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For the longest days I always have trouble determining my own self- worth.. I always see myself wallowing in self-pity, I was at a point where I literally did things that was beneath me, like: begging for someone to stay and being a people pleaser way too much. I know what should be done but somehow I always have trouble manifesting it. I disrespected myself a lot of times by staying in a place or being in a position where I was no longer needed or wanted, and although I am very much aware of these, I hate how I have trouble dealing with it or making rational decisions based of it. My friends told me a lot of great and amazing advices, and honestly I can definitely say I really lack self-love and self-worth. I wish in time, I could actually learn to have it. I need to start choosing and prioritizing myself, but being the kind of mess that I am, I know this is going to be hard. I hope in the near future, I'll chose myself this time. But until then, I need to start building my own self-respect, boundaries and self-esteem without the need to change my true self. praying and hoping, may the universe guide me.