Just recently decided to cut fast food out of my diet. It was almost daily, and I guarantee it's the reason why I feel terrible. After all of my health issues that happened back to back, it made me realize how poorly I treat my body. It deserves better, regardless of if I feel or think otherwise.

I also need to quit smoking. I can't quit cold turkey on all of my vices, but I can cut back on them until I can quit indefinitely. I'm on antidepressants and Adderall, so I really shouldn't be smoking green, to begin with. ******** me up more than I'd like to admit.

I have an appointment on the 30th, and she sounds extremely promising. She was the one that called us back, while others had their secretaries handle it. She specializes in adult ADHD, PTSD, and severe depression. Check, check, and check. Need all three to be addressed and dealt with. I'm tired of self-destructing almost monthly. I need help.

November flew by faster than I realized. This week is Thanksgiving. Thank God for the virus, cause that means the BF and I can make our own tiny meal and be alone for the holiday. I love his folks (don't talk to mine because they're hot ******** garbage), but I hate going to social gatherings. Drains me like a ********.

I got back into advertising my 21+ Fallout server. I was only prompted to do so because we had a random person join today. That was the motivation I needed to get back in the game and try again. I really want it to do well, but I doubt myself so much.

Again, really need this counselor to work out. I'm tired of feeling this way.