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ITS RELLY WIERE BUT FOR A FEW SECOND I REALLY WANTED TO DIE
I WAS WALKING HOME
MY "FRIENDS" CALLED FROM BEHIND
I YELLED OUT "WHAT!"
THEN TURNED AROUND
I WAS ANGRY MY COACH FOR TELING ME THAT I WAS DOING SOMETHING WRONG
IT WASNT THE WORST THING HE HAS DONE BUT
IT JUST TOTALLY TICKED ME OFF FOR SOME REASON
WALKING ALONE FELT GOOD
BUT WRONG AT THE SAME TIME
JUST THEN A CAR CAME
AND IN MY MIND
I JUST SAW MYSELF WALKING RIGHT INTO IT
AND I DIDNT CARE WAT HAPPENED NEXT
BUT I CAME BACK TO MY SENCES AND WALKED AFTER IT HAD PASSED
SOME MEXICAN GUYS
d**k HEADS
ASKED ME IF I WANTED A RID IN SPANISH
I FELT LIKE USEING MY RACKET AND MAKE A DEEP DENT IN THEIR CAR
SO I GOT TO MY STREET AND FELT LIKE POUNDING THE s**t OUT OF SOMTHIN
BUT THERE WAS NOTHING I COULD DO ABOUT IT
AND STILL FROM TIME TO TIME I THINK OF
DEATH
BUT WHAT KEEPS ME AWAY IS MY HEART
IT CARES SO MUCH FOFR THE ONES IT LOVES AND STOPS ME
SOMETIMES I FELL LIKE GIVING MY SELF DRUGS TO HELP ME SLEEP
AND NEVER WAKE UP
I DONT WANT A PAINFUL DEATH
OR A PEACEFUL ONE
I JUST WANT TO FEEL LIKE I HAVENT DIED AT ALL
ID BE DOING A LOT OF PEOPLE FAVORES
ONE LESS PERSON TO PAY FOR FOR MY PARENTS
NO MORE FIGHTS WITH ME FOR MY SISTERS
NO MORE HEARING MY PROBLEMS FOR MY FRIENDS
AND FOR ME THE PAIN IN MY LIFELESS HEART GONE
FOR THE BOY WHO NEVER LOVED ME
BUT I ALWAYS LOVED HIM
IF I DIE THERE WOULD BE NO WAY FOR US TO BE TOGETHER
AND SO I WOULD NOT CARE IF I COULD STILL SEE HIM OR NOT