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I'v showed you more in 1 week then I'v showed anyone in my life....my olny hope is that you look at it and understand...
things I like to listion to /watch enjoy.
MY FAVORITE SONG FROM MY FAVORITE MOVIE
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uJ0OjAExpqI

random fun facts
http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/video/shifthappens

Memorys of mad world
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SGnKWJ_j34k&mode=related&search=

Mad World Anime by Tears For Fears ((werd fast version....I prfur the outher 1))
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NClmSm8hhv4&NR=1

Riot
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qqjvHeoBEDk

Numb
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=incsY-vDy3Y

99 red baloons
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TY0w9eKtg-U

V1. winter born
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lI8OZut_osg

V2. winter born
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wjHXJoXli3k

Get Your Hands Off My Girlfriend
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V-GOUYBsO-c

Wake me up
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KtQ0GWzyGwU&eurl=http://www.subeta.ws/users/SorenFaye

Animal I Have Become
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3uiq6NxPb7Q&feature=related

"Just Like You"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EK164ghVOzE&feature=related

I Hate Everything about you
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CMT3Wggd2Uk

Bump In The Night
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gUvo-xEnWu4&feature=related

Come little children.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1_IqEyCqy5A&feature=related

This is Halloween♄
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=twk1VglfWT4&feature=related

((a weird song I like the beat mostly the words honistly -_-#)) Dream A Dream
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2iOZEJ_1bQ4&feature=related

numa numa &3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vnr3EVpwLwI

Numa Numa (English) &3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jywnry7sX2o

"the cutest song ever." &3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-rQmulPHw0A

what hurts the most
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zc91OjXr4zg

Angel's Heart In A Blender ((bwhahaha cute Angel makes blood gush))
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b_zlMis9SEo

Richard-When you're evil
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sQm_Tx2VA5Q

Spirited Away AMV-Get Out Alive/Three Days Grace
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VXPwpMERzjw

Lenny Kravitz - I want to get away
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E2uQ8GMHlTI

Final Fantasy - I like to move it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=07hxojtM4O4

Evangelion ending theme (full theme) "Fly me to the moon"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hMbbMkZtO_s

Ouran High School Host Club "Little Bitty Pretty One"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6r46QHB1sZ0

Drift away- Uncle Kracker
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hOCxCohF-vc

Zack Fair Is Going To The Spirit In The Sky
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X5ZszmguV_E

I will survive (Final Fantasy Remix)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f0v-7t9UJQs

Jeremiah Was a Bull Frog
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PR2zwU7W8ZY

Avril Lavigne - complicated
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OxSfGO-Rda4

I'm only happy when it rains
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F6rFerMzaWQ

Ishizu-feel the rain on your skin
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0qus6y5lUzk

Scat Man AMV
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fpglptRYKDA

Bad, Bad, Leroy Brown- Samurai Champloo
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9J8MVMLH03U

ShugoChara-Hey now,You're a rockstar.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UZ8c9PinZSU

Vampire AMV
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PTBcT1pSTVI&eurl=http://www.subeta.ws/users/vladcrimsonwing

Self-Righteous Suicide
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MunA-7SXAVQ

"I love you eggs song." <3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QB3esfZrZl0

living paine releaf.
"what do you do when nothing eases your mentel struggel but for 2 people. You love and trust them sooo deeply that it's painfull but you never want to let them go or make them sad. And what happens if you feal that you'v made them sad or anre some how hurting them... in my cace thay are my world I exist to see them happpy. oh sure I could exsist and live with out them but thered be litel to no point. so what happens if a negative self emage upsts them both. I know I'v done wrog ,and I know I'v bin forgiven. But in my head it isnt enugf. I hurt them. I let what happen happen..... and it hurts to have done that.... to mently remind myself what I done..... why cant I forget my anger..... I know to remimber the lession but not toforgive myself and realeav my anger.... I still feal durty....unpure and unworthy of the love I have with them...... I get told over and over...it's ok no one blames you for what happend it wasnt you falt....but I sould have seen it comeing...I sould have stoped it...WHY?!? why didnt I?.... why do I feal like I liked it... sure alot of it anyone would like but I feal that I souldnt have...unnng... I try angane and agane to let go....let it die....after all thay love me and souldnt that be all that maters...it is in so many ways....so why do I call my self a ugly slut unwothy of love for being taken avatge of agane...it about 1 year senc past...it sould be ok now so why? why isnt it? why isnt it over. it's insane...one minut it's of I am happy and alls forgiven and the next I'm beating my self mently into a depreshion....yet here tay are agane....I'm with them and nothing maters when it's so...I will always love the,..I have yet to forget love evin the ones lost and mabby thats why it still hurts but.....thats why thay are specel thay hold me and say tose all so gloyous words "I love you." and all of the paine gos away if only for that moment....so long as I can be with them I am happy just to live to be near them.... thay make me happy...and when I'm away form them I feal lonely...one I can only see online for the moment the outer I suffer without his touch....but the love for them is so strong....without ether of them I'd be torn apart I'd be nothing agane...becuse I only feal good when I know I have them...when I know thay'll be there I wont give up becuse I can make tham happy yes I....I can do that... it's so butefull to see them simle or belev thay are m.smiling and that I did it....I made that happen and that thay dont wnat to let me go...that thayed miss me if I disaperd or locked my self awayt agane..... I feal so wodefull when thay are in my thoughts and thats all I need to remimber their happy instead of there paine if I could only do that nothing would hurt in my mind , soul or heart....any outher pain can be egnored as if it was nothing but not if I remimber theres. Thay are my living loveing and gloryous pain releaf so can I ever hope to releav theirs?....do I truly have a cance at that abilty? Do I truly make it better when I smile or is it a farce?.... I'd like to think that I can be as good to them as thay are me for I love how thay take all my paine away with one smile and three words"

My Dream of destruction....
My Wish proves how selfish of a human I am...
My dream would have even the thought of anny in all civalization bestroyed befor it was evine a posably cretion..
My one desieres would have calused no knowledge to have bin learnd. no since would have ever bin descoverd. No enventions would have bin made and sertnly no medacation ever concocted..
My dream would be asking the world to give up and die crushing others dreams so mine could become a realty.
My bream would crush thae mane focuse of the human mind know as anbission and if you dont baleave that anbishion it the cause of lift then ask you self why do I keep moving?
Becuse of anbishion people moved on to grow merly becuse 1 beeing whanted to do smting or know something no one elce had done or known. but the destoction of anbishion isnt the olny aspect of this dream of mine....religion would be erased to........
Becuse all of religion is baced on the sempel fact that there is a highter beeing than evry one elce..
My dream would cause the destroction of polaticks causing dissorder globel wide for noone would have cotrole of anyone elce...
Have you gessd my dream?.....No? then here are some more hents
My dream would cause the death of milions becuse crimales would no longer be consieder crimanels. There wouls be no difrence between rite and wrong so why would muders and rpeist be held in prisions.
My dream would mean no one could clame a thing not evin dinner at anothes expence....
My dream would make evry one soo ideotick that being calld a vegatable would be an complament...
I'n short my dream would ablitarate all life forms by takeing away ther need to grow...
If you hadent not gessd it than I' dont know what to tell you to help you gess it so here it is and here is why...

My dream is to end mente sufring and any forme of shunning tords others. I want evry one to finlly see that thay have no right to pick on or mock anyone elce just becuse tay are difrent or hve a difrent way of seeing things....what dose this dream haf to do with the statment above you ask..... Well lets think about it.. if evryt one saw them selft the same as evry one elce mently why would anyone ever have the need to better themselves and learn more. None of our concepte would have bin thought of becuse no one would have bin wrong to be proven wrong. We'd still think It was ok to take over and kill anyones land becuse if our fathe did it then I wana do it to sence a muder woulnd never have bin any difrent from a moral man and no one would be wron or rite becuse that would mean the you say your selft as beter than thim. that would mean that you knew bettwe than them and you were smater and deserved more than te outher guy. That would mean that he is not the same as you and he is beneht you thus he would be excluded.
Now do you understand?
Now do you see why drteams of equatly will never be truly relized?
If not then you are folling yourself.
It is esentel to look at yourself as higer that someone elce.
To be sucsessfull you must separate yourself from others.

And I what that to end so that is why I am selfish.... I want the paine to stop and aI want evry one to live happly together without the need to down outhers to look beter. I want evry one to acept flaws along with pefections and do so with out harsh words. My dream will never come true becus no one could live wihout an ego to inflate and that is how it starts. yow call someone elce stupid ether harshly of all doold up in pritty words and you tel them thay are wrong for thinking that.

My dream.....my deam is an wish for deth I am an dark beeing

The dead man....
I never ment to frget....
It's like he's a dead man...
He calls me and begs me to call him...
But then I fogot him agane....
I'm sush a crul and unfogiving wench....
I fogit the one man whon I shuld never fogit..
I'mm killing him...
but not on the out side...
I'm crushing his heat and not even know it untill he tells me...
How could you not relize you'r causing someone paine...
I'm kissing his soul.....
I dont know how to talk to or beg fogivnes lick I suld be doing...
Not when it come to him...
I never did I use to fear him soo much....
Now I dont know why...
Why cant I tell you how and what I feal?...
I cant undo it but...
BUT I AM SORRY FATHER I NEVR MENT TO FORGIT


