after you've done something to upset them and they say "its all ok now". Or what they say when your not there?

Its not like I care weather or not you like me, like my actions or how I think. Its more of a why are you doing that? Do you really think I am that blonde not to figure it out? I can tell when your pretending, or trying to avoid me at all costs except when you need me for something.

I would prefer it if those people just staight up told me their REAL feelings. Thats how my best friend and I are at all times, and its great. When they are mad or pissed off or annoyed by me, they tell me. And I may not always agree or like it, but its a huge way to show me that you respect me, and I like that.

And I don't expect anyone to give me resect right away, thats something you earn. why is it that some people just think they deserve respect just because? I think that is something you earn over a period of time.

Well, I guess thats just how some people are. And I am not here to change anyone, only to help improve those wanting help, and to improve myself. You learn from every action, of everyday, of every moment, even when you don't notice it.

Well, being the day after Valentines' day, you'd think you'd see a bunch of happier poeple walking around and basking in the joy of knowing someone loves them.

But then again, why do we need a national holiday to "show" someone you love them by bringing them gifts on this day? Wouldn't it be nicer and mean more if you gave something to someone just beacuse? Not for anything special, but just a random act on a random day.

And why do you have to give someething to the one you love anyways?? Isen't your time and presnce enough for them? You just being there, just sharing your time with them. Yes, thats what i call true love. Just spending time with someone, taking a moment out of your hetic life to just see them. You don't have to do anything at all but be together. No gifts, no talking, just togetherness. Sharring laughs, smiles, fears and tears, knowing all along that person will be by your side for ever.

Well, its my first time ever using this, so here goes nothing!

Once again work has called on me to cover their butts, and for what? Nothing in return but a small thank you. I am doing a job of a higher manager and being paid and have the tittle of a lower one. Maybe its the way things are to go in life, but I think otherwise. You should be congrats. on your hard work and be seen better for it. I guess I don't understand how the company higher ups works. Or maybe this is how the think things shoud be and I am being to self centered.