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So what is it like to watch someone die...
My grandmother has been sick for about 10 years now and it seems like shes in the final stretch. She can barely breathe now and is maybe 60lbs. She can't talk or eat and she is pumped up on drugs and my mom feeds her through a tube in her stomach. She wears a diaper and everything.

Well, now she seems like it about time she dies. She fading away and you can see it.

I'm sad but, I'm also blank about it. Shes been this way about 90% of the time I've known her. Shes lived with us since forever, shes been sick the whole time. I guess when I was younger maybe around 5 or 6 I knew her a little bit, but other than that, she's just been the sick old lady that lives with us.

I can tell my mom is really sad and depressed over the whole thing, I can understand that, I mean, how wouldI feel if I've been taking care of her for 10 years and then shes about to die? So yeah, I would probably feel the same.

I don't even know why I'm writing this. Maybe I'm just bored and that seems to be the topic of the day. A lot of family and people came over and prayed over grandma.

It's just a really sad time I guess and I feel a bit sad over the fact that I don't feel as sad as I think I should.

Whatever. ; ;

EDIT: Well, she died. This morning on the 17th. And now all of the sudden I've been tearing up on and off. ><

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commentCommented on: Wed Oct 11, 2006 @ 08:18am
crying That's horrible! My grandmother passed somewhat like that but I knew her for a while so it was terribly depressing, and even tho she was sick its like I got used to taking care of her and stuff... so once she was gone something was like not right. I hope you and your family have recovered from this extreme loss. And don't worry a lot of times when people die/are really sick you feel numb its perfectly normal.

commentCommented on: Thu Oct 18, 2007 @ 10:15pm
I couldn't relate to you more, i've been living with my grandma ever since i can remember, and its hard to watch her slowly pass away every day :/ she cant even remember my name anymore..im sorry for you loss, wish you the best in life

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commentCommented on: Thu Nov 08, 2007 @ 03:00am
I know how you feel I had to help take care of my grandma when she wasnt doing well hey I guess I was the only one she had to help her. Her own daughter never came down well only when she wanted money. And my grandma was the first one to pick a fight with some body.

commentCommented on: Mon Oct 13, 2008 @ 02:21am
it didnt happen to my grandmother, but i know how you feel..
i had to watch my girlfriend die..its close enough, except i actually knew her and loved her..

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