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Farewell to a good friend
Update | October 2, 2007
Due to my profile being featured, many just read this entry of mine. I appreciate all your kind words and support. If you would like to read more about my friend Icarus, I established a charity called UTOPIA to honor him. We also have a little shrine for him, just click this link if you wish to visit it - LINK.

The past 3 weeks I've been rarely on gaia due to hectic RL schedule. One of my major priorities was to conduct a charity event in Manila which was held last December 14, 2006. I was aiming to launch a website to show the event to all of you on or before Christmas Day. But there were some issues I cant ignore, the launching of my website was postponed. I've been working around the clock to manage projects for the company I am currently employed with. I manage a team based in Manila so my timezone is pretty much screwed. I am sad that I have no time to visit Gaia and join the holiday events setup by the admins and the little giveaway thread me and my friends organized. Time passed by quickly and so was my ability to recognize the year 2006 actually ended.

Last Friday January 5th, 11 PM my body collapsed due to anxiety panic attack (I refuse to admit I am overly stressed and my will-power to function is limited to my brain ). I dont recall much, but all I know its been very difficult for me to sleep and relax. I find it hard to eat and I feel nauseated even if I think of food. My condition isn't life threatening, its a result of my negligence and taking my health for granted. After a few weeks of rest and obedience to follow my medication I will be back to normal.

My medication helps me relax, but it does make me dizzy and become uncoordinated. Good thing about it I dont need to work as much. So yesterday I managed to log back to gaia (even for 5 mins) to close down the holiday thread. I also informed a few of my friends about my health condition and limitation to be visible online. Today I have another few minutes to check gaia and I try to read as many PMs as possible and respond to each and everyone of them. A certain PM crushed my heart, it made me realize health and life shouldn't be taken for granted. One of my dear friends/supporters in gaia passed away - Icarus.

I know you were a good friend of his so i am giving the notice i gave everyone in our guild and am working on giving the charity and things.

I don't know how to tell you guys this. It is a very hard thing for me because I loved him dearly.

Icarus was sick. He had bad headaches and then nosebleeds. He would get very sick. One day he passed out in class and he was rushed to the hospital. They found a mass on his brain and had to run tests. His roommate said that he died in surgery on Christmas day.

It was a hemotoma. That means his brain was bleeding..sort of like a bruise. That is blood under the skin but this was in his brain.

Darren is my first love and I will miss him so very much. He helped me discover a lot about myself and to really grow up.

He's gained his wings and can truly fly to the moon or sun and back.

He will be missed greatly and remembered.

I managed to know him in a personal level (even if its just virtually). For a young adult, his wisdom and persona is beyond his years, I consider myself lucky to cross pathed with someone like him. It hurts me to know that I wasn't around much to talk to him during his last few weeks. He was one of the first few people I talked to about my real life charity work. I have so many plans to have him participate and even assign him to be a content writer for articles I plan to make. It hurts me to know he wont be around to participate and witness the projects he help me planned.

I will never forget you Icarus, you are a genuine person and a true friend. You are one of those rare individuals who gave me support for nothing in exchange besides the joy of helping a friend. It makes me sad I cant give you a tribute equally as remarkable as the one you`ve given me. But I promise to do my best for everyone to remember you, your good deeds, talents and your amazing personality.

Depth of friendship does not depend on length of acquaintance.

My prayers are always with your family, friends, loved ones and of course you (wherever you are). And if there is a heaven (and if I was given a ticket to enter) expect a little tap on your left shoulder coming from me soon.

