Here's what happened fro mthe beginning, I have a "friend" Matt. We've been sleeping/seeing each other for a while now(at least a couple of months) and he told me that he was going to come with my friends and myself on our night out. He also told me that he was going to stay the night as well (which wouldn't have mattered one way or the other).
So last night was supposed to be the night out with all my friends. We were going to go to a restaurant (so my roommate could eat a 7 pound burger). I went with my "friend" Matt in his car. On the way to the restaurant he told me that his friend (who shall be nameless) and him got together last night and that he wasn't going to be spending the night with me. I wasn't mad about that, but the fact that he changed the plans not even an hour before we were supposed to do that, and that he told me all these things about how he liked me and everything like that then just f*cked me over. This isn't the first time that he's blown me off for other people. I was pissed.
So we get to the restaurant and I'm not being my normal self and my friend Kenneth (who I'm head over heels for) noticed this and was being very tentative. I was about to get all sorts of emotional (but I refuse to let people see me weak), so I walked away from the table pretending I got a call. I proceed to walk outside and Matt comes up to me and says, "Are you mad?" I was about to slap the crap out of him. Then he said, "I'm not going to be upset if you are angry with me." I couldn't believe he had the nerve to say something like that. He then proceeded to tell me that he still liked me and that we could still "hang out." He was also unsure who he wanted to be with. I was so pissed last night.
So after dinner I told him if you want to see her so bad than just go. The didn't even blink before he said, "You don't mind." I would have started to beat him, if it wasn't for Kenneth. When he was leaving the restaurant he turned to hug me like nothing happened. The last thing I said to him was don't call me. If I want to talk to you I will call you.
You know I have no idea why I put up with it for so long. I can't say it was because it of his p***s... because it wasn't all that. I mean it was like the size of a hotdog (and not the big ones). I'm sorry I just needed to rant. The only good thing that came from this was the fact that Kenneth was being such a sweetheart. He escorted me to his truck and he was trying to keep me from getting all sorts of emotional. He is the best. Like I said sorry for all this ranting. I just needed to get it all off my chest. Seeing how I am a guy I just don't understand why guys lead some people on? I mean if they don't want something than why don't they just tell us and not just let us believe there is something when there isn't.
Shadow Weaver · Sat Feb 19, 2005 @ 06:50pm · 0 Comments |