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Another night feeling blue
I'm watching Lilo & Stitch 2... and Stitch reminds me of myself, of how I was in my last relationship. It was supposed to be "The" relationship for me. The one that would lead me to marriage, a house together, and children too certainly... but it ended up not being "The" one for me after all... all because, just like Stitch, I was bad. And in the movie, it wasn't Stitch's fault. And in my life it isn't my fault either... I'm not bad.

Every day of this week I've been waking up early and going to bed early. All so that I can have a better lifestyle. I wake up early so I can exercise alone in the morning with no distractions. And I get into my home office between 6:30AM and 7:00AM. I review my agenda for the day and start working on things at 8:00AM.

Right now I'm awake because I was tired at 5:30PM or something earlier... I didn't get to code yet so I'll work on some programming for about an hour and then head to bed at 11PM. I know that were in quarantine right now and that I'm not even working, but I want to take this opportunity to build good work ethic. Because I believe I can make a difference in life. Be a good leader one day in a workplace. Because I believe I have sound judgement and because I am always trying to be the best human being a person can be.

There are a few things I am putting my focus on in my life today and these are the words that best describe my goal:

Candor. Human connection. Integrity.

One day I'll be a married man. A father. A grandfather. And when I become a grandfather, I will understand what it means even more to be a human being. More than the bunch of things I know today from having been a lonely child because my parents decided to work too much instead of spending time with me. They claim they had to work so we can have a better future, and I don't judge them about it anymore. However I want to have the ability to give my future family a better life. One in which I'll have work to sustain my family, but also time to love my family, the other most important part of my life.

I'll be fine. I have my head up. The love of my life will come to me one day. And I'll become a programmer very soon and earn a better salary throughout the years and start my little home business online too. And in everything I do, "candor, human connection, and integrity" will be the essence of my work.

Loopy Wry
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