Yours sincerely,
(your virtual big sister)

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comment Commented on: Sun Jan 14, 2007 @ 07:35pm
I did not now him as close as others, yet i have barn witness to his kindness, he was a young man on incomprehindible kindness. He touched many hearts as the sky itself, myself included, it was as if he drew happiness from the giving happiness to others. Being such a gentle and kind soul i dont belive he would want any to mourn, yet i belive he would want us to continue on and contie to stay happy, as i belive that would give him happiness. 3nodding

Also i am going to make a plushie of him once i can get screne of his av.

comment Commented on: Sun Jan 14, 2007 @ 07:49pm
OMG Plexi, that almost made me cry...and I don't cry ((and I'm not joking either))
I knew Icarus even before he and others opened the tribune to you. He was always so happy to see us all and never once to me mentioned about his problems (( Or to anybody else from what I know)) Probably for the fact that he didn't want to worry anyone.
But anyways Darren was my brother from another mother smile I love him enough to consider him my brother! He helped me with issues that run a muck in my head. I just wish that I could have somehow helped him with his.

I'm happy that I got to talk with him one last time before he went....I just wish I could have said good bye, though I was never good with good byes sad Even writing this is hard to me. I just hope you understand that to me he was a brother and a great friend for how ever long I got to know him.
Now he is in a better place who no pain will torment him.

R.I.P Darren sad I'll miss you much and you will ALWAYS hold a special place in my heart. I could NEVER forget about you.

((Great now I'm about to cry))

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comment Commented on: Sun Jan 14, 2007 @ 08:34pm
I'm so sorry Lexie, I'm crying now and I don't even know him, i'm sure he is happy for all you are doing for him, and i wish there was some way I could help, If you ever need anyone to talk to don't hasitate to pm me.

comment Commented on: Sun Jan 14, 2007 @ 10:46pm

Awe, Plexi that was beautiful, makes me shake a little inside.

I didn't know him very well, but of the many times I had spoken to him he always made me feel like I had known him a long time. Always very welcoming, always wanting to talk to reguardless of who you are, he always brought a smile to my face when we would chat. I was in shock when I found out, no idea what to feel, for two days straight I was very easily reminded of him.

He was truly a good soul, I and many others will miss him a great deal.

I hope wherever he is now, he is happy.

Found this little snippet from Eternal, I'll treasure it. crying

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Always for you too Darren.


[PS]: I hope you feel better Plexi. ><

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comment Commented on: Sun Jan 14, 2007 @ 11:02pm
That was truley amazing.

I can say from my own heart that Darren was an amazing person, in pixels and life. I may not of known both sides of him, but i feel a connection with him. Its like a spark, a hope, a wish, a dream. He could cheer you up when you were down and he put everyone else before himself. He was just amazing and beyond.

A true gaian, a true friend and a Hero to those who knew him.

To Darren,
You touched my heart with your kindness, and i wish you didnt have to go away. These too few valuable moments i have known you, i shall never forget. Please dont you foget, because i know i never will. I know you are thinking about us, we all are dreaming about you. How free you must be. I hope you like what i made for you.


We love you, Darren.

& Plexi, i hope you get well soon.

comment Commented on: Sun Jan 14, 2007 @ 11:11pm
My tribute:

"Icarus is truly one of the greatest friends I've had on gaia... and in my life I suppose. He was kind and generous and he made friends for the sake of being their friends... nothing more. He is wise and inspiring to me... I've never met anyone I could connect with in so many ways. He supported me in everything and it cheers me up every time I talked to him. I'm glad I got to know him at a personal level, even though it was only for a rather short while. There is truly nothing negative about him... he was kind to everyone he met. So thank you Darren, for being my friend and for everything you've ever done to help so many people. You are one of the rare individuals I've met on gaia that I've considered a true friend. You will never be forgotten and I will always miss you. If you ever do wave at us from the heavens I will definitely be waving back.

<3 Shery (also known as Naeyru)"

Every time I read this journal entry of yours I feel like crying (The first time I actually did).
This is my xmas gift to him.. which I pmed on Xmas eve but he never got to open that pm... sad

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comment Commented on: Mon Jan 15, 2007 @ 12:26am
Thank you for this lovely tribute to him. I did not get the chance to know him very well, but he was very kind to me and to know he has passed... It makes me very sad when people like him go and people who are 100% selfish live. The world is so unfair sometimes. Your signature is also beautiful. I'll make sure to wave back, indeed.

