I have a lot of feelings going through my head recently... I think I shall post them here...
-If only I could hold you in my arms, I would feel like nothing was wrong...
-I wish I could kill myself with your problems just to see you happy again...
-I want to be able to tell you how I really feel... But I would only make you turn away from me...
-You can never be able to like me because you are better than I am. I wouldn't deserve you or anything you could give me...
-Wondering when I will find that person that will say and mean those three words...
-I guess I have to pretend to not feel or show bad emotions, just so I seem that much stronger when I try to protect my friends while I still have them...
-I am deathly afraid of eventually separating from you guys, just because I know I will be alone and scared...
-Why can't I stop stareing at that one 8th grader??? He is cute, but I'd never have the chance to even talk to him... xd
-I hope she doesn't hurt herself too badly, because she is beautiful and awesome and she shouldn't have to feel the pain.
-Why should I pretend to care when I already think they hate me???..
-Everytime I talk to you, I smile, just because you waste your time listening to what I say.
-I wish to show my feelings, but I only feel that much weaker.
-I wonder how many lives could be better if I wasn't here.
-If I wanted some stranger to randomly try to get in my head, I'd talk to someone on here, so why hire some freak that thinks they know me...
-I wish I could show you that you do matter without you argueing with me, just so I know that you actually listen to me...
-I think I like some guy, but I hate feeling stupid for liking him, only because I'm positive he secretly hates me.
-I hate not being out to the world for the fear of the bad things that could happen. Also I wish I could like a guy in real life here without getting looked down upon because then I would get to actully like their personality instead of feeling shallow for liking them for their looks. I wish I could be around them and feel good instead of being distant and feeling afraid...
-How come it seems like every time I make a really really good friend on here, they have to leave me in some way?!?!
-I want to hide my feelings. I'm not afraid of being rejected, I'm afraid of losing anyone I may have feelings for.
-I think I have a weekend routine. Start things out and be happy and have fun, and then eventually have it ruined by something that makes me horribly sad. I guess I'm just lucky when I have fully good weekends....
-I feel as if I should delete everyone off my friends list but my real life friends and try not to make new friends that can leave me just so I don't feel somewhat hurt...
jjmistaken · Fri Jan 12, 2007 @ 10:13pm · 1 Comments |