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I don't want to be like this... how everyday i look at other people and want to be something else than what i am. I want to be able to believe in myself, to love me for me.... not wanting to be skinnier, prettier etc...
I want to be completely happy... i don't want to slip into the girl i use to be, thinking about killing myself every day when i wake up. I have Rave now, but i don't think he knows of the old me. How i use to sleep with a knife under my bed.
I hate this...


~Envy~ is the desire for others' traits, status, abilities, or situation.