My prayers to Icarus 2.0 and his close friends and family. I'll never forget him. I'll see him in the distant future. I look forward to it.

Also, my prayers to you that you will return to good health soon.

comment Commented on: Wed Jan 17, 2007 @ 09:07am
that was beautiful. I never knew Icarus, but I lost a friend last year so I sympathize.

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comment Commented on: Wed Jan 17, 2007 @ 11:23pm
I hope everything turns out alright, Lexi gonk

comment Commented on: Fri Jan 19, 2007 @ 03:29am
You and Icarus were and are two people that made me proud to be a Gaian.

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comment Commented on: Sat Jan 20, 2007 @ 08:44am
My tribute:

Although me and Icky were never really on at the same time, I knew he was nice. The first time I ran into him he was still the hidden avi that everyone had known to love. We talked and I soon found out he was very nice and he could even calm me down if I was mad. So, I donated to him some tickets that I had to spare because I thought he deserved it. He said thanks and that was probably one of the last times I talked to him. I may have talked to him 5 other times tops. He gave me the panda pack that I have now from the Eternal give away and I will never sell it. Because out sheduals didn't match up, the last thing I ever said to him was "Hi and bye" or something sort of like that (May have been different words). Even though he is gone, and in the words of a child much younger than I:

No one ever dies. They just get shattered into a bunch of pieces and a piece is given to each of those of know and loved him

Good bye Icky. You may be gone, but never forgotten.

comment Commented on: Mon Jan 22, 2007 @ 09:17pm
The Protector <3

On Christmas day we cheer with joy,
For presents and for fun.
Santa Clause will come our way,
And give us lots of love.
But on Christmas day I lost a friend,
Who made me laugh and smile.
I only found out yesterday,
I’ll be saddened for a while.
Darren was our friend and pal,
He loved to give and chat.
Hemotoma took him away from us,
Even though we want him back.
He fought a losing battle,
But at least we know he tried.
I only hold one regret,
That I didn’t say goodbye.
But now we will honor him,
And remember the life he had.
The memories of him will live on,
But we cannot be sad.
Because now he can protect us,
From the heavens up above.
So don’t mourn his death anymore.
Just send him all your love.
-- Miralyn

Nick Told Me I Should Post It Here. :]

I Read That In Front Of My English Class...
And I Started To Cry. ;/

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comment Commented on: Sun Jan 28, 2007 @ 06:49am
Hey there, Plexi. Every now and again, I stop by your page in order to see how you're doing (but not in that creepy way), and to maybe say hello. I came across this journal entry after seeing the R.I.P. in [[_DeVoN_]]'s thread, and as I began to read it, a dejected feeling came over me.

I am truly sorry to hear about Icarus. I know he was a good friend of yours, and regardless of whether I ever met him or not, I can recognize the pain that you, his close friends and family, are now feeling. I wish you nothing but the best and pray that you all will be all right with time. Take care, and the best of luck to you with your charity work.


Dizzy Vixen

comment Commented on: Sun Jan 28, 2007 @ 07:26pm
I never new icarus or plexi until about 20 minutes ago wheni was browsing t3h vending guild. He seemed like an amazing guy and i wish i knew him. Your entry sent shivers down my spine which rarely happens about once a year. He and you are truly great gaians that should be shown the up-most respect by everyone.

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comment Commented on: Sun Jan 28, 2007 @ 11:38pm
I feel so guilty. That was so sad.

You lie above our space and all,
It seemed so big when you were here.
But when you're looking up from clouds,
You'll notice it's just a small town.
But your heart was big,
And your envy was small.
May good luck bring,
A better life.

His health may look bad, but his smile never broke or twitched.
R.I.P Icarus.

comment Commented on: Wed Jan 31, 2007 @ 03:46pm
Plexi....that was just beautiful what you said crying heart
So many things true about him right there.

