This whole middle school thing is finally getting to me. For the first semester, it was like, wow, this is nice, why does everyone always say it's bad? But it's all coming down around my ears.
I really can't figure out who my friends are. I don't know who I can trust. People feel that they either have to ignore or insult me CONSTANTLY. I'm that kid that everyone loves to hate and ignore and steal from, and I HATE IT.
Jasonu Samurai wrote:
well, if you have confidence in yourself, they're bound to see.
That's the problem. I have too much. I always know the answers in class, and I'm not about to act dumb and get cruddy grades just so people will like me. And it wouldn't work--whenever I miss ONE MATH PROBLEM I hear about it months after. I'm one of the highest grade-people in my Honors classes and my others.
Look, I'm really sorry about the way I've been acting...but if anything, it's gotten worse since kindergarten. And my counselors and parents and EVERYONE's just been telling me to ignore it, and I try really hard, and then some kid does something I can't ignore.
I seriously don't get the boy thing.
I mean all the boys at my school are complete jerks.
And there are two pregnant seventh graders.
I don't get it.
Friends...I'm trying. I'm really trying. But I've got a reputation...and it's not good.
 Araia.Naishi · Thu Feb 17, 2005 @ 04:39pm · 2 Comments |
