The way you make it sound, the only way she could be a decent person is if she had feelings for you.
There is absolutely an element of that in my ranting, and it seems like the weakest part of my argument, when in fact it could be the strongest.
It should hurt to push people away, it should hurt to say "goodbye." Of course we can't have feelings "in that way" for each other, and awkwardness is something that makes us uncomfortable.
But she has a good idea how much pain I'm going through, and she chooses to exacerbate that pain, rather than treat me well. She doesn't apologize, she works to make me feel like I'm the bad guy the few times we talk. "Oh well, it's because I ultimately can't give you what you want. Better that you be angry than deluded."
Yeah, and whose fault is that? I mean, you'll say "I have a right to feel the way I want to feel."
So love isn't something you choose, but something that happens? Wow, that means no one owes anything to each other.
What she wants is something to tell her that unrestrained sexuality and all its consequences are correct, that people can treat each other like dirt because love is subjective. And while I can't sit around and say "you should love me," I can't say that not because it's her "right," but because I recognize her right since I love her as a human, and love her in an even deeper sense.
Trust me, I'd rather be deluded, because then I can have hope you have some dignity. Whereas, right now, you're making psychopaths look moral. At least they can blame their crimes on a mental disorder. You, on the other hand, willingly choose to hurt, to be used and use others and call that freedom.
Shame on you, and shame on us, for allowing this to occur. The latest rantings I have on Macbeth pretty much say that the modern world destroyed love by making the freedom to pursue desire the cornerstone of all politics and thought. What's funny is that my "rantings" are conceded by someone who very much wants the modern world to come about, William Shakespeare, and he can see this problem, the problem of others' greed destroying the happiness of those who want less, a mile away.
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