But what Im really here for is to commemorate Darren for being such an awesome person and and above all a good friend to us all. He was like a virtual brother to me. He was loyal, loving, and a very generous person. I was there for him as he was there for me many times in the past. Words are tough to describe him but the sad part of the thing is that his life was unfortunately cute short. May you soul rest in peace my good friend and hope your looking down upon us as we're looking up in the sky for you.
Darren was loved by many and is still loved deep within all our hearts. If you can hear me man, rest assured I'll be joining you up there when my time comes. So Darren I'd take this time to tell you just how close of friends we have been and it was great knowing you. I shall never forget you <3


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comment Commented on: Wed Jan 31, 2007 @ 08:33pm
I remember him from the thread he made a while back ago, in July 2006 to help you come back to Gaia when you were banned unfairly.

I thought what he was doing was really loyal as a friend and the kindness thing anyone could try to do.

I'm glad to see that his work was worth it all.

I now wish I could have helped more back then, but we cant linger in the past its too painful but it dose not mean we forget about them, when my grandma passed away I was tolled to remember them for all the kindness they have brought to the world because that is how they remember us when they pass away.

I know its a few weeks late but I hope everything is alright with you.
*hugs* heart

comment Commented on: Fri Feb 09, 2007 @ 04:04am

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comment Commented on: Thu Feb 15, 2007 @ 04:13am
I can't believe Icarus is gone, I didn't know him as close as others, but he was always very kind and generous to me. I'll miss him and I hope his family is doing okay.

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comment Commented on: Sun Feb 25, 2007 @ 04:08pm
It's beautiful that you want to help others.
Everything else is beautiful, too.

comment Commented on: Mon Feb 26, 2007 @ 03:17am
=o I'm so sorry to hear that.
T^T It's a terrible loss, even though I don't know him.
I'm sure he was a great person.

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comment Commented on: Sun Mar 04, 2007 @ 07:27am
You shall be missed my old old old old freinds ... I just wish I had gotten to know u better

comment Commented on: Wed Mar 28, 2007 @ 04:19pm
crying I did not know him either, but I hope we wasn't in too much pain. I too like to think there's a heaven though, where you can spend your days studying whatever you want, and you always have money to spend ( I like to think of it as our earth only better). Hell, he's probably on Gaia on a better server up there. wink

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comment Commented on: Thu Mar 29, 2007 @ 05:52pm
wow. i am truly sorry for his family/friends. I knew him as a eternal founder, but i did not know him personally. I know what it's like to lose someone who is very close to you, so here i offer you sympathy.

Your journal is so deep, it made me cry. It is a great tribute to him.

comment Commented on: Sun Apr 15, 2007 @ 04:54am
That was absolutely BEAUTIFUL.
I didn't cry a lot, but I felt a few tears roll down.
I felt strange as they did, because I didn't even cry at my grandfather's funeral.
God bless you. <3
I never knew him...but I feel like I have known him forever after reading this.
I wish I would of gotten to talk to him. Sounds like the nicest person in the world.
I hope he is having fun where ever he is at, doing whatever he is doing.
May he rest in peace for eternity.

Courtney M.

I think somebody came on his account, since it said last login in Feb.

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comment Commented on: Thu May 24, 2007 @ 04:52am
I realize I'm an absolute stranger to you and your friends, and I didn't have any idea who Darren was, but I - like many others, it seems - cried a little when I read this. He seems like one of those truly amazing people that are so rare to find. It's tragic that he had to end that way. I wish that I could have spoken to him. I find it comparable, in my mind, to touching an angel. :]

I wish the best for you, his family and friends, and anyone else lucky enough to read this journal entry. :]

Love to you all, Col.

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comment Commented on: Sat May 26, 2007 @ 01:48pm
Hello, another random stranger here. I too have lost a loved one, so yes, your journal did make me remember what it was like and cry. I hope your health improves also. Take care.

comment Commented on: Fri Jun 08, 2007 @ 05:06am
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That was very sad and I don't know you OR him.
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comment Commented on: Sat Jun 23, 2007 @ 04:57am
We'll all meet in the end wearing our final gaia outfit...forever roleplaying...

