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Unausprechlichen Kulten
My Rants ...for the most part
Title unrelated.

I'm fairly new to the concept of depression. I don't log onto this account very often, and I've been shying away from gaia more and more. I'll never leave gaia, not really... but I do seem to come less and less, and post only so much.

I think I know why.

I joined way back in '03, and made quite a few friends. Since then most of them have gone their seperate ways, and I've lost contact with them. I joined a few rp's, and over time they all managed to be snuffed out. One never made it to the guild registry, and the other two died after making their way out of the main forums. Mind you, I only ever gave my attentions to one of these. So the rp that meant most to me, and that I'd invested a lot of time in, slowed down... and eventually was lost to all of us. We had ideas. We just didn't have time. Or at least we had our excuses. I don't like looking at the list of my guilds and not seeing it there. It causes pain in my heart, because for a while we were all kind of growing together. Remember folks: friends through and through.

I find it interesting that even though I am the owner and "creator" of one of the most succesful guilds in the GGN, I've so often considered leaving. I won't, because I know I'd just end up coming back. So I guess my current objective is to bring as many people I know in real life into my guild as I can. I will be much more inclined to hang around and such if there are people I actually really know, other than my wife, for me to talk with. Skepty, Pulga, Nadian, Wiedzy, Mango, Strideo, Iris, Katsu, Tarrien, Norran, and all the rest are all good... but I've never had the chance to know them out of gaia. People are very different online, if they don't mean to be.

So yes. We'll see if my eldritch plots and schemes can work.

In other words: I think I miss the people that I once knew.

P.S. I may have made "Why Not?" and bought the guild off of Tseta C. Aito, but it was my wife that made it. Also, I am not now, nor do I think I ever have been, depressed.

Forlani Mordecai
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Forlani Mordecai
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    that is deep dude. cry

    comment AFROQUEEN 123 · Community Member · Wed May 30, 2007 @ 03:40am
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