The bleeding heart.....
Don't tell me you love me unless you mean it......
My heart bleeds....
The moment I sence conpasion my heart opens for it...
I cant make the bleeding stop....
I love to love and to be loved.......
But my heart bleeds...
I wont denie a person my love if thay desier it....
I cant more than I wont.....
I'v tryed to stop it.....
but it bleeds..
Evry time a person that wanted my love leaves me....
Evry time I meet someone new to love me....
Evry time I see the face of one I given a peace of my heart to..
I mone inside...
I love them all......no mate wht tayv dont the love never rusts or fades....
If thay crushed me......it's still there..
Hate....paine....sarow...fear is added but is can fade....
But not the love.....It huts...but that is how much I love you..
I love evry moment I'm with you...
And aparet of me will die when I lose you.....
So pleas dont say you love me unless you mean it...
Becuse I'll sacrafice my minde for you'r love rether that lose it in my sanity...
I'm alredy haf way there.......So pleas dont say you love me unless you mean it....
I love too easly and too much.....I am a bleeding heart
I live to love.....but I must lock away my fealings....
Thay get in the way.....I want to love ...not feal fear or anger....or jelousy
Thay hurt me more than anything.....
I'm a bleeding heart and I bleed for you....
You are my world so long as you are with me.....
I am but a servent to you whems...
I hate all that love themself soo much thay turn away on outhers...
You must understand....
I Bleed for you because I love you...
Please acept me I am you'r bleeding heart...


You asked me what my world is like?
If I were to tell you are you soo sure you could handel it?
Most I show it to cant take the presure...
when I was younge I myself hand no world..
My word was my father...
He died as my world when he turnd his back on my fealings...
He told me this was never soo....
You want to hear what it's like in my world?....
I'll tell you....but only becuse you asked..

In my world I have no shape..
Soo I take the strogest 1 I can find..
I use to think that was the image of a man...
I use to dres as, act like, think like...what I tought it was to be a man I did...
But not any mone now...
I am as I feal....
I bleed as I feal..
I weep when I feal..
HATE..
It buns...I cant keep it in....nooo make it stop..
It's flames thay lick at my bones...thay want my blood...
Thay'v wated for soo long....thay are soo close now...
Memorys...I'm not alive.....I am a mimory...
You say I shuld stop living in the past?...
Are you asking me to stop living?....
I am my past.... my past made my present...
I feal....I feal strange.... withe each kiss it almost hurts...
I...Ican love....but my love wont stop....
AHHHH I'm blinde I cant see you!!...
Pleas make it stop...I want to see your face dont you leave me...
HATE...it's back....it's grown....it's crushing me...
NO MY LOVE DONT LEAVE ME ALONE WIT IT PLEAS....
Dont make me beg.....the door closes I am alone....
I see somthing....a lite?.... it's comeing closer....
"Dont worry I wont leave you" it says.....
A friend?.....will it stay with me?....so warm....
Unnn?....why am I wet.....red water?....No I know this..
I'm bleeding...IT HURTS PLEAS STOP.....
It desipears....where did it go?.....I feal it....
I...It's inside of me......I'll proteckt it....I'll love it...
There back....the people have come back.....
Hay what are thay doing.....why are thay restraing me?...
Soo sleepy.......sleep.....I wake....my eyes soo much lite...
It burns...pleas come out littel lite I dont need all of this lite just you....
All I need is you in my darkness...Hay where are you?....Why wont you anser?..
it's gone....it's dead....says the creator of my flesh....
NOOO I NEED IT..... You agreed it was for the best the people say...
Yaaaaaaaaaa NOOOO IT HURTS....I cry.....I'm crying?
it's bin so long....it feals soo good....then there is nothing...
I...I'm alone and I'v....lost my world.....
For months there was nothing.....Whats this? a familer face?...
Hay it's a lil lite..... no this ons biger....it's a person...
I'm sorry....it says....I...I want you to stay with me...
I hear it's words....Hay I see a new world at my fet...this one's blank..
I'll stay with you dont worry ...I open my eyes...I'm home....My old love?...
Why is he hear....he shuldent be here.....whats this I can see?...
I agree to be with him....He smiles....I can see it..

Now there are sevrl littel lites....thay all love me.... can I love them all to?...
Is 1 person aloud all this love?......I love them to.... Thay make the hurting weeker....
It still hurts.....but when I/m with eather of them I fera blessd....I can forgit for a lil wile....I still like to be alone...It hurts at first....to be without them hurts....none of them like my lovely darkness....but I need it.....I still live in my own darkness....I can nolnger feal....I'v given that up....but I can reflect what thay feal...That makes them happy....In love to ease thayer piane.... It makes me feal is if I have a perpous..I dont deserv what I have....But if I keep it and give it to them thay will stay....Wont thay?.....I pray to what ever it is that I pray to....Pleas dont let them hate me....I dont want to bring thim the kind of paine I fealt...I want to help them live....dont let me kill thayr worlds...


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