It is always sad when a fellow gaian leaves us...we are all part of a huge family..even if we don't all know each other..we'll meet up in the after life.


...til the end of time

comment Commented on: Sat Jun 23, 2007 @ 08:00am
Sad. Its good that you have recovered, but your friends news was sad. Very nice of you that you helped others ^^
P.S. staying healthy is the most important of all.

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comment Commented on: Wed Aug 15, 2007 @ 04:11pm
My mom is from Manila. O:

That was really sad. It's hard going through a death.
I went through surgery 2 times, due to my rare heart condition. I need a third one.

comment Commented on: Sat Aug 18, 2007 @ 08:03am
greetings ms.plexi ^_^..even though I'm also a stranger I just want you to look at icarus's avatar do you see his angelic pendant?do you still remember what it means?when the pendant is worn by a person with pure heart it glows I'm very happy you met a person like him may he be with you and to the people that cared for him well take care always smile and God bless get well soon ^.^...

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comment Commented on: Wed Sep 26, 2007 @ 02:14am
I never knew Darren, but reading about him makes me wish I had. He sounded like an amazing person and I am sure that he is in heaven now, watching you and everyone that he cared about.

comment Commented on: Wed Sep 26, 2007 @ 02:32am
hi....I just found your profile and journal, and wanted to say how much your tribute to your friend touched my heart. I am fairly new to Gaia, but I've made good friends here already. I wish you and your friends the best.

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comment Commented on: Wed Sep 26, 2007 @ 02:33am
hi....I just found your profile and journal, and wanted to say how much your tribute to your friend touched my heart. I am fairly new to Gaia, but I've made good friends here already. I wish you and your friends the best.

comment Commented on: Wed Sep 26, 2007 @ 03:43am
omg i heart ur pro. and journal can u donate some money i'm poor

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comment Commented on: Wed Sep 26, 2007 @ 04:01am
awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww blaugh heart

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comment Commented on: Wed Sep 26, 2007 @ 04:03am
You have my deepest sympathies, I feel for you for I know what it is like to lose someone you love dearly.

May he rest in heavenly peace.

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comment Commented on: Wed Sep 26, 2007 @ 08:37am
im sorry to here of your ill state.. and more deeply sorry to here of Icarus... i had only met him once or twice around the site, but he was a great guy from those small encounters... after reading this i went around and found alot of his old psots and was warmed to see he was always as good as he seemed ^_^ if nothin else take this as incentive to make yourself healthier...

and ps. angel_896_wings you make me sick scream , begging for money on such a journal as this

comment Commented on: Wed Sep 26, 2007 @ 11:04am
öhh good! dramallama confused

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comment Commented on: Wed Sep 26, 2007 @ 03:17pm
I adore love you.

Christmas Day..?

Oh yes I do.

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comment Commented on: Wed Sep 26, 2007 @ 05:54pm
It's always sad to hear when a dear friend passes away. But I'm sure he's in a better place now, as most people say, and doing so much good up there as well.
And I hope that you are doing well now and getting better.


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comment Commented on: Wed Sep 26, 2007 @ 08:13pm
hey plexi!

your pro piz awsome!!!!
you rock!!!!!!

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comment Commented on: Thu Sep 27, 2007 @ 01:34am
That is a very sad statement, I hope you feel better. Icarus, I never knew you, but we all know you are in a better place. R.I.P. 3nodding

comment Commented on: Thu Sep 27, 2007 @ 06:25am
This is probably the time when you doubt god.

I have no idea who you are or who he was but, you touched me deep inside my heart. sad Please, take care of your health,it's important. Please.

He is in a better place now. Spend the rest of your life happy, not regreting anything.

You have my deepest sympathies. heart

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