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No one really reads my journal, so i guess it is safe to post here.

I have learned a few things about myself that i didn't know before...

I am Beautiful. It was the hardest thing to learn for me, for i have always believed otherwise. I had to figure this out myself, and it was a long a difficult journey that has taken me 18 and a half years.

I am grateful for everything that i have. Almost every day, i sit and think about how grateful i am for everything i have, and everyone i have met in my life time, good or bad, it doesn't matter.

I have made very bad decisions in my life. I have also come to terms with this, and i have accepted my mistakes and like some of my others.

Love is evil. It is a double edged sword that likes to shove itself into my heart constantly, and i just let my heart be broken(repetitively), and let myself be treated so terribly.

I am lost. I have lost my way, and i am digging my own grave. I believe i am clinicly depressed, and possibly going off my rocker. I think i need professional help.

I am mature. I have matured much faster and farther than any of the friends i know, but the consequence of this is that sometimes i forget how to have fun like a child. Sometimes i take life too seriously, but i'm also proud to say that i have begun to reverse this and smile more.

Nothing i do is ever enough. I am always second best, second thought, last resort, liked least.

I am naiive. The world is full of things that i just fall right into without even knowing, and it consumes me until i hate myself.