Bleh, I'm extremely depressed. I've been working 12 hour shifts because people are to lazy to finish them and then staying until I'm late for school because they're too lazy to come in early or on time for me or they lie about coming in early. I get hardly any sleep, I never have a chance to talk to my girlfriend because she's always busy with something and I just wanna break down and cry. emo I'm such a loser. I'm not even getting payed any extra for all this stupid manager bullshit that I'm doing. Right now I'm doing it out of the kindness of my heart, which is slowly disappearing. I feel like this job is sucking all the feeling out of me and I'm becoming some sort of angry, numb, empty shell of a person who has no more sympathy or empathy for anything. Right now I could care less if other people are working from 6am to 4pm. I don't care if they have to do an overnight and open in the morning. I'm ready to just stop showing up for work at this point and get on with my life. They know I have school and they said they'd work with that. Well, that was a load of bullshit. They haven't worked with me at all about that. I'm just their little work monkey they use when they don't wanna work themselves and they don't give a s**t what I feel like or the stress I'm dealing with. Well, if things don't get better by the 19th like they say they will, I'm out without a warning. They can go through the same s**t I'm going through right now and maybe they'll learn a lesson in how to treat their employees. More over, my only relief is talking to Miri, which I rarley get to do because the devil is conspiring against me and I get business only when on the phone with her, or she's busy with homework or anime or something and we just breath at each other. I really could have used a nice conversation with her today but I was too busy and she became occupied with something else in the meantime. I feel like I'm trapped in some sort of personal hell and I'm gonna have to do this horrible job for an eternity, never getting to see my girlfriend while she has plenty of company up at her school. I'm in a job induced exile and I feel like I'm losing everything I have, including my sanity. And it doesn't help that I have people come into the drive through asking for old food and bullshit like that. People are so incredibly stupid nowadays that it's sometimes hard to deal with them at all. And holy s**t! It's, like, 20 ******** degrees in this place! Anyways, this is probably my last journal since I'm quitting unless someone convinces me otherwise. I'm gonna go think about how great it would be to sleep in the cold lobby and take orders form idiots who order "Can I get a drink, that's all." in the goddamn drive through.