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This is my journal, i keep my thoughts here about people and my life. Feel free to talk to me if you wish.
Separation
Life passes by with each moment we think, breathe, see, and do... Sometimes too fast does the time go by... I often think to myself, what could i have done different in the past. When i think of it now, that voice in the back of my head says, you coulda walked your dog a lot more often. What an idiot i think of myself now... to clear things up first, my dog found a way out through our front gate. He got so smart, ever since a pup he had found ways around things, yet i loved him so much. He was the only member of the family who i could stare at, and he would not falter, he would stare back and show deep in his eyes that he cared so much, especially when i needed the love. Damn it.... i never thought he would get out and venture. I guess he became too smart to be called a dog, he was later found of the side of the rood nearby, hit and run. Thankfully, my neighbor took her to the vets, yet no amount of help could save my dog. I was being picked up from a friends house, we were working on a proect, i was told moments after i entered the car for my way home that this happened while i was out. I know i did not leave the gate open, i was careful about that before riding my bike out. My strategy from then on was to avoid the tears, salute his spirit, and focus on other things. Everyone else was hit as hard as me, maybe worse. Sometimes i felt like stopping life and curling up in a ball to cry, he was no ordinary dog, he was my dog, the one i loved and cared for. How wrongful of them to take him from me, yet i can not take him back. I can only move on. We own a german shepard pup now, i only allowed it to help with my sisters, and the pup melted my heart.... Today is another day, time is becoming too short, life moves on, and so must I... these are my thoughts... My safety to you and your loved ones fellow gaians...

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  • User Comments: [6]
    That sounds beautiful!

    comment [Kagura] · Community Member · Wed Mar 02, 2005 @ 05:18am
    life seems so short some times, it makes me start to wonder why i even exist. i really like the way your mind works, its just beautiful.

    comment neh_loves_demons · Community Member · Wed Mar 02, 2005 @ 06:55am
    I started to cry as I read these words of with you said! For yesh'..I lost lots of my love one ecspeacaly my dogs, and I miss them so much!

    comment rendergold · Community Member · Thu Mar 10, 2005 @ 11:28am
    I'm sorry...I've had many losses myself cry

    comment Shadow -Raven · Community Member · Sat Mar 12, 2005 @ 02:44am
    crying crying crying

    comment ~Homicidal Marshmallow~ · Community Member · Thu Apr 07, 2005 @ 02:38pm
    poor Shadow. i feel your pains.

    comment spellstutter · Community Member · Sat May 14, 2005 @ 09:29am
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