I have no idea... how I should approach this.
"Putting someone behind you implies that you are at peace with them..."
But the more 'at peace' I seem to be, the grudges seem to be that much bigger and the bitterness and resentment seems to take over that much more.
There's a connection still, and I'm not sure if I want it. I'm... incredibly angry right now, and jealous. And I don't think I should be either of those.
Like I ended everything, and was the one who did everything right.
I was the one who kept getting hurt, and I was let go to make things easier?
The conquered cur will stray from strangers because it doesn't know what to expect, except for that which it knows well: pain. And then it only licks it's wounds.
Should I be angry that she can move on so much easier than I can? There's a connection still, that I'm not sure I want... I don't know what I want. I'm damned, regardless. She'll be too far, and I'll want her close... or she'll be close, and I want her closer. *sigh*
Oh, and I didn't win the Regional scholarship... stare
Song of the Day: You Could Be Happy
Band: Snow Patrol
"Putting someone behind you implies that you are at peace with them..."
But the more 'at peace' I seem to be, the grudges seem to be that much bigger and the bitterness and resentment seems to take over that much more.
There's a connection still, and I'm not sure if I want it. I'm... incredibly angry right now, and jealous. And I don't think I should be either of those.
Like I ended everything, and was the one who did everything right.
I was the one who kept getting hurt, and I was let go to make things easier?
The conquered cur will stray from strangers because it doesn't know what to expect, except for that which it knows well: pain. And then it only licks it's wounds.
Should I be angry that she can move on so much easier than I can? There's a connection still, that I'm not sure I want... I don't know what I want. I'm damned, regardless. She'll be too far, and I'll want her close... or she'll be close, and I want her closer. *sigh*
Oh, and I didn't win the Regional scholarship... stare
Song of the Day: You Could Be Happy
Band: Snow